Tuesday, December 20, 2005

We are just 5 short days from celebrating Christ's birth. I know we all strive to make celebrating His presence a lifestyle. I know I often fail. Falling short, seems at times to come so very easily. What a priviledge and blessing to know and be known by a Savior who disregards our foolishness, as we strive to lay down our lives for Him.

Beej was no different. When I read his writings, I am often struck at how few times he writes of failure...though when he did, it was clear that he was pierced by it's presence... and how many times his writings were hope-filled, and nourishing. Both to him, and to me. As a father, I am so very greatful that he left such distinct pathways into his relationship with Christ. Especially now, I can enjoy how the Lord worked in his short life. Even though I knew he was unusual in life, I am moved each day at his depth, and embrace for the Savior.

I want to share Beej's call to ministry with you... in his own words. He was 12 when he wrote this. At home, I have an antique painting in a most unusual frame, which depicts Christ at the same age. How He actually looked is unknown to me, but his reflection comes through in Beej's testimony:


"All my life I've felt the possibility of being called into ministry. Although I took it lightly, lately, I've had a burden to inform as many Christians and non-Christians about Christ and being like Him.

On Monday morning after I finished my "sealed orders" (devotionals) I let my mind wander to find out what God wanted to tell me. Almost immediately, my thoughts were on the ministry. So, responding, I prayed that God would affirm this inkling. Sometime during the week, a speaker said that God wanted to tell each individual at camp something. I immediately thought about the ministry. "Is God trying to call me into the ministry?" I thought, "Lord please show me if this is what you want to tell me this week.

On Thursday, the "Meat" side of "sealed orders" was titled "What's next?" It talked about what God wanted for us next: after we got home from camp. I concluded my "Sealed Orders" by asking myself what God wants for me next.

Once again my mind landed on the ministry. It was then that I realized that God was calling me into the ministry; but I didn't want to make the wrong choice, so once again I prayed for affirmation. That night, Big John talked about being called into the ministry. I finally realized that God was affirming me.

As that night wore on, I felt more and more sure about being called into the ministry. Then I prayed for courage, Christlikeness, and humility as I faced the profession that God is leading me to."

I cannot help but wonder if the painting of Jesus at 12, was to portray the time He was away from his parents, and in His Father's house. Much like Beej's time at camp was designed to be (okay, so Deanna and I were actually at camp too, but our interaction was virtually non-existant...by design).

Our children are often capable of more than we give them credit for. I Praise the Lord for men like Big John, who have helped shape my sons life. For those of you at the calling, he was the bearded man who directed, and at times interrupted (for our sakes) the flow of people there to share with us. For those who were not there, he has been in ministry for a lifetime. Serving behind the scenes, always making sure sound, lights, stages and people are ready at appropriate times. He brought us breakfast most everyday for the 6 weeks we were in the hospital. He stood by us closer than most could, because he knows how to play the "supporting role" better than any. He has been on virtually every youth mission trip ever taken at Northside Baptist. If credits ran at the end of the trip, his name would be found near the "key grip's" as he never seeks the limelight, but always meets needs. Things get done when Big John is around. He makes you want to serve, by his ministry approach.

He has shaped many young lives similarly. Too few are willing to serve in this way, or even understand how to. Every ministry needs a Big John. Every student needs a Big John. Praise God that He has Big John, and molds lives through him.

He and Beej, called each other "BJ". He invested much in my son. He financially contributed a lion's share, so that Beej could go to Peru, two years in a row. He has blessed our lives, and that of our children. Whitney lived with he and his family for her senior year of high school, so she could finish where she started, when God called us elsewhere. He has left his four-wheelers at our home for recreational use on many occassions, only to receive them back, wrecked. Never a cross word spoken to us as a result.

He knows what is important in life, and he helped make sure my son did too. Thank you Big John, you have blessed us, and we are most greatful!

brent (dad)

Tomorrow we head to Kentucky to be with family. We will be there until Friday. We are uncertain of computer access, but will try to share as we can. Tonight we intend to see MercyMe in their last Christmas concert. Please pray for them, as I am sure they are weary.


At 10:15 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Beutiful! I am praying for your family. Enjoy the concert tonight! We will be there too!

In Christ,

Your friend in Noblesville, IN

At 10:46 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is amazing that BJ was only twelve when he wrote that entry. He's a pretty amazing kid - which in turn is a reflection on his parents!

I hope you have a safe drive to the Bluegrass State. Enjoy your time with your family.

Have a blessed Christmas.

At 10:57 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey family
i miss you all so much. im sorry i missed you last sunday i heard you were all there. i just want you remind you that i love you and that each of you continue to amaze me. this is not about me but i have learned to much from bj and from just being loved by the 5 of you throughout the years. I know that as i go to college and grow out of the comfort of NSM, i will forever carry the lessons that bj has taught me and the lessons that you all have taught me. How to love no matter the circumstances, how to forgive and how to live. I love each of you. thank you again for being who you are and for being an inspiration to me and the world. i love you and i feel so blessed to know that we share a special bond. Thank you for loving me back. i miss you and i hope to see you soon!
Katie Waddles

At 11:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Friends like Big John are truly a gift from God. They are very few and far between. We have many aquaintenance, friends that we worship with, friends from work, and just "friends", however, Those individuals that God puts into our lives, to not only help mold and shape the person we are, but to help mold and shape the people our family will be. At times they are our guardian angel, helping, and watching over us. I have many friends that I call friend, that I am sure I could count on in the time of need, but I have no friend like my friend Mike. Much Like Big John, Mike is the guy behind the scenes. But the love he exudes for me and my family is overwhelming. Mike may not be my brother by blood, but he is my brother, and my girls refer to him as Uncle Mikey! Mike has always been there for me and my family to help us and lend us the hand we need, even when we don't realize we need it. Wrecking his ATV, Truck, or whatever, would never bring a cross word from Mike. I thank God for putting people in my life like Mike.....our Big Johns!
We will pray for your safe travels to Kentucky this week.
We will watch for you at the concert tonight as well. We will be sitting in one of the suites, blessed by a coworker with connections to the "right" people.
If I don't get to speak to you before.....PLEASE, HAVE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS.
Matt Littell

At 12:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Deanna, Brent and family,

I have been remiss in reading BJ's site everyday for awhile. We've just added a large room to the back of our house and are in the throws of celebrating Jesus' birth and all that entails. You all continue to be a blessing to me and many others by sharing the "realness" of Jesus in your lives. I am once again, empacted by the fact that God has a plan for each of our lives and continues that plan even after we join Him in heaven. BJ's life shows that beautifully!!!!! My prayers are with you as you travel to Kentucky to be with family. I know that the power of God will sustain you through this bittersweet Christmas.

Praying you through,
Lynne in Gray, Ga.

At 2:34 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It amazes me every time you share from BJ's journal how in touch he was at such a young age with God's grace and purpose for his life.

Bless you all as your travel to Kentucky and for your time together with family. Even though there will be an emptiness present that I'm sure you will all feel, I pray that God will somehow fill that with His divine presence and enable you to not only get through these days but enjoy your time together.

May you have a blessed and love filled Christmas as we remember and celebrate the wonderful gift of God's son...just as you will be celebrating the wonderful gift that BJ was to your lives.

Blessings, love and peace,

At 3:50 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Big John, God bless you. So many want the acknowledgment of their works, yet you understood it was not about you, but Him. I pray I have the same realization and do what is right for Him, not for me! I pray that in our humanness, we take the responsibility of being a true Christian, giving without need of acknowledgment, without need of thanks -- just giving in His name for His glory, to our Lord Jesus Christ.

Lord, bless all families with safe travel, a peacefulness that can be only known through You, and a love that is everlasting, in Your Name.

At 4:31 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

You guys were heavy on my heart last night. I just wanted to let you know that I constantly think about you and pray for you just as much. This Christmas is going to be way different... but I pray that Christ blesses you abundantly somehow through it all. I love you so much!
Houston, TX

At 5:49 PM, Blogger Ashley Reagan said...

Thanks for sharing once again. I pray you will have a safe and enjoyable trip. Have fun at the concert tonight! Love you guys!

Ashley Dawn

At 12:51 AM, Blogger Unknown said...

Thank you for once again sharing with us all. Praise God for the 'Big John's" in our lives and praise God that your BJ was sensitive to the Holy Spirt. How proud you must be, and this is just another example of Godly parents and parenting skills.
I pray your time with family in Kentucky is refreshing and that our Lord continues to minister and move in your lives. You are often in our thoughts and prayers and we thank God that He brought you all into our lives.
We had our interview with the school today for Hollie, and praise God things went well. We had a lovely tour of the school and all their facilities and will have news by the end of the week as to whether they will accept Hollie. God has given both Kevin and I a real peace about this situation and we are so thankful to Him for all He is doing.

In His Love

At 8:12 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks Brent
good to see you from afar last night.

serving a very BIG GOD
big john


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