Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Jessica is 9 years old. Her mother died of breast cancer a year and a half ago. Her father is an alcoholic. Her family does not want her. She is the youngest resident of the Baptist Childrens Home.

She is precious and smart. As she shared her story with me, my heart collapsed. She was very matter of fact about it all. When asked how things were for her now, her eyes traveled a great distance as she sought the right words. Clearly, she did not want to seem ungrateful, but her circumstances are not easy. She longs to have a daddy that loves her, and a family that embraces her.

Her reply indicated that things were okay... just okay.

A phone call interrupted the morning preparations in the Awe Star office. Rachel answered, then came and relayed the need for assistance at the Childrens Home. It seems the scheduled speaker had to cancel at the last minute.

Today was the day we were to celebrate Danielle's last day with us. The Lord was moving her on to other things. I did not want to miss this. As we discussed filling the void at the Home, it became clear that both could be accomplished.

We accepted the privilege of sharing there. Rachel, Lauren and I celebrated Danielle's ministry with Awe Star, then headed off to our engagement.

We were greeted by several young men. They were very young (10-13) and friendly. They shared very openly about their lives. J.B. was excited about going fishing later in the day. He walked me to the window and showed me the fishing pond down the way. He shared what kinds of fish the pond was stocked with.

The residents assembled and it was time to share BJ's testimony, our journey, and our connection and ministry at Awe Star. The students ages 9 to 18 sat and listened to an unbelievable story.

At times it seemed the pain of the story reminded them to clearly of their own plight. A few checked out mentally, though they remained quiet and respectful.

At the conclusion, we had the privilege of sharing personally with those who wanted to talk. I met several amazing young people, and heard about their desperate circumstances. I was moved beyond words as I listened.

Then young Jessica stepped up shyly and waited her turn to share with me. We sat down as she began to open her heart. In the course of the next few minutes she spoke of a journey that was wrought with pain and rejection on a level no child should ever have to endure, but she had. She was sweet and loving, and as she talked it became clear she wanted something.

She had sat and listened to BJ's story intently. The Lord had stirred her heart and opened her eyes to a Truth she had not seen before. She wanted a relationship with Jesus. She wanted to live her life for Him. She wanted that kind of love in her life. Jessica and I prayed and she was ushered into the assembly of angels celebrating her decision.

Please pray for her, she has a long road ahead and I fear it will get harder. She needs to be discipled. Pray for the staff of the home that they will lift her up, encourage her, and love her in the ways she needs.

I spoke with one of the board members of the home who found out she had made this decision. I was told this never happens. Speakers who come in seldom have impact or opportunity with these young people. Their hearts are hard, their circumstances difficult, their road long.

This is about a Divine Appointment for Jessica. None of the peripheral issues of this story matter. What matters is the heart of a young abandoned 9 year old was drawn to the Savior by the Holy Spirit, and she wanted what she sensed.

Praise God for His Marvelous light and provision!



At 10:19 AM, Blogger natenamy said...

YAY Jessica!!! Welcome to God's forever family! Please know that we will be praying for you.
Brent, thanks for heeding the call even when you had other "things" planned. Look what a difference it made in one very hurt little girl's life. Know that we continue to lift you all up in prayer.
We love ALL of you stacks.
Amy (and Nate too)

At 11:05 AM, Blogger Praying in Pink said...

Chills and tears for Jessica.

Thanks for the heartbeat of obedience, Brent.

Dan said, "God-moments happen to godly people"--whether we deserve them ("you owe me") or not.

I think our Father calls that . . . GRACE.

Remember? It's what He gives to the humble. That was you, sharing your trial by fire and tears in NA.

Thanks for opening your heart and life once again.

praying, with tender love,


At 1:56 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


what a story!!! praise the Lord for another sister in Him. thank you for being the willing witness that Jessica was looking for!!

love you dad. praying always.

At 2:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Go God! You are good! All the time!

At 4:50 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent & Deanna,

Hi! I have tried to keep up with how your summer has been going with reading your posts here and on awestar. What an exciting summer you all have had! It is so neat to see the difference your whole family has had on people all around the world. So many souls saved! Congratulations Deanna on your new job! You will be wonderful! Maybe you can get my middle (mental!) schooler to sing! I hope you are still planning a trip to Indy next week? Would love to see ya. You'll have to stop in and see our new additions- horses! They come tomorrow. Take care, we are keeping you all in our prayers and miss you a lot. Church is not the same without you.
Love, Nancy

At 5:16 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Isn't God awesome! Thanks for making another Divine appointment possible.

At 8:08 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent and Deana,

Please stop and look at Jessica again. I am not saying run out and adopt, but maybe just maybe along with all the other things He has done, that God has brought this little girl in to your life for more than just to introduce her to Christ. There may be things that God needs to teach you that can only be done through this little girl, and probably things that God needs to teach you through her. Yes, she needs a mentor, but she needs on that will teach her not only about Christ, but about how to let love in, how to be a kid, and how to forgive and move on. Don't miss a chance to touch the face of God through a child that learns to love and trust again.

At 8:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Amen to the above posting..............Praise the Lord

At 10:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said... is all about adoption isn't it?!!!

Funny, all I could think about is "how can we adopt this child?" awesome when God cares for us in such intimate ways. This is SO what I have prayed specifically for YOU! Thanks for sharing.

We are on the road again so it is difficult to check in as often, but know that my knees continue to be bent. Brett..I also brought my Hebrews cds so I am trying to accomplish that as well!

Praise the Lord for His continued work among you and through you!

At 9:41 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

congratulations, Deanna on your new job! It is amazing how these Divine appointments come to be.

Brent, thank you for sharing this story of God's precious child, Jessica. Where is this home where she is? The whole story reminds me of that story about the older gentleman on the beach, that is loaded with starfish. He is walking along picking one up at a time and throwing them back into the ocean. Someone sees him and questions why he is doing it when there are so many it won't even make a difference...and the man replies as he throws another one back in, "It made a difference to this one." That is what you have done for little Jessica through God's calling on you to go and your willingness to share.

My oldest son is 9 and every night he is so cuddly and loving and he craves that back from us, which we gladly give him. I can't imagine how lonely and unloved Jessica feels...and yet, she know is part of such a larger family and hopefully she will feel that love surround her.

blessings, Tina

At 2:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

mom & dad--

honestly..when i read it the first time..i thought that thats where you were going w/it..that you were going to adopt her..i was just to SCARED to say it =) but now that everyone else has...... talk about peer pressure!!

love you guys. praying for a blessed day.


At 9:32 AM, Blogger Praying in Pink said...

The comments of the past couple of days come from the hearts of those who dearly love the Higgins and feel great compassion for Jessica. Let's be careful, however, not to run ahead of the Lord in either our prayers or postings.

From what I know of Brent and Deanna, they will listen to God and follow with a heartbeat of obedience just as they did in going to Awe Star or serving in NA. I am grateful for our blog family's concern for this little girl--but I hurt for my friends who may not be ready, and may never NEED to be ready, for a step like this. Encouraging them to pray is one thing. Suggesting anything more, however well-intentioned, seems presumptuous and almost insensitive.

Just a word from my heart. Please receive this as loving concern from one who prays alongside you and also has an adopted child. I thought about posting anonymously, but I'm afraid my "pink" style would give me away! Special prayers for Jack and Lisa and tender love to all from


At 12:40 AM, Blogger Unknown said...

Praise the Lord for you and for Jessica! I just got shivers reading your account of the day. Thank you for sharing it!

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