Sunday, October 09, 2005

Hello.

Tonight I am going back to school, restarting classes tomorrow. Whitney is heading back to her place, too, and then starts work mostly-full-time tomorrow. It's a bit nerve-wracking to leave the safety of home, where family understands better than anyone else can. But we move from home to the different kind of support nets of friends surrounding us in our respective homes-away-from-home.

As always thank you so much for your prayers. They have meant and continue to mean so much.

I'd like to share my favorite story about my brother! I was talking to Beej one afternoon about guys and dating, and he was telling me he wanted me to be careful and not get hurt. I asked why he was cautioning me the way he was, and he said, "I'm your brother, and I'm protective of you!"

Oh how much I miss him, and that protection. Just remembering makes me smile!

Love in Christ,
Lauren

36 Comments:

At 2:58 PM, Anonymous Marlene said...

thats beautiful.. i know that BJ----------- and I am thankful. Lauren you have a good week and know that we are praying for you to be surrounded by HIS LOVE as well as your brothers. xoxo Marlene

 
At 3:00 PM, Anonymous Laura Floyd said...

I will be praying for your family during this difficult transitional time, going back to school and work. I pray that God will continue to strengthen you all and give you a peace and comfort you. We continue to pray for you all, we miss you and love you.
Laura Floyd

 
At 3:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for both of you, Lauren and Whitney. Just yesterday I was asking God to surround you with folks with very special sensitivity and compassion--that you wouldn't end up feeling left out or forgotten during this time--and that God would help you (L) with all the hard work I'm sure is facing you in school. I can tell He has given you some special friends there, just by the one's who've posted here! Both of you: keep making a difference--and keep taking BJ's advice regarding guys, too! One more time where he "got it," I guess!

love in Him,

Awe Star mom and pray-er in Pink,

Marti for the Pieper family
Charleston, SC

 
At 3:49 PM, Anonymous JEM said...

The Lord will be with you as you venture foth.

 
At 4:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lauren,
You have an awesome family. I know things will be different and you will miss BeeJ. There will lots of memories that will come to mind out of the blue, right in the middle of something else. Just smile and take a few minutes to enjoy those memories. How did you do with the snake puzzle? I keep forgetting to ask you..let me know next time I see you
love,Tammy

 
At 4:12 PM, Blogger NatenAmy said...

Lauren and Whitney-- Please know that Nate and I will be praying for you as you make the transition from the "safety and knowingness" of your home back to school and work. I pray that you will particularly feel His presence in a very special way those times that you feel alone and afraid. We love you and we are here for you if you ever need us!

Brent and Deanna--We continue to lift you up to our Father in prayer. Praying that these new transitions will be smooth and that you will feel His peace and encouragement in a very tangible way as the girls leave. We love you too! Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you--anytime!

Missing you all,

Nate and Amy

 
At 4:16 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you both as you transition back to work and school. Praying for comfort and strength to overwhelm you two!
Indianapolis

 
At 4:24 PM, Anonymous Mischel said...

Dear Lauren,
Your sweet Brother B.J. will always be with you in spirit! He will continue to be strong in your heart!
May God bless you & your family as you face the future.

Love in Christ,
Mischel

 
At 4:33 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Lauren,
I am praying for you as you arrive back on campus this evening. I know it will feel different and getting back into the focus of studying will take time. But I know that you have a support team of friends there that will welcome you back and love you, and listen to you. Even though they won't really "know" what you are going through, they will be there for you!
We will all keep praying!!
Love,
an IWU student's mom

 
At 4:36 PM, Blogger Ashley Reagan said...

May you treasure those moments when a memory of BJ comes to you. Know that you are loved and being thought about as you go back to school and work, or just wherever. I continue to pray for you all and you are always on my mind. I love you guys so much!

Ashley Dawn (peru 04)

 
At 4:49 PM, Anonymous Kendall said...

what a great story. how wonderful it is of our God to remind us of the good things in those we have lost. i'll be praying for both of you this week that God will direct your attention to the positive and keep your eyes on Him.

Kendall Potter

 
At 5:12 PM, Anonymous Mary said...

I'm praying for you guys as y'all make this change. It's hard going back, but God is going to use you to change the people in your school and at your work. As always, i love you and am praying for you!

 
At 5:24 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Allow Christ to wrap His arms around you during this difficult time....I'm praying for all of you...

God Bless
Greenfield, Indiana

 
At 5:36 PM, Blogger tochina4emma said...

How awesome to have a brother like that! My "lil" brother was like that when we were growing up.

I will be praying for you and Whitney as you go back to your "homes away from home". I can't imagine how hard that would be but I know it takes strength and faith.
Keep clinging to God!
I'll keep praying!
In His love,
Stacy in KC

 
At 6:12 PM, Anonymous Lauren said...

That's so nice of BJ!! I'm glad you are going back to school and Whitney is going back to her house. You have gone through so much, but I'm glad you are moving on and learning how to incorporate BJ's spirit into your old routine. I continue to pray for you!
Lots of love,
Lauren Szabo
Encinitas, CA

 
At 6:28 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will continue to pray for you. I don't always post, but I check this site daily. Thank you for sharing with us. May God continue to be very near to you.

Brownsburg, IN

 
At 7:17 PM, Blogger Debbie Linder said...

I'll be praying specifically for you Lauren and Whitney as you return to classes and work. Each day, each step, each moment sometimes seems too big, but know that people who love you are praying and that our God who loves you even more, knows exactly your every need.

Father, take each step with them, continue to comfort them and quide them as they try to focus through their days. Surround them with loving, understandng people who will continue to support them.

Give them the opportunities to be strengthened though their days and also continue to give them the moments they still need to deal with their grief.

There are great things to come for them and in them Father, let them know that, Lord.

Bless them and keep them, carress their hearts and wipe their tears.

Thak you Jesus, in Your Holy name. Amen.

 
At 7:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

BJ has turned out to be protective of a lot of "sisters". I overheard a teen girl the other day who said,"Any guy who wants to date a girl that knew BJ is gonna have alot to live up to!"

 
At 7:40 PM, Anonymous taylor christy said...

hey guys,
i will be praying for you whitney and lauren...... well i had a memory of bj today. Well just as anyother soon to be 15 year old kid does i practiced driving the car today. but it reminded me of when bj first started driving and the sheer terror of knowing that he would be on the roads. i based that he was a scary driver from watching him drive big john's 4 wheelers but just thought i would share and looking forward to seeing brent at the camp
well i think i am going to go play a musical instrument of some sort but i will be praying for you guys later

 
At 7:48 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

ur brother is so sweet! and he loved u!!! now, he is waiting for u with jesus until u see him again, he could be counting the time.

i know u miss him, i have a little brother so i can only immagine.
we are there for u lauren.
we are praying for u

your sister in Christ,
Emmy

 
At 8:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lauren, I am praying and praying for you and Whitney (and for your mom and dad as well). I pray that God will give you all strength and comfort.
Karen P. (liann's mom)

 
At 8:35 PM, Anonymous Lauren said...

Dear Higgins Family,
I just got to watch BJ's funeral for the first time (it had been unavailable everytime I checked) and it was beautiful. I felt even closer to BJ and got to know him better. Thank you so much for sharing his story with me! I was also thankful that you could show the celebration online for those of us who wouldn't be able to go to it. You are still in my prayers.
Lots of love,
Lauren Szabo
Encinitas, CA

 
At 8:39 PM, Blogger Phil said...

Dear Family.......Wow what a step of faith you are all taking! I am convinced the Lord will honor it as you step back into your lives...so much the same and yet forever changed. Watch what the Lord does as you step out of the boat!!!!!!!! Woooooohoooooo!

Even though BJ is off on the ULTIMATE MISSION TRIP with the Father please realize your family has the world's greatest support group. I can't think of anyone I know or have known that has as many...concerned extended..spiritual family members as you all. We all love you so deeply and care about your well being. Please. please call on me if I can do anything no matter how large or how small to help you on your journey. You know as I began to think about my Mom after she passed...with the close of each day we didn't grow farther apart but in reality another day closer to the day we all will be reunited. So until that great reunion takes place please wake up each morning and see all the Lord has for you all. Many are called but few are chosen. You dear family have been chosen. It is an honor and a priviledge to call you friend. We love you and will continue to lift you all up to the Father. BJ is forever with us all...and not all that far away.
Sleep well...I love you...
{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}Phil

 
At 9:12 PM, Blogger the leaf family said...

We love you guys
With all our love and prayers From KC-Tracy

 
At 9:47 PM, Blogger Marcia said...

Still praying...as these first transitions begin....

 
At 10:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Glad to know how to pray for you. Thanks for letting us know.
Love you sister,
Kayla (Peru 2005)

 
At 10:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lauren -- It was so good to see you this evening and be able to hug you!! Your whole family are in my prayers and thoughts several times daily! You are showing such courage and strength to be able to go back to school! I pray it is what you need to get through this unimaginable time.
Here's another HUG!! Vicky Ward (Ali's mom)!!

 
At 10:36 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Lauren and Whitney,

I will be praying for you in this tough transition back to "reality". I,too, lost my "little" brother 8 years ago, and know the pain and terror of losing a sibling.

I will pray God gives you special friends who will listen and support you in the way that helps the best.

BJ was right about guys and dating! Keep it in mind!

Love,

Linda Storm
Ontario, CA

 
At 11:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lauren and Whitney,

I'll be praying especially tomorrow as you go back to school and work. I'll pray that God gives you strength. I know He will hold you up...Your faith and thankfulness amidst this sorrow and hurt is such a beautiful testimony! I continue to be blessed by you and all of your family.

Love in Christ,
Hannah Lane
xanga.com/InChristAlone19

 
At 11:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

May God bless you for the trust you both are "showing" Christ in going back to school and work. Oh yes He will give you all that you need and some.

 
At 11:44 PM, Anonymous Kailey(Gulf Shores,AL) said...

That story about BJ made me smile. Ya'll sure are lucky to have had him for a brother.

In Christ,
Kailey<><

 
At 12:28 AM, Anonymous emily reagan said...

still praying Lauren!

 
At 6:50 AM, Anonymous Matt C said...

As we continue to pray for your family you all continue to bless us so much with your witness for our Lord. Thank you so much.

I can only try to imagine the mixture of emotions y'all must go through each day, but I pray that you will receive a peace and joy that only He can provide you with. I know that His grace will be sufficient for you and, as is the Higgins' way, He will be glorified in you because you are so satisfied in Him (sorta quoting Piper there).

Could I make a request if it's not the wrong thing to ask? I'd like to know how BJ led his days. When did he have a prayer time, when did he study his bible (morning or night), and other clues as to what worked for him. I would like to imitate him a little because he was imitating Christ.

I struggle with getting my time/life in order so I hope it's ok to ask as this. Maybe Beej can help a "wanderer" find the narrow path again.

Thanks in advance and God bless you all as you take on the world anew.

 
At 6:38 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will continue to pray for you all in this time of trying to find a new way. I know that this must be the hardest thing in the world for all of you to do. We question, How is this fair that we continue to go on with life? But, knowing that our God has our loved ones in his kingdom preparing a place for us to one day go is a peace to know that it is not final. May God Bless your family as you venture back out into this world.
My prayers always,
Missy
Hampstead, NC

 
At 12:16 PM, Anonymous Ron S. said...

I was just on the Mercy Me website and was reading that someone needed some prayers, I of course clicked the link and got to reading. I just want to say that from what I have read, BJ knew the Lord very closely and had so much talent, I mean to go to Peru for a mission trip at the age of 15. God must have had something he needed BJ to do for him, so he brought him home. I pray that BJ is up in heavan and that when the day comes that I get to go home, I get to meet BJ, he sounded like a magnificent person. Your family will me in my prayers for quite some time. God bless you and your family, and remeber that Jesus loves you very very much and is there for you anytime you need to talk.

Ron
Portland, Or

 
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