I guess it is fleshly to do, but when an event as difficult as losing a child occurs, you look for validation of that life. One could argue that that is why we have continued to post for as long as we have. I can tell you honestly that I would have stopped a long time ago, had the Lord not continued to provide ministry through this site. He has faithfully provided words when there were none in my heart.

Many of you have been with us from the beginning of this journey. You have laughed, cried, and prayed as the Spirit of the Lord moved upon you. Please know that we as a family are eternally thankful for this support. You have ministered to us as much as anything we have done.

It has been seven months since our son, BJ went home to spend eternity with Christ our Savior. We have the peaceful assurance that we will one day worship side by side with him again. We miss the opportunities we had to do this. He was such a passionate lover and worshipper of Christ. He lived a very full life in his almost 16 years.

We are so very thankful to Bart and the guys for how they have poured into our lives through "Die for You." The validation the Lord has given to our sons memory will resonate through the nations, as the money from this song funds scholarships to send his replacements. Over, and over, year after year, we pray that this happens for a long time to come. Our God has blessed us with opportunities to share his story in many states, and that has helped us heal from his loss.

Ultimately, the only thing that matters is that Christ is glorified. That is what BJ wanted, and it is what our family wants. Beej's life and death validates the need we all have for a Savior. It points to the love of a God who cared enough for you and I that He sent His only Son to die, that we might live.

Though many may choose not to believe it, He may call others to lay their lives down if through it He can receive greater glory, and draw others to Himself. Is there a greater purpose in life than knowing Christ, and understanding the need to be willing to do whatever He asks, regardless of the outcome or circumstances? There was none for Beej, and he has taught me that there should be none for me.

I miss him more than I can convey. However, I have a loving Savior who meets me where I am, and provides for me. I will serve Him with all I have, and all that I am until my turn to go home arrives. He is my God, and I love Him.

dad