Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Family, today we picked up Beej's remains. It has certainly helped remind us that he is no longer in his body, but in heaven with Christ Jesus! We are so very thankful for that. There are times we miss him so much that the hurt makes us sick at our stomachs. But our gentle Savior reminds us frequently that there is no suffering for him, and that ours is temporary...Praise Jesus!

Reading his journal entries continues to take precedence over most other reading. I can hear his voice when I read his words. I hope that never changes. I am continuing to learn things about my son as well. I did not know that he felt called to martyrdom. My new "daughter" Barbara Ann reflected on that in the KFOR interview in Ok City. [By the way, super job Brooke, Barbara Ann, Tara, and Ashley (Ashley's face and interview did not make the final story)]. I knew he was very moved by stories of martyrs, but that was it. Certainly reading his words have given clues as well. This journal entry reflects on Psalm 119:1-8, and Phil 1:20-2:11.

"We should always keep a record of God's faithfulness so that we don't forget even the little things He does for us. God is faithful and always provides and will never leave or forsake us. Vv. 1-8 emphasize integrity, and can be summed up in v.1 and v.8. In v.1, it talks of how those who follow God's Word are blessed. V.8 talks of how "I will obey Your principles," which sums up much of the rest of the passage.

Philippians- living is all for Christ and entails many trials and persecutions, and is better for those around you, but dying and going to be with the Lord is better for yourself. We need to live with courage and character worthy of citizens of heaven and fight boldly in this spiritual war we are immersed in, and take our suffering boldly, for it is a pleasure to suffer for Christ. We need to live humble lives, considering others as better than ourselves, for even Christ, who is God, humbled Himself."

I can tell you that as a father, when I went on my first overseas mission trip, I wept at the airport prior to leaving, as I knew that I was willing to lay my life down for Christ, but ached at the thought of not seeing my family again. BJ loves the Savior so much that he did lay his life down for Him. I miss Beej, but am proud of his willingness to make this sacrifice.

To the 97 who walked the aisle (Friday night) to declare their willingness to serve Jesus on the mission field: I am as proud of each of you for the boldness of your commitment as I am my son. I pray that each of your parents stand behind your willingness to serve, wherever the Lord leads you!!! Know that Deanna and I stand behind you, and will be praying for each of you as you focus on Christ.

To the 8 who turned their lives over to Christ: Praise the Lord for your boldness and willingness to lay down your rights to yourself to serve the King of Kings. Begin reading the book of John in the New Testament. This is a picture of Christs life through the ministry years, and as we are called to follow Him, this shows us the example we are to follow. Also, get hooked up in a Bible teaching church! You need to be discipled and to grow! We have been made aware of who 2 of you are, but would love to hear from each of you, either through this blog sight or e-mail. It's been posted once, but you can reach us at bahiggins1259@msn.com

Serving the King beside you,


(for those who are searching for ways to access the different media interviews, or the webcast of Beej's Celebration, please read through the blogs posted, as instructions have been offered up by fellow bloggers.)


At 5:58 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

we will all join BJ and be with the
1 we lost. most importantly we will be with our savior and his father!!!
thanks 4 the update!!! continue 2 praY!
Julie Meils-

At 5:59 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


At 6:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

How beautiful it is that you continue to share and minister. I continue to absorb the words and works of our Lord and Savior. I've learned so much this last month --- and my relationship with Christ is forefront and ongoing.

May you all find a peace and comfort during those times of mourning, a light during your times of darkness and the knowledge that there are so many who are holding you high to our Lor

At 6:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Family,

You have been on my heart and in my prayers all day. I know it had to be hard as it was one more step in finality. But I praise God that you know where BJ is and that you will all join him someday. I do ache for you as I know the pain is still raw and sharp. There are many of us who wish we could carry that pain and burden for you. If it were possible we would in a heart beat.

Thank you all again for being so open with us and for the wonderful praise and worship time on Fri. I am still awed by how the Lord put it all together.

To Cousin Beth and Becky--it was wonderful getting to meet you. You were a blessing to both Heather and me. And a special thank you to Vicki for befriending me at the family's dinner.

May God continue to comfort you as you walk the difficult road of grieving. You will forever remain in my prayers.


At 6:24 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I continue to pray for your family! I am sorry that I couldn't make it to the funeral. But have heard about how it was done just as BJ would have wanted it and that is so awesome!

I was doing my quiet time and thought of BJ and about the 97 people who said they wanted to go on the mission field and the other 8 who came to know Christ. I was reading John Piper's "Let the Nations be Glad!" and this sentence really struck me:

"God uses the suffering of his missionaries to awaken others out of their slumbers of indifference and make them bold."

God is definitely at work through all of this. We sever such an awesome and mighty God.

Laura O.

At 6:56 PM, Blogger . said...

I just wanted to let all four of you know that I continue to remember you in prayer, and will continue to do so.

A couple short stories to explain my confidence that I will not forget to pray:

In 1993, I went to Russia on a short-term missions trip. God planted a love for Russia in my heart, which makes Cousin Becky a special person to me. So as long as there is a Russia, I will remember to pray for the Higgins family.

In the early 70's, my cousin David (who was about BJ's age) was killed in a tragic accident on the mission field where his parents were serving. As long as that branch of my family tree exists (and there are 17 of them at present count) I will remember to pray for the Higgins family.

(Not to mention that BJ's life and his story themselves are enough to remind me to pray!)

Still praying....

At 6:58 PM, Blogger Nic and Jen said...

Higgins family,
I have been thinking of you today, as I knew this would be a hard day for you. Wow... it sounds like BJ went to be with Jesus doing the one thing he wanted to do... bring others to Christ, and possibly give his life for it. The Lord has a mighty purpose for bringing BJ home, and I think the world is starting to see it! His purpose is to bring other people to Him, share the courage of a young man and his testimony (BJ), and also to strengthen the faith of fellow believers like myself and my husband. Every day I am astounded at how gracious your family is by getting on this website and posting, despite your hurts, despite your grief, and despite how hard it must be to write about your son. I have a 10 yr old and a 4 yr old. I cannot even fathom what it would be like to lose one of them. But I will tell you what I have learned from YOUR FAMILY and from BJ.... I have learned that suffering in human form is temporary if we love Jesus, and I have learned that I want my kids to be on fire for God like your son was. I can only pray that they grow up to be like BJ. I am serious. He will live in my heart forever and be an inspiration to me even though I never knew him and we live in Washington. I do have to share one thing with you. One of my very best friends lost her mother in August to cancer. Her mother was a Christian, and I have learned so much in these last few months. Her mother journaled alot, and I have shared this website with her. I have encouraged her to share her mom's journaling with others. Her mother's one wish for her children (4 girls) was for each of them to personally know the Lord. Death is never easy, but I have learned that if you die loving Christ and having a personal relationship with him, then it is ok. Then we get to be with Him, and we get new healed bodies. We are praying for you.
In Christ,

At 7:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

WOW! 97! That is SOOOO GOD!!! And more and more entering the kingdom of heaven! Praise Jesus!!

Bj's writings are so powerful and most definately do NOT sound like the words of a 15 year old. More like ones of someone who is 60-80 years old and have lived a full life with Christ. Our precious God gave your precious BJ the wisdom of Solomon!!!! Words cannot explain how awesome his insights are....or how they impact my life everytime you write them! THANK YOU!!!

Know that we love you, will hold you up in prayer, and feel a part of your lives, even if we don't know you. God bless you!!

Linda Anderson
Willows, California

At 7:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Higgens Family,

As an AWE STAR parent, it was hard for us to let my daughter
Brittany go on her first Awe Star
trip to Peru 4 years ago.What made
it easier for my wife to let her go was what our Pastor's wife told her. Their daughter went to Peru
the year before, so when our Pastor's wife talked to my wife,
she told her " I do not want to be
guilty of stopping God's plans for
her life." It was something like that.
Brittany met B.J. in 2004 Peru
trip even though she was on the
Peru extreme team.
My wife and I passed the first
"test" by letting our daughter go.
The blessing we recieved when we
read all the reports from Peru of
all the people being saved.
After the first trip ,it was easy
to let her go two more times to Peru.
God tested our trust in Him once again when Brittany decided Uganda this past
summer. I knew Africa was comming
sooner or later.
Through Awe Star the parents learn to trust God more and more,
not just the kids.

Roger Allen
(An Awe Star Dad )


At 7:15 PM, Blogger Angela Ganote said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney,

I just wanted you to know it was an honor to tell BJ's story on Fox 59 News.
Thank you for allowing me to share that with so many people.

Angela Ganote

At 7:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will always keep praying for ya'll.

In Christ,

At 7:32 PM, Blogger Nancy Post said...

Dear Higgins Family,

Thank you so much for publicly sharing your walk in this trial. As I have said before I did not personally know BJ but my son, David, knew and loved him. David recognized a what a wonderful knowledge God had allowed BJ to possess.

My husband, Ken, and I listened, cried, sang and worshipped right along with you all at the church last Friday. Then our daughter, Virginia, who has recently been divorced and is finding her way back to God, listened with us again on Sunday afternoon. It was more glorious the second time. After getting your note that there had been a story on Fox 59 I went to that site and was able to see and listen to the news story. How grand! Thank you Angela for sharing the story with so many people who were watching the news that night.

David has shared with us some possibilities that are coming up in the near future. Please know that Ken and I will be continually praying for the entire family as decisions are made and tears are shed daily.

I have been a Christian for many years and have been made aware through BJ and your family the necessity to "Pray without ceasing" and to boldly share Jesus. Thank you.

Awe Star Mom

At 7:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Higgins family...I'm constantly thinking about you and praying for your strength...I can not express how profound an affect BJ's life has had on me...his words resonate within me and will carry my new found strength through Christ. Like other have said, thank you for your continual sharing and ministering to us. Angela Ganote, thank you for the courage to share BJ's story as you did in a time when the word of our Lord seldom makes it to the media. God Bless all of you...

Greenfield, Indiana

At 8:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Continuing to pray!

At 8:13 PM, Blogger Ashley Darnold said...

It was kind of funny actually how I didn't make it on the news. But that's ok. I know that God was glorified and we got the message out so Praise Jesus for that! I love you family! I am continuing to pray for you! Love ya!

Ashley Darnold

At 8:48 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


At 8:53 PM, Blogger Ashley Reagan said...

Hey family! Thanks so much for posting again and sharing more of BJ's words. I'm like you when I read his words I can also hear his voice even though it has been a year since I have actually herd it. It amazes me every time because I can still hear the passion in his voice! I can't wait for his book to come out. I love you guys and I'm still praying for you.
Ashley Dawn (peru 04)
Bixby, Oklahoma

At 9:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear BJ's family,

I too have 3 children, a boy and two girls, the youngest of whom shares BJ's exact birthdate. Knowing that and knowing how close in age our children are and that as my children grow older they too feel that call to the mission field - two as doctors and one as a nurse - my heart is full of joy for you that BJ will be waiting for you and with sorrow and grief for the human loss on this earthly home. I continue to pray that the Lord will reveal Himself more fully to each one of you day by day.

And thank you so much for your courage and love for us for allowing us to share in these last few weeks of BJ's life. He is a beautiful young man. You have been blessed - and I pray that the Lord will continue to show you the blessings in the midst of the pain.

Love in Jesus,
Mary VanderWall

At 9:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


We're grateful today for the gift God has given-- hearing your best-beloved boy even when you no longer see him face to face. We will pray that His grace continues to cover you as you read and listen.

Thank you for letting those of us who never heard B.J.'s voice hear it resound here through your kind and generous sharing. Thank you for letting him speak so often and so well through his AWEsome journal!

Friends/teammates of BJ, thank you for letting him speak so thoughtfully to the family and to us through the stories you continue to share. Your words are pure and precious gifts. Keep telling--we promise not to ask for the "short version"!

Angela and other media people, thanks for letting BJ speak with a fresh voice through your reflective reporting. You're helping those concentric circles extend ever outward.

God, through the voice of Walker Moore, reminded me today that, even as special as BJ was, we do not seek to glorify him in any way. Like BJ, we want to lift up Almighty God--the One he served "even unto death."

What made this young man so incredible was his incredible relationship with an incredible God--the One who met those eight people during his memorial service, the One who called the 97 others, the One who worked and is working to call us--to call the nations--to Himself.

It's all about You, Jesus--it's all about You!

praying in pink,

Marti for the Pieper Family
Charleston, SC

At 9:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

A quick story/remembrance of BJ:

The last real conversation we had with BJ was right after last year's trip to Peru. We told him that we were interested in hearing about his trip. Uncle Dan, myself, and Deanna sat in the den as he shared his experiences. His excitement and passion were obvious. Deanna was exhausted after a drive from Wisconsin, and Dan was beginning to get sleepy. After quite a while, BJ paused, and Dan said, "Thank you for sharing, BJ." AND THEN, BJ said: "And then we travelled to this other city...." and his sharing continued! (We were in actuality about half through...) He didn't seem to notice the droopy eyelids of his audience. It was precious!

May we all have a similar passion for God's work in our lives...

Love to all of you,

Aunt Jolene

At 9:44 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We are still praying...still on our knees. There is always a pink shirt somewhere in site!

We continue to pray for each of you and for the strength that God gives to make it through the next moment, event, activity, or reminder of BJ. We are so thankful that our Lord is keenly aware of what you need and when you need it.

We continue to be so very thankful that BJ has reminded us (and even given us a practical way through pink shirts!) to reach out to anyone who asks why we do what we do, why we act the way we do, why we are different. Who we live for - who we would die for. All to His glory! It's Jesus, the One and Only.

We love you.

Because of Him,
The McMahans

At 9:53 PM, Blogger the leaf family said...

I am praying for each of you tonight.

I pray for a restful night tonight and strength to get thru your tomorrow..
With all my Love and Prayers,

At 10:27 PM, Blogger Barb R. said...

Dear Higgins Family,
To God be the honor and the glory forever and ever. Thank you for sharing BJ with me through this blog. I have not met your family, but have been praying without end. BJ and your entire family are an inspiration to me as I raise my young children in the faith. May God grant you peace and comfort - He has blessed you so abundantly with His faith and surrounded you with love. Perhaps someday I'll meet you in Indiana, otherwise I'll look for you when the day comes that we can be reunited with Jesus and BJ. God bless you and thank you again for your inspiring faith and love.

Barbara Regiani
Clarkston, MI

At 10:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Your comments to be an encouragement, in the midst of your grief, continually pointing us to Jesus, to the Father.

I continue to pray with each of BJ's family - parents, siblings, and extended family and friends. The pain and difficult things to deal with are still going on, but I pray that God's grace and comfort will be your portion, that you will feel His Presence even more than you ever have.

God bless you each.

Sydney, Australia

At 10:56 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent and Deanna,
Praying for you continually. Very few minutes go by where I do not think about you and ask God to be with you. I have never gone through anything remotely like losing a child and I cannot even imagine what you are feeling. But you words and actions through this have been such a testimony to me. You have shown an amazing amount of faith and courage. I will never forget seeing a father raise his arms in praise to God at his own sons funeral. I strive to have that kind of faith in our Savior. Thank you for allowing so many of us to be a part of your life in such a time.
Deanna, I am praying for you and for God to comfort you in only a way that He can. My words sound shallow but please know that my heart cries out to God on your behalf.

May God richly bless your family!!

At 11:14 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is always so good to hear from you all - I am still checking the website frequently and I continue to pray for your family.

At 11:23 PM, Blogger Barbara Ann said...

Today has been a day where God has allowed so many stories to be told of Beej and God's love to shine so brightly. It just amazes me still to see how big our God is. He is truely the sustainer of all things. Tonight I went to a college worship night called zeteo (means to search the scriptures) and we just got to worship. As I stood there worshipping our great God, I was reminded once again of how none of this in this world is me. Its all God, none of me. And I prayed Lord take me out of anything, any situation, and just put all of you in it. I praise God that, that was the cry of BJ's heart. He was all about doing His Fathers business. I can still hear his voice speaking God's words so loudly! Its awesome because I'm still learning so much through his life even now! I trust that will happen for a long time. So my precious family, I am on my face for you this day, just praying for a renewed strength in such a BIG and great God.

I just love you guys!

Still praying...

Barbara Ann

At 11:59 PM, Blogger Lynn Dailey said...

How beautiful are the feet of those who serve the Lord. You and BJ have walked boldly in your service and committment to the Savior. Thank you so much for continuing to share your hearts with us. You are so dearly loved. Beej's journal entries are such a blessing and a challenge to me as I process what the Lord is telling me through them. BJ was truly wise far beyong his age...which came from your examples as Christian parents who are totally sold out to the Lord and also from sitting at the foot of Jesus and learning through the Holy Spirit. WOW!!!

How appropriate, we finally got our Pray for BJ shirts on Saturday, his birthday. I have already been able to share BJ's story with 2 people. What a joy to be able to share Christ's love with complete strangers. I pray that the Lord will continue to make "spiritual appointments" for me and that I will be sensitive to His leadership and bold in my witness.

Please know that Bill and I continue to pray for you all throughout every day. Thank you for continuing to minister in the name of the Savior even through this difficult time. Hold each other close and feel the love of the Lord even through the pain.

God bless and keep you in the palm of His loving hands,

At 12:16 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Shoot! I found out about the news story when other people at school were asking me if I'd heard about the missionary that died. I'll have to dig around to see if I can't find it on the internet. God bless you and yours, and may he continue to draw workers to his field.

Sam Beer
Peru 01-03, Peru Extreme 04

At 1:04 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was just able to view the celebration service video and i have been bless beyond words. I have been sitting here for almost 2 hours with tears running down my cheeks. I feel so moved and motivated. i feel like BJ was someone that i've known for my entire life, but it's not possible, cuz i've never been to indiana. God is working on me, I'm not sure what it is yet, but he's working on me. I can only pray that he will make it clear to me soon. I believe that The Pastor was right, BJ is going to lead the last group of missionaries to the field, and Jesus is coming soon! PRAISE THE LORD! please! everyone! spread the word about Jesus and make BJ and God proud! This is not about BJ! this is about our Lord and savior. But also about the faith, witness, and testimony of a "Godly Man". I don't think that i can ever forget this whole experience. Thank you to Bart for sending email to the Mercy Me list. and Praise be to BJ for starting the "Last Great Revival" Let's get motivated people! We have a job to finish! BJ gave us a wonderful start, and an excellent road map! Let's Take his place! God Bless you Higgins There will not be a day that i don't think of you and pray for you!

At 2:35 AM, Blogger Stay-C said...

I just want to say how encouraging your whole family is! I have been sharing news and stories of BJ with members of our Baptist Campus Ministries at my college, encouraging them to get involved in local missions, Summer Missions, and international missions. We are taking the love of the Lord to Guatemala in January, as the Lord has just laid this country on our hearts for the 5 years i have been at school, and I will continue to use BJ as an example and an inspiration. Bless your family.

Stacey Thomas
Mobile, Alabama

At 6:01 AM, Blogger the leaf family said...

Higgins Family,
You have been on my heart since early this morning..
I will continue to pray for strength, comfort, peace and rest for you thru out the day..
With Love and Prayers from KC

At 6:21 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...



At 6:59 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God, We know what a frightening time this is for Linda. Please, Lord, touch her daughter's little body with your healing power. Give the doctors abundant wisdom to know how to deal with this situation. Calm the hearts of both Linda and her husband as they watch and wait. Thank you that we can "gather together" as believers, even on the Internet, and know that You are right here in our midst. Thank You for being a faithful God as demonstrated through the life of BJ Higgins. Bless his family today, too, God, with abundant, regular reminders of Your love and care. We praise You for your goodness toward us--

in Your holy name,

Marti for the Pieper Family,
continuing to pray in pink

At 7:04 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


go to http://www.kfor.com/ and click on the 10pm news. It's at about the 9:05 mark. If it's not still there, email them and see if they will repost it.

At 7:07 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


I don't think you would find a larger group of believers. We are here and we are praying.

At 7:10 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thinking of you all this morning.
Hoping and praying that the pain lessens day by day. We are praying for all the decisions that are still to be made; college, work, etc. We miss all of you, hope to see you soon.

Love, Nancy

At 7:59 AM, Blogger Jeannie Hilfiker said...

Morning Brent and Deanna,
I am taking advantage of John being gone to catch up on work.
I can catch up on work but you all don't leave my mind, I am praying for you continuously. This morning I gathered a few flowers from one of the arrangement to set on my desk.

Love you, May God grant you peace.

At 8:23 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you once again for sharing this incredible journey with us. I'm still praying for you every day. Praying for comfort and peace and wisdom for the girl's decisions. May God send you a special hug today.
Karen in NC

At 8:32 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...



At 8:53 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm blown away by what God is doing through BJ's death.
Our God is truly amazing, to say the very least.

We continually lift you up to our Father. We love you all.

big cabin

At 9:04 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey were you guys still planning on doing the map of all of the bloggers? I am curios to see the extent of how many people God touched through this. I am inspired by BJ's life everyday. he really makes me want to dig deeper and place my roots firmly. My prayers are with you guys.
Chelsea Jacobson Carlsbad CA

At 9:09 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Linda....I am praying for your daughter....please keep us posted.
Love in Christ,

At 9:20 AM, Blogger tochina4emma said...

Still praying for your family. I am so glad to have "met" you all.
I have been so encouraged and challenged by BJ's journal entries and the celebration service.
Continually praying in KC,

At 9:39 AM, Blogger Lynn Andrews said...


I am so glad to her your daughter is okay - whew! I will keep her in my prayers as she recovers. It's my honor to pray for your family and for all the other families here that I have grown to love and be close to - even though we don't know each other! God is so awesome!

Dear Higgins family, you are never far from my thoughts and always in my prayers. I continue to learn and grow in my walk from coming here to hear your words and the words of this Body of Christ.

Love to all,
Lynn Andrews
Macon, GA

At 9:41 AM, Blogger natenamy said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren, and Whitney--

We just wanted to let you know that we are still lifting you up to our Lord in prayer regularly throughout the day.

We're also praying for guidance as you make some important decisions as far as school, work, and the future entail! Please know that we stand behind you 100%.

We love you all LOADS!

Praying for Sonshine on your lives in an awesome way today,

Nate and Amy

At 9:52 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Higgins Family,
We were all so blessed by our time with you last week. I agree, it did feel too short. But it was a momentous time. I was in awe at all the students who came forward. I'm praying for each one, that God would stir in their hearts a passion for His name so great that they too would be willing to lay down their lives. BJ going home has made it a new world. God guide your steps and bless you as you discover your new ministry. We love you and continue to pray...
Rachel Long
Awe Star

At 10:31 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Higgins Family,
I am still praying for you. I know the Lord continues to work through your precoius family!
I would also like to see BJ's celebration video. 97 people thats amazing!Please post how to view it. I would greatly appreciate it!
Thank you and praise the Lord!

At 10:41 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins,

I have been involved in quite a few funerals that claimed to be a celebration. BJ's was just that! I left knowing that I had been in the presence of God.

Frank Lamca
Quito, Ecuador
Awestar Host Missionary Peru 01-05

At 11:22 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Indiana, Oklahoma, California, Peru, South Carolina, Russia...the list continues to GROW! How God touched so many through BJ!

Praise Jesus!

At 11:40 AM, Blogger Emily Jo said...

Hi "dad" (can I call you that?) As always, I am truly blessed by BJ's journal entries, and I look forward with anticipation to continue to learn from him, for his wisdom and insight to the scripture is truly marvelous....I am astounded not only by his heart for the Savior, but to the way he learned to incline his ear to the callings of the Holy Spirit for his life decisions. It is a daily battle to shut out the "noise within" and hear my God speak to me. BJ is an inspiriation.
I continue to pray for you and your family...for the ache...for the longing to hear him again. May you always hear his voice through his journals....I pray that fervently. May the groanings from your sorrow be lifted to the Heavens, and be met with compassion and peace.
Much love to you this day.....
Emily Jo
Monrovia, CA

At 11:43 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

For Now if you click on the...

Live Audio of Celebration Service

link that should take you to the video of the Celebration Service. It isn't always avaialble as on a few can access it at a time for now.

At 11:48 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins,
Still praying that God will envelope you with comfort, love and peace during this difficult time. I have to tell you that since I have learned more about BJ I have questioned myself and dug deeper for what I believe and what I know to be true in my heart and looked for the answers to my questions. God has given me so much peace throughout. Linda, I have been praying for Kaitlyn this morning. In "lifting up the burdens of other believers, we fulfill the law of Christ" so you did the right thing by posting.
God Bless you all today!

At 12:21 PM, Blogger a schmaltzee life said...

hi family.

we are home and missing you all too much. it was so amazing to be together. so many tender moments that i will hold dear in my heart forever.
at times...the pain seemed so overwhelming i couldn't catch my breath...and at other times... the joy of being together in Christ...overflowed my soul!

brent...you amazed me... hurting...yet ready to serve others. it was so touching to watch you bring smiles to the little cousins faces...wagon rides...hiking...your sense of humor...was so refreshing.
then i would catch a glimpse of tears streaming down your cheek...and would see you mouthing words to a worship song...i know what is sustaining you!
(i loved the tree planting...a great reminder of the new life that is being planted in peoples hearts thru all of this!)

lauren & whit...you are captivating!
"the king is enthralled by your beauty...honor him for he is your Lord" psalm 45:11
your inner beauty and honor for your Lord...splashed all over me! thank you...i love you both! (the girls had so much fun with you...thanks for giving them rides and rides some more)

Deanna...your gentle spirit and willingness to be transparent...to be real...was so inspiring. i was so touched watching you. thanks for inviting us to your home...it was so great to be there for BJ's birthday...i'm praying for your hip...for your heart...and for wisdom for your decisions about work!

i was especially blessed by the worship time Sat nite...what a touch from heaven....to experience lauren & whit ushering me into the presence of the Lord...to see you Brent bearing your soul before the Lord...praising Him....soaking in His presence...i think that was a truly healing time!
you girls have such gifts...keep using them to Display His Splendor!

i love you all more than these little black letters can say!

cladee has been telling everyone about the little pink card she put her name on...that means she is gonna tell everyone about Jesus...just like BJ did....and keep going on missions trips... just like BJ did!

I'm sure it brought a smile to BJ's face when Walker was asking
"who is gonna take BJ's place?" and sitting in the front row...Cladee's had shot up..and waved around...(i think she thought he was gonna pick someone right then)
...then i heard Josh say he wanted to...he had such intense determination...yeah! the next generation is on the move!
(i asked landee if she wanted to sign a card...she said..."do i have to sign a card to live like that...don't we already love Jesus and have a passion for missions...i said right on landee you are alread set!...no card required! but i did find one in her books...filled out!)

We have such a great legacy that goes way back in our family...and seems to be getting more and more passionate with each generation... we have much to look forward to!
...thanks for being the kind of parents that God could use to foster this kind of complete devotion and passion! (you have inspired me!)

hugs...from california
marla & gang

what a gift BJ's journals are to you guys..and thanks for sharing them!

At 1:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I just thought that I would share this comment with you from a friend of mine who visited this site.

Hey Mary,I've been reading alot about BJ And I truely wish i could have known him. He did great things for God's kingdom and it saddens my heart to think i won't get the chance to meet him. Be strong and continue his work.

In Christ


I love you guys and am continuously praying for you!
Houston, Texas

At 1:55 PM, Blogger LisaTeegarden said...

Precious family: Still trying to take in all that happened last week...Knowing God has blessed me with an awesome family....all of you. It was all so overwhelming and Beej would have been so pleased I believe with the service friday. Love you guys....and praying for God's wisdom in your decisions....now and in the future. Last night I played my Mercy Me cd and the Held one too... Anyone know where I can get a Billy and Cindy Foote CD? Love, Lisa (aunt)

At 2:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Family,

I cannot express my thoughts in words to describe the story with no ending,it's like...at a loss for them words again, it just continues to lift, humble and land on the recieving end of many. I tell others around me just log on and you will feel his passion....it comes directly from the Lord through BJ and your family. Thank You, I set my pace, on the narrow path and continue to pray,look for opportunity to tell others and rejoice for his heartbeat in heaven,

in God's glory
Runner in OKC

At 2:26 PM, Blogger Walker Moore said...

For those of you interested you can get a Billy and Cindy Foote CD at:



At 2:29 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Still praying for you and your family.

At 2:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I STILL can't get on is there anyway I can buy a copy of the service?

At 3:34 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

For those wanting to see the video, if you will go to the main page and look on the right hand side of the screen right under the green "about me" section, you will find the link called "Live Audio of Celebration Service". Click on that link. This is both the audio and video. It will open up another window and ask if you have the right media player. If you do, when you click on the play button it will either download the file or you will see it buffering and then just saying ready. Due to the high volume of people trying to view it, it's kind of hit or miss getting it to download. You may have to try early in the morning or late at night. It's about a 2 hour service, so grab a box of kleenex.

At 4:15 PM, Blogger Aunt Maralyn & Uncle Ray said...

I agree with everything Marla said in her last entry. She said it better than I could have.
My Mother and Dad (your grandma and grandpa) would certainly feel all over again that they made the right decision in 1941.What a Heritage they gave to all of us. I'm sure they are up in Heaven rejoicing with BJ, your Dad and the other family members that have gone to Heaven before us. We have so much to be thankful for amidst the hurt and sorrow we feel.
I agree Thursday,Friday, Saturday and Sunday are days we will remember forever. The tears and the laughter were all such a blessed time. The Lord was with us all the way.
I forgot to go to Landee's Chapel today!!! Guess where my mind was,still in Indianapolis.
I love you all
Aunt Maralyn

At 4:23 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Before I started coming to this website,(about a month ago), I was starting to wrestle with God. I knew I was supposed to be an overseas missionary, and I had accepted it. But then I had started to get scared. I tried to convinve myself (and God), that being a missionary really isnt what I am supposed to do. But after coming to this site, I wasnt afraid anymore. It showed me that yes, bad things happen. But that doesnt mean God isnt in control. He always is. And he always has a plan. Now, yes, I am still a little scared. But not how I was before. I know that I will be one to take B.J.'s place on the mission field. I've already planned my first overseas mission trip. I am going to Brazil with my church in the first week of december, and i couldnt be more excited. Thank you for everything. I still pray for all of you every day.
knightstown, IN

At 4:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praise God that Beej's story is going out to all the nation. I couldn't help but notice though, how different a picture those who don't know Christ painted. What were the words? "He went to spread Gods word and along the way, met tradgedy." Tradgedy? Maybe in some respects. But those who watched this news cast weren't able to see the hope that we have. "Ends with the death of a teenager?" Well, yes. But what about the 8 that recieved life? I'm not trying to sound like a wet blanket here. I'm very glad that his story is getting out so that people can know and maybe find out more for themselves. I guess I'm just thankful that the story that the news reporters told isn't all there is to it.

This morning, I was going to do my quiet time, and my Bible flipped open to where I had absent mindedly stuck the program for BJ's service. The first three verses of Isaiah 61 struck me in the face:

1.The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me To bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and freedon to the prisoners;
2.To proclaim the favorable year of the Lord and the day of vengence of our God; TO COMFORT ALL WHO MOURN,
3.To grant those who mourn in Zion, Giving then a garland instead of ashes, the oils of gladness in stead of mourning, the mantle of praise instead of a spirit of fainting. So they will be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord that He may be glorified.

I pray this for all who are mourning over BJ, but especially for you, family. May you know the peace that only our Lord can give. We love you lots!

Kayla (Peru 2005)
Dallas, TX

At 4:37 PM, Blogger LisaTeegarden said...

Thank you Walker for the info on the Billy Foote CD...It was good to meet you. God Bless....Lisa

At 1:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just went to the news website and watched the newsprogram they had on BJ. Loved it!


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