Tuesday, September 25, 2007

It is hard to comprehend all that is going on here. You do gain a bit of understanding as to why there were almost always 2 or 3 nurses working with Beej. The perspective gained allows you to see what most never could.

He lived to share the gospel of Jesus Christ. His desire was to see and know that as many as possible had the opportunity to come to know Him. He spent his time trying to win others to Jesus. He was not ashamed of the gospel. He shared openly at peril to his own reputation, and cared little about what others thought of him for it. What was important to him was bringing honor and glory to his Savior, Jesus.

How he spent the last six weeks of his life is only of interest because of how he spent his life before it. He had an undying hunger to know the things of God. He would seek discussion openly and learned a great deal as a result. He was not afraid to ask questions. He had many mentors, and frequently asked deep questions of them. If his beliefs did not conform to what Scripture said, he changed his beliefs. He thirsted as we all do spiritually, but he knew where to go to have his thirst slaked.

He brought routine encouragement to those who did not have it. He held accountable those who would otherwise struggle. He was not judgmental with his friends. He understood love and he lived it. He sought to share it so others could live it.

He was exhilarated when others came to Christ. On multiple occasions he would run down the hall calling out to us when he had led someone to Christ on the phone or internet. You will see one such conversation in it's entirety, in the book.

He loved and was protective of his sisters. He was very proud of who they were. He watched and learned from their example. He spoke highly of them to others. They inspired him in music. They inspired him in his walk.

He inspired them in their walk. He inspired many by his walk. Others wanted the One he knew. Others wanted what he had because of how he lived.

There was recognition of the need to deny self, and lay down the small things, so that one day he would be in a position for God to use him in a much greater way.

He was obedient. He knew he was called to lay down his life, and he was not afraid. He gave himself willingly because he knew that in death his life would bring glory to God. He did not know how or when that time would come, only that he was called to it. He was eager to be obedient, even in this.

He has forever inspired my life. A tremendous part of who I am is because of my son. That is very humbling.

I write this today as I will be in San Antonio tomorrow and for the next few days. The Lord has called and my family has agreed that I need to go. I will be speaking five times at a high school youth retreat for San Antonio Christian Schools (500 students) on 9/26 - 9/28.

Whitney arrives in Tulsa on Thursday to be with Deanna and Lauren.

I return Friday night, then leave Saturday (the 29th) afternoon to preach a revival in Nowata, Oklahoma through Wednesday night (Oct 3). Then I leave Saturday for St. Louis, to speak Sunday pm at Maplewood Baptist Church (Oct 7).

We will be together as a family for Saturday and Sunday in Nowata. There are other opportunities coming up, but this is the most intense period, and the Lord has designed it this way on purpose. Amid these things, our final draft of the manuscript is due.

During the anniversary and birthday, God would have us to focus on Him. This would be pleasing to Beej. He would be the first to say, "Go!"

Thank you for remembering with us!

I ask you to pray for the hearers in each of these places.

God Bless each of you,



At 10:29 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for your family. I'm continually inspired by BJ's story, and Ilove to share it with my friends. May God continue to use your precious family in many awesome ways. God bless you!!

At 11:11 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Me too Bonnie! I'm inspired by bj's story. I'm also inspired by the courage and example of his father, mother, sisters, and uncle shared here each day. The time is drawing near to gather the sheep. I will be praying for those who will hear HIS voice through you in the days ahead Brent.
Mark \o/

At 11:12 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God bless you and the words you share as you GO! I am praying for your family as I have over the last two years.

In Christ's never ending love,
Noblesville, IN

At 11:24 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We're thinking of you and praying for you and your family.
Laura and Johnny Pierson

At 12:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God Bless,
Greenfield, Indiana

At 1:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Remembering all of you who helped the family through this time two years ago, in many, many ways; not the least of which was the incredible prayer support.

Thank you all - again,


At 2:39 PM, Blogger Mama Cross said...

Hello, Higgins Family.
I've been thinking of you and praying for you this week. I know the Lord has given you unimaginable strength for your calling. I've been sorting through pictures for Jeff's upcoming wedding and ran across one of you, BJ and Taylor DeBaun. I'll send it to you. Hope you have a wonderful family weekend remembering BJ's precious life. He is an inspiration. We're looking forward to reading the book.

At 3:49 PM, Blogger schmaltzeez said...

i am soooo praying for you all...i can't imagine all that God must have in store for you as you will be pouring out over these next few days....How like him to have you in action and inspiring people with Bj's life....God's love...during this 'remembering'time for you. I'm sure that at times you must want to just curl up and cry...yet you are following the examples set before you of a life well-lived....with many impacted because of the sacrifice!

you must know that many smiles are upon you from heaven...
and i'm praying that God's strong arms will hold you all..
and many lives will be touched this week.
Go in God's amazing power!

much love to you and the girls!
marla & gang

At 6:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love you dad.
Mateo Peter Pritchett

At 9:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I talked with Tiffany and she said you were doing a retreat with her school. That is awesome that the school is getting back involved. Hope and pray for the best. Continue to follow him and let him lead. See you soon Dad.


At 9:08 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm thinking of you all today and praying that God will pour out His blessings and peace.

Brent, I'm especially praying for your busy speaking schedule, that during these days so filled with memories that God will quiet your heart to hear what He wants to speak through you. May He use you and make you a blessing!

With love and prayers to you all as we remember BJ's life and contribution to the Kingdom,


At 9:55 AM, Blogger Marti Pieper said...

I am also thinking of you and unable to stop praying for you even if I tried (which I won't).

He did amazing things during those six weeks of prayer and pain.

He has done amazing things over the past two years.

And I am confident that He has many more amazing things ahead--for the places and people where you are and will be--for a book that will take his story to the world--and even especially for Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney.

I love you. I'm weeping alongside you. And I'm praising His name and still

praying in pink
with tender love,

and ALL the Piepers
Mount Dora, Florida

At 10:52 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


Praying for all of you, always

At 11:30 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Remembering the bittersweetness of this day 2 years ago. My heart broken for a family I'd come to love. And joy for bj as he was healed and resting in the arms of our Lord Jesus. May all those who remember this day praise the One bj committed his life to serve, even to the end. Mark \0/

At 11:51 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family,

Although I haven't blogged in quite a while, I have been thinking of you all, especially over this last week with the anniversary on my mind and in my prayers. Please know that you are thought of and prayed for this day by me and I'm sure countless others.

Blessings over these next days that are so busy and prayers that those who need it (and don't we all?!) will hear the wonderful message of God's love through BJ's story and life.


At 1:23 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Remembering that B.J. went to be with the Lord two years ago.... remembering the whole Higgins family in my prayers.

At 1:28 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I woke up today and lifted your family up in prayer. You have been on my mind and in my heart. Love, Stacy

At 3:02 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i can't believe it's been two years already.

this post brought me to tears... thank you!

i'm praying for you! may the Lord give you the perfect words to say!

i love you. oh so much!!

At 6:08 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm with Mary -- I can't believe that it's been 2 years. I was thinking about this last night. Know that I am praying for you and I look forward to seeing you soon.

Laura Allyn

At 10:25 PM, Blogger Rachel Wallace said...

I also cannot believe that it has been two years. I know we have never been able to meet face to face, but I have fond memories of being in Peru wiht BJ. I hope that the peace of God was with you today.
Brent - I wish we could come hear you in St. Louis (we only live about an hour away), but my husband is a pastor, so we have to be at our own church. I hope it goes well!
Rachel (Burkholder) Wallace

At 8:02 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well done thy good an faithful servants.

At 11:37 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Know that we prayed throughout the day yesterday and will continue to do so.... Computer problems didn't allow us to let you know yesterday, but all the same you were on our hearts.

May you continue to know His peace, walk His ways, and be strengthened through a deepening relationship with Him.

We love you beyond words and understanding.

The McMahan Family

At 2:03 PM, Blogger Jacktopher Meils said...

It's been a quick 2 years. The past two days have been long, but the good kind of long. God's just been offering a lot of new opportunities in witnessing at school, and just allowing me to be myself (in Him.) Life is good, so good. I might be seeing you all soon, hopefully.


At 2:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent, Deanna, Lauren & Whitney:
I think of you often but especially yesterday my thoughts and prayers were for all of you.

So many people have stated how I am feeling for you guys but it is so awesome to see how God has worked in so many lives these past two years.

My prayer is that you will have wonderful and great memories of your family during this anniversary time.

Thank you for continually inspiring so many of us and allowing us to benefit from your daily blogs.

Joel, Christal, Ryan & Arin Mearig

At 3:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God changed my life through your family.

At 3:01 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Haven't forgotten about you guys...thank you for sharing BJ's photos. Having lived in the NICU with my baby for 156 days, I can certainly empathize with the machines, wires, tubes that can be so overwhelming. Praying hard for your upcoming time in San Antonio, and praying hard for God to continue to comfort your family as you keep BJ's memory very alive!

Carol Daley
Arlington, TX

At 9:37 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Mr, Higgins thank you so much for showing up at my high school retreat it was such a blessing for you to come, and bj's story made me so happy and it also broke my heart. Our school really appreciates all of your work.

At 12:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank You so much Brent Higgins! I was one of the students from San Antonio Christian Schools and BJ's story really spoke to me and inspired me. All of your talks really just opened my eyes and I really want to change my life. I'm really glad you came with us and told us Bj's story. I will be praying for your family and you on the rest of the events you are doing!
Katie Gerber

At 1:52 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was also one of the students at the San Antonio Christian Schools retreat. The story of BJ really touched my heart, and I am so happy that through him God changed SO many people's lives! You and your family are in my prayers!
-Nicki Klimacek-

At 2:55 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i've been praying for you guys all week long. i miss you. thanks for allowing us to remember w/you...


At 8:37 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mr. Higgins,

I wanted to thank you for speaking at the SACS retreat this past week. My son Matthew was there and as a result of your witness about B.J. was baptized. He was saved many years ago,but had never made the decision to be baptized even though we had talked about how important it was that he do this out of obedience to the Lord many times. I wanted him to do it when he decided it was the right time and not do it because his parents had made him. However, it has been heavy on my heart for quite some time now that he had not done it yet because I was afraid the older he got the harder it would be for him and I had been praying about it for several years now. I prayed about it the night before he left for retreat! God, is so good! He used you and your son to speak to Matthew at retreat and he said he knew it was the right time to finally do it. I know it was a big sacrifice for you and your family to not all be together on the anniversary of B.J.'s death and wanted to let you know how much your sacrifice has meant to Matthew and to our family. My understanding is that there were about 30 kids who were baptized at retreat and I'm sure that your witness was instrumental in them making a decision to be baptized as well. I hope that the fact that B.J. is still bringing glory and honor to the Lord gives you some comfort during this difficult time. My thoughts and prayer are with you and your family. Again, please thank your family for sharing you with us this past week at retreat as it has greatly blessed our school and my family personally.
God bless you.

Judy Castrejana-SACS

At 8:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for coming to speak at our retreat. It was a really amazing experience, and I want you to know that I've rededicated my life to Christ as a result. BJ's story is a real encouragement to me. Thank you for sharing, I know it was a hard thing to do. Just remember how much you've blessed us all!
Sarah Hurtado

At 10:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi there!
i was at the retreat you spoke at this past week. first of all let me say that i was so touched by BJ's life story. it was very convicting but also inspiring to me. and i know it was the same for many others there at the retreat too. thank you so much for your willingness to speak with us and openly share your heart, especially right now. i will be praying for you as you go on more speaking engagements soon. thank you again and God bless!

At 5:45 PM, Blogger Cassie Bell said...

My friend Abby and I go to San Antonio Christian Schools and we were at the retreat that you spoke at. We just wanted to thank you so much for sharing your story. It's amazing to see the impact it has had on our school.Thanks again!!!


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