Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Fellow believers,

I wanted to let you know of the news we received today on BJ's death. We did have an autopsy done, and have been told that BJ died from a "myocardial infarction" or heart attack. This was caused by bacteria which had built up in his blood stream from damaged tissue and organs, and resulted in blood clots in his arteries which accumulated in the last 8 hours of BJ's life.

Further, his tissues and organs were so badly damaged from the initial infection that despite the heroic efforts and measures of the St. Vincent's staff he had no chance of survival. In fact, he should not have lived as long as he did. We know that our Lord Jesus Christ, and the "great cloud of witnesses" sustained his life through intercessory prayer... so that others could know the Savior. We are humbled and grateful that the Lord would choose to use our BJ in such a way. We are further humbled that you would continue to check this site, and pray for us.

We are, through the grace of Christ, being sustained in this very hard time. We are encouraged by your blogs, and by knowing that we will one day be reunited with our precious BJ. Know that our nights are hard right now. Our first moments home, in the early morning on Monday, all 4 of us climbed into our queen sized bed and tried to sleep. Sleep does not come quickly, as sorrow is still too near. Walking into his room for the first time was overwhelming for all 4 of us. His carpet has grown damp and worn.

We will survive this, and we see God doing some amazing things. There is much ministering to be done. Won't you join us? You have stood in the GAP for us, and bombarded the throne of grace with your sweet incense of prayer. Christ has drawn all of us closer to Him through this. Now we must serve. This unity must be continued to win the lost of the world. Our Savior is WORTHY of our efforts.

We will see many of you (we hope) at his services (times and place listed in the update before this one). If you cannot make it, a webcast is being attempted for those who wish to share in the Worship of our Savior. More details as they are available. Dress for the calling and service?..."Prayforbj.com" pink or black (or whatever you are comfortable in). I will be wearing PINK. First my prayforbj shirt, then my father's day gift from BJ...Pink button down shirt.

Praise Jesus, He's our KING!

Beej's dad


At 5:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have checked the blog several times today to hear from your family and as I pulled it up this time there was once again an awe of how our Lord and Saviour continues to be honored and lifted up even in your suffering...Such an inspiration and witness of what God can truly do when we allow Him full control of all that we are. I heard a song today and the first thing that came to mind was your family and BJ's life

Take my heart and help me feel
Take my faith and make it real
Take my eyes and help me see
all the love surrounding me

Don't let me go
Hold me close to where you are
Don't let me go
Take my heart take all of me

Take my loss and take my gain
Take my trials and take my pain
Take my life and let it be
All that you would have for me

Don't let me go
Hold me close to where you are
Don't let me go
Take my heart take all of me

May the God of heaven walk even closer to your side in the next few days than he ever has before and may you feel the strength that only He can supply as you make this journey. Our love and prayers go with you and our thoughts of you are often!!!

A Sister in Christ~
Laura Armbrister, Strang, Ok.

At 5:34 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you...

At 5:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

To The Precious Higgins Family,
I have followed your story from the beginning and prayed for you with every update. My heart has broken for all of you more times than you will ever know. But, praise our wonderful Savior, He has been able to work in and through all of this to touch hundreds of lives. I believe BJ would not have wanted it any other way. It's funny how I feel like I know your family now even though we will probably never meet. I think of you all and pray for you several times a day. I have two children and I have to say, I could only hope to handle this type of situation with the beautiful faith all of you have had. Thank you for allowing all of us to witness your walk through this time in your life. It has forever changed my relationship with Christ. Knowing BJ is now with our Savior and Redeemer warms my heart like nothing else. You two are absolutely phenominal parents and I know your two daughters are equally as special. I will pray for all of you in the coming months...there are no words to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. Thank you again that you allowed this time in your life to impact so many for eternity!

In Christ's Perfect Love,

Lori Gellerson
Everett, Washington

At 5:38 PM, Blogger . said...

I will continue checking on you, family, and I continue to pray....

At 5:39 PM, Blogger Ashley Darnold said...

I hope I will get the chance to meet you all. Know that you are in my prayers, during this hard time. -ashley

At 5:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i just thought of this song, it is a beautiful song, and very true! i will see you guys on thursday! cant wait to give you a BIG hug!

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

love you,

At 5:43 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We can only imagine the pain in your hearts with BJ's absence from your home. He is in a perfect home now,
but of course the adjustment must be such a challenge.
We continue to pray for all of you.
We hope you find continued strength and peace in your heart.
We would be honored to help honor BJ in any and all ways we can.
Love to you all and may our prayers surround your family through this challenging time and bring you comfort.
From all of us
Lisa GreshMeils
Jack Meils
Julie Meils
Grandma Shirley

Indpls., IN

At 5:45 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Pink it will be!

At 5:46 PM, Blogger Cousin Beth said...

Always there in our hearts! You're on my mind constantly. We'll see you Thursday, thanks to the help of our wonderful church family! We are blessed!
I truly hope this site will stay in place. God is doing something.
Loving and praying,

At 5:51 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dearest Higgins family,
Oh how our hearts go out to you! Thank you so much for sharing this incredible journey with us and teaching us about unabashed worship of our Lord and Savior, Jseus Christ, and ceaseless service to Him. We will never be the same...
See you in pink on Friday,
Mary and Joe Carvelle

At 5:52 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank You for sharing this wonderful journey with us.
Thank You for continuing to share with us.
I pray that this site will remain to let the Lord continue his work thru BJ..
(Besides when we wear our shirts there needs to be a site for them to go to...)
Praying, praying, praying..
The Leaf's

At 5:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your family continues to be a light shining in the darkness! Thank you for continuing to draw us in to a very private time in your life. We hang on every word that comes from this web page. May God be glorified, and may your family be held close to Him in the many days that follow!

In His Love,
Lori Burkert

At 5:54 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I cant even imagine how hard a thing like this is for your family. I know that BJ did great things, and now has fullfilled his mission in life, but seeing him go cannot be an easy thing. BJ is now in the kingdom of God, living a life greater than any of us can imagine. His pains have all been replaced by joys. I hope that this can make you feel better, I know this is what BJ was thinking in his last moments.
"Take this world from me
I don't need it anymore
I am finally free
My heart is spoken for

Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you..."

At 6:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family,
We have been following BJ since hearing of his hospitalization. Rachel and Erica have been friends of Lauren and BJ since coming to Northside. They have some very fond memories they will carry with them for a very long time.

Personally, your family has been a huge inspiration to me and has caused me to take a closer look into my walk with Christ. I am encouraged by BJ's ability to step up to the plate and do the Great Commission and taking the Gospel to those who may never have had the opportunity. In 15 years BJ has touched more lives than most who have been here far longer.

In an age where Christianity is being attacked from virtually every possible angle, it is encouraging to see that there is still hope for future generations. Hearing how BJ and other kids his age have impacted others' lives is tremendous.

Please know that our family will continue to keep your family in our prayers. Thank you for your strength and courage throughout this chapter in your lives.

In Christ's Love,
Craig Trask

At 6:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've heard so much about him. What a man of God. He had a huge impact on my friends and peer group (Carmel 2008). I really was hoping to someday meet youre son, and I'll get to in heaven!

At 6:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We will continue to lift your family up in prayer. We pray that the Lord will give you the strength, comfort and the grace needed at this time. I never had the pleasure of meeting BJ and yet he has made an everlasting impression on me. What a beautiful servants heart he had. He touched so many peoples lives for Christ and will continue to touch many more through the power of his testimony.

May the peace of God be with you at this time.

Numbers 6:24-26
"The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace."

Youngstown, OH

At 6:07 PM, Blogger Nic and Jen said...

I keep checking the blog for an update of how you are all doing. Praise God that He is sustaining you. I am very sad just trying to imagine what you must be feeling right now. You are so very right.... BJ survived as long as he did so more would come to know Jesus as Savior. I know that Jesus was holding BJ in His precious hands throughout his illness. May God continue to comfort you in this hard hard time. May you find your comfort in prayer and in the Word of God. BJ is truly an inspiration to so many people around the world. Knowing he is with Christ is overwhelmingly joyful. Will be checking back soon, the webcast sounds wonderful for those who do not live nearby. We live in WA.
God Bless You!

At 6:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for explaining what happened to BJ--during this difficult time for you. I know you will find it a comfort down the road to know that everything possible was done for BJ. And it has been a privilege to join you in praying for him.

May you and your family sense God's love, comfort, and presence as never before.

Fort Wayne

At 6:23 PM, Blogger Amanda Andrews said...

We love you, Higgins Family! We can't wait to give you a huge hug on Thursday when we see you for the first time in a long time. Everytime I turn on the radio I hear a song that makes me cry for you. But I have to tell myself to smile for BJ, because hes in Heaven now!! He's there praising Jesus which is (im sure) what he loved to do most! How amazing! Praise God.
We love you so much.
-love, mark and amanda andrews.

At 6:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am still praying for you and am saddened to hear it was a heart attack. I will keep praying for your comfort through our Father. I love you guys and will be there in spirit.

Hannibal, Mo

At 6:31 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We will be praying for all of you over the next couple of days, weeks, months and the year. I know that it is going to be so hard to deal with this. Please know that you have a massive amount of people lifting you up to the Lord.
May His strong arms hold you and soothe your pain.
"Because He lives I can face tomorrow!"

At 6:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. I know this will be a hard time for you. I will be praying for your family.

At 6:44 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is truly an amazing testimony, hearing not only how God sustained BJ, depsite the severe problems he was facing, but also how you (his parents and family) have remained strong and submissive to whatever the will of God was. BJ's life touched many. Your lives continue to do that. My prayers are with you all. By the way, I sent a song I wrote a few years back through the Mercy Me email since I didn't have your email address. I'm not sure if you have received it. If not you can email me at janibabe59@aol.com and I will send you the song.

At 6:45 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so amazed at the vivid memory I have of Brent from when we were 7th graders in Mrs. McGuckin's English class. An assignment of ours was to complete a "book talk" on our favorite book. Brent did his report on The Left Behind seris, and in doing so, shared the gospel to a group of seventh graders at Clay. I was a Christian at the time, but wasn't living it. I remember thinking, "Wow...HE HAS WHAT IM LOOKING FOR!! That is so cool he can be so bold." He's one of the first people that introduced me to a personal relationship with Christ, and I don't think he ever had any idea. After I took the steps to begin living as a Christian at Carmel high school, Brent has been one of the people I think about when I look back on my years in jr. high when I was just searching for something. Brent just got it. He had most of it then, and now he has it all. Isn't it amazing what an amazing impact such a book talk can do?
See ya soon BJ!!!

At 6:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna, Whitney & Lauren,

Thank you for letting us know what happened to BJ. We can't fully comprehend your suffering at this time but we know that our Savior can. We are continuing to steadfastly pray for your family to be comforted with the comfort that only the Prince of Peace can bring.

I want you to know that I have been deeply blessed by the depth of your faithfulness. You are all great servants of our Lord and through this process it has become abundantly clear where BJ's love and passion for the Lord comes from.

We just want you to know that we mourn with you and you are all deeply loved. You'll see us in pink as well.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

In Him
The Dickersons

At 6:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hope your family is doing well! you still remain in my prayers!!
always arkansas girl

At 7:05 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Family, This is a newsong that God gave last year in May....close your eyes and picture BJ singing this to Him.

Here I am
standing in Your grace
standing face to face
with You Father

Hand in Yours
all my sin erased
knowing I belong to You

My life secure in Yours
my heart enclosed in Yours
Your love shines through me

And here I am
standing in Your grace
standing face to face

Hand in Yours
all my tears erased!
Knowing I belong with You

Knowing that You love me!
Knowing thay You've called me!
Knowing I belong...with...You....!

(use by permission of the HolySpirit) Love, Terry Turner

At 7:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't go to Carmel schools anymore, but read about your son's death by chance in a friend's blog. Brent and I were never close, but had French together with Madame Gayley at Clay. Your son never failed in making me laugh. I remember he used to write down all of Madame's little rules on his book cover. It was quite comical. I believe he got over 100. Your son was an amazing guy.

At 7:09 PM, Blogger Scott Harris said...

I had wanted to come, but was dissapointed to find that plane tickets are really expensive.... a friend got my hopes up. She had a free plane ticket she was gonna give me, but when we tried to book the flight it was full.... It was a really nice gesture.... but since I can't go back up there, I will give all of y'all a big virtual ***HUG***

I can speak for several others when I say that we're praying for you down here in LA (Lower Alabama)

At 7:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


FBC Bullard,TX

At 7:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear the Higgins family,

God chose BJ to carry out this plan not only because BJ was the right kid for the job, but because you are the chosen family to walk through it. Whatever weight God gives us, He gives us the strength to carry, and that has been more than evident throughout the last 45 days. Shivvers shot through me as I read the recent post, amazed to learn that God kept BJ alive so that more and more would come to know Him. BJ passed away on the 6 month anniversary of my friend Brett Hershey's passing - two men who lived life to the fullest in the time God gave them. Your son has inspired me to carry on the mission he lived out in his young age, and as we run the race here on earth, I know I have 2 huge cheerleaders up there, even though I did not know BJ personally. I know you thank God for giving you BJ for 16 years, but I thank you for showing us BJ in the last 45 days. His legacy continues, even here in Denver, as I share his story with anyone who will listen. And even more, that only leads me to share His story, that of Jesus Christ and His saving Grace. People will continue to come to know Jesus because of BJ, and I want to promise you that. I pray you experience a peace beyond all understanding in the days, weeks, months and years to come.

"Only one life,
'twill soon be past.
Only what's done for Christ will last."

My sincere prayers and my deepest thanks...

Brian Shakley
Denver, CO

At 7:21 PM, Blogger John said...

BJ was a light for God... please continue to stand fast in your faith, for it is the greatest achievement one can have in this life... to live for God. BJ did that, and thousands are thankful for his life.

We will all continue to pray, and God will help your pains as well with time.

At 7:28 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was friends with Brent back in Carmel, although I hadn't spoken to him since you moved, he had such an impact on my life, and the lives of so many others. It seems so fit for his last trip to have been on a mission trip spreading the love of our amazing savior! It has givin me so much comfort knowing that he is with our wonderful Jesus now!! Hes finally where he belongs. I can only hope that i will one day see him again! I pray as I know so many others are for your family and the pain you must be going through. I cant wait to see you guys again on thursday!!!

In Christ,
~Liz McMahon

At 7:29 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I just can't gete you all off my mind. My heart is broken. And I can only begin to imagine your hearts. Our daughter was seriously ill in March of '04 with a virus that went to her brain. She was VERY bad; in hospital for 107 days. The first time we came home for a rest without her was horrible. I was also thinking about something tonight. We've all heard the question "Would you give your life for Jesus?" I've always had this mental picture of someone standing with a gun to my head and asking me this question. But that's hardly the situation. We can give our lives for Jesus in SO many other ways. B.J. is a very good example of this. We are SO looking forward to the day when we get to meet him. We've never met, but we know that he is an AWESOME young man. And you've got to be an AWESOME family. We love you all and you continue to be in our constant prayers.

The Hamilton Family
New Salisbury, IN

At 7:29 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

There go my tears again...

Indeed, the Lord allowed BJ's time in the hospital to be a special witness for many. That witness is going to multiply for a long time.

It is an honor to stand in the gap with witnesses like the Higgins' family and those who have accessed this site.

He is worthy.


At 7:29 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins family,
We continue to lift you up today and the many ahead of you as we know you will experience many "first times" after the loss of BJ and in those moments it will be difficult, like you mentioned, the first time you went into his room, etc. and all the times you do things that were a tradition for the family or even go places he liked to go but I know with God's strength you will all be able to be sustained through those moments and again will be reminded of the glory of God that was so evident in his life. I know for us as a family, it has been hard to break the habit of checking the website continuously throughout the day and then dealing with the reality that pops up on the computer screen, so I cannot even begin to IMAGINE how hard it is for you all. Oh, may God give you comfort! I must echo so many previous comments though, and pray the website will be maintained and used to continue touching lives. I shared with my whole class at school today in Creative Writing about how to write a journal and I told them the best website to go to,to see incredible journal entries was www.prayforbj.com - All of you have been amazing how God has given you the strength to cope and then you have been so gracious to share and be so transparent with us all. Thank you!!! I do hope to see a book published on BJ's life as well. What a great tool for other young people to see a hero of the faith that was their age (not someone they don't think they relate with who is old and gray -I don't say that with disrespect but through the eyes of teenagers!!!) We also hope to see you in pink on Friday if possible and meet you in person. We are thinking about you continuously and praying for you!
In his love,
The Rice family
Oklahoma City, OK

At 7:31 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for the update! I hope you continue to update us on your family and how God is using this journey in your family’s life.

I hope one day, when the hurt softens, you might publish BJ's journal entries as a devotional or Bio-Book. That way he will forever touch the lives of others.

You all are still in my prayers.

In Him,

At 7:32 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

May God continue to watch over you. This is such a hard time and I admire your positive outlook. I will wear my prayforbj.com shirt with pride, that I can tell of how BJ lead many people to Jesus and brought lots more deeper. I'm still praying for you! Stay strong and try to get some rest.
Lots of love,
Lauren Szabo


At 7:33 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family~

I can't even imagine what your first night was like...thank God I can lift you up to a Father who does. I also know He can send you other Christians who can identify with your hurt and loss, and help you in the grieving times.

I am hoping you will let us know how we can be praying for you all...I realize you need privacy and some solitude, but if there is anyway we can pray for you in the coming months, please let us know.

With much love,
Ashley Rockenbach, Riverside, CA

At 7:40 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Mr. Higgins,

All I can say is UNBELIEVABLE!!!!

GOD is so GOOD, so AWESOME !!!!!

To read your blog you have again inspired me just as your son to grow stronger in our Lord.... THANK YOU !!!!!

What a TESTIMONY this has been for me...

I am so HONORED to be able to pray for you and your precious family...

My heart aches for you as a mother... I will be lifting each of you up in prayer specifically...
What a wonderful and special mother you have been to such a special young man that our Lord chose to use for this journey....

God Bless you...

Your Sister in Christ,

At 7:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will still keep your family in my prayers.
My father left for Heaven 2 months ago today so I know how hard it is for us still left behind, missing them yet knowing they are enjoying a Perfect World forever!
St. Charles, Michigan

At 7:48 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can't wait to meet BJ in heaven. His journal entries are truly inspirational. I can tell he was seeking GOD with his whole life and I am challenged by his faith. Thank you for the updates, I have been praying for your family. May God bless you during this difficult time.

At 7:48 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

To BJ's awesome Dad, mighty man of faith and strength,
"There is much ministering to be done. Won't you join us?" YES - we will join you! The only thing that made any sense to me after Melissa died was for more souls to be won to Christ - MORE Souls to know of His mighty love - He is worthy to walk this road of suffering for MORE, MORE souls - my heart cries for MORE. I will join you to challenge young men "to live is Christ" and Yes it is possible - BJ did it! And young women - yes it is possible, Melissa did it. And parents - yes it is possible to raise a generation of Christ followers who will change the world! Brent and Deanna did it! I will join you.

If I can be of any help don't hesitate to ask.

To Live is Christ!
Janette Henning
The Vine Church
Encinitas, CA

At 7:56 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, and family:
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with all of us. Most of us can't identify specifically with your pain, but we have lost someone dear to us and can identify with those "firsts". I will continue to pray for each of you for what is in store in the days and weeks ahead. Thank you if you are able to work out a webcast for the service. I'll keep checking this site.
As many others have stated, this site has been our "connection" to all of you. I know your faith is strong, but when you are weak, we are here praying for you all
Much love,

Susie Gates
Evansville, IN

At 7:59 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh tears again. Know that we are continuing to lift you up in prayer. I love you like my own family. God will bless you greatly.
Brittany Allen
(peru extreme 04, Uganda 05)

At 8:01 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Love all you. Hang in there and we will be praying for you guys every step of the way in this process of grieving. STAY STRONG.

Jonathan Haag

At 8:02 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was told about this website from my computer lab teacher, and she asked me to pray for BJ and your family,and I did. I am so sorry to hear about BJ passing on, but he's in heaven with our father, in a much better place. I will still pray for your family during this hard time.

At 8:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I believe Bj would say this.
"If Jesus Christ be God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be too great for me to make for Him."
-- C.T. Studd

At 8:09 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Im always praying 4
u all!!!
I went 2 school 2day
it was very hard but i no
that he would want me 2 be
i just really love your son
he has touched my life.
im still praying 4 your family

At 8:17 PM, Blogger Ashley Reagan said...

I WILL be there and I'm so glad I get to come. I'm suffering a lot from this and I can only imagine what you all are going through. I can't wait for the day when I finally get to see my brother in Christ once more... this time forever! I love you guys so much and I can't wait to meet you! I pray for you all the time.

Ashley Dawn (peru 04)
Bixby, Oklahoma

At 8:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

the higgins, i will keep praying i was crying reading your story. i'm checking the blogs every day at least twice. i'm so sorry but i'm not able because i'm in school. but i will be praying all day thurusday for you all. hope you all do your best in keeping the pressure up. i can't imagine about on thousand people or more have be praying for your family. it is very sad at zionsville middle school. we are all thinking about you all the time. bj is well missed and hope thursday will be ok. pink is a great color. i hope to keep in touch with you all. you may e-mail me on BEACHBABIE@aol.com. hope to here more about bj's life. every time i go to bed at night i pray that the next day will be a better day for your family. my grandpa died two years ago and i still cry. after the showing i will still be praying that every day is better in your life. help this family lord.

liz stum you were my teacher two years ago. at zionsville's stonegate

At 8:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

John 12:24-25, "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life."

At 8:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i just was told about this site and this situation today and all i woud like to say is that im sorry i didnt know about it to pray for you sooner. this is an amazing story with amazing impact. you seem like you have a family of such strong faith and that is truley amazing in a time like this. keep doig what your doing and i will now pray daily for you and your family. god is good.
here is a verse that i think about whan i am feeling down. it just makes me feel better to remember how much God loves me and especially, bc my passion is to worship through song, that he "sings over me" :)

zepheniah 3:17 for the Lord your God is with you He is mighty to save. He takes great delight in you. He will quiet you with his love. He will rejoice over you with singing.

i pray that God blesses you and your family.

tiffani simon, Ft Worth TX

At 8:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i remember brent from my 6th grade english class at clay. (one of the few things i can remember from what feels like so long ago)we had to write a paper on our best friends. his was about his accountablity partner, and the close, like-a-brother relationship they had. this was the first example i had of how deep relationships can go through Christ. also we had to write about our hero. most people wrote about generic things like george washington or one of their parents. brent wrote about Jesus. i thought it was the coolest thing that Jesus was actually his best friend. i considered myself a Christian at the time, but was nowhere near anything that deep. Brent was and is an inspiration to me, to be braver in my faith, to reach out to all the hurting people, to set my sights on Heaven and what really matters.
praying for your family!! you guys have amazing faith in God!!! God's amazing He will get you thru this!

At 8:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i am humbled by such a life as BJ's. I didnt get the chance to get to know BJ but through you, his family, I have gotten to know what an extraordinary boy he truly was. What a man of Christ he was becoming, and that he fulfilled the course that Christ wished him to fulfill. He reached a plethura of people just in his illness, and I know he reached more in his life. I hope that you are aware that even though he touched so many lives. He especially touched mine. I get chills everytime I think about him, everytime I pray for your family, and in those moments I know Christ is with me. Christ remains with me day in and day out, but in those prayers I feel his words pouring from my lips that you will be settled within God's warm embrace, and that you too can know that BJ's life was the life of a precious child of God.

Always in my prayers,
Lindsay Northcutt

At 8:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i have been thinking about and praying for the whole family for a couple days now. You will continue to be in my prayers for some time to come. Even though I did not know BJ, he inspires me to live more for our Lord. Ive been too apathetic.
-IWU student

At 8:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so blessed to hear from you again. This Blog has become a necessity for me, and to be honest, I feel lost without it. Disconnected from your family. Thank you so much for the update. What a miracle God created through your son by allowing him to still be used in his illness to win others through his faith! What a wonderful son you were blessed with!!

Have they ever figured out what the initial infection was? It is frustrating for me to not know, and I can't even imagine what it must feel like for you. But then again, I guess that is a menial part in this whole thing, and not something to really focus on.

I am continuing to pray for your peace and the blanket of God's love wrapped around your shoulders. Know that this too will pass and the pain will decrease. I lost my mom at 18 and I thought I was going to die (not saved at the time). But time heals all wounds...and so does Jesus!!!!

You are so right....we NEED to continue the work that BJ started. And it starts with every individual. We came together for BJ, we need to go out into the world for Jesus and BJ!

Thank you again for the update. I check constantly to see if anything is posted, and it is so appreciated that you are thinking of all of us during your grief. Know that we are all still praying for you and loving you!

I live too far away to attend the services :o( but I will wear my shirt those two days to celebrate his life for us. And it would be awesome for those of us who can't be there to be able to watch it on the internet if possible. What a gift that would be... to "be there with you".

May God bless and keep you and lift you up in your hard times. We are still here for you and yours.

Loving you in Christ~

Linda Anderson
Willows, California

At 8:35 PM, Blogger a schmaltzee life said...


all i can say is i love you guys...and am blessed to call you family.

hugs..marla & gang

ok...a tadee (2yrs) story.
yesterday i was crying..and tadee asked why...i told her i was sad about bj...she said he is in heaven with Jesus... i said yes...what do you think he is doing... she said i don't know...then said..i think he is singing...(and she busted out with)
zip a de doo dah..zip a de ay...
my oh my what a wonderful day!!!!

oh little tadee maybe...maybe!

At 8:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Higgins -

Right now all I can do is thank you for all you have taught me and my family .. that there is hope for everyone and that God is more powerful then all. THANK YOU ... I'll see you at the services.
In Him

At 8:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna, Whitney & Lauren,

I want to first of all say thank you for allowing Joshua and I to visit BJ while we were in Indiana earlier this month. I am thankful that we got to meet you (Brent and Deanna). We have been praying for your family since the day Joshua found out about BJ being in the hospital. Joshua woke me up yesterday morning with the news of BJ's return home with tear filled eyes. We mourn with your family as well as rejoice with your family. You will continue to be in our prayers as you walk this road of pain and joy.

Tiffany McMillin

At 8:43 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins family,
I heard this song on the radio today & thought of you all. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through right now! Your faith & strength amazes me! We are still thinking of you & praying for you all. In the minutes, hours, days & months ahead "hold tight to the one who will carry you through!"

I call, You hear me, I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear, I feel so empty;
You’re strong, I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on, but I feel like givin’ in
But still, You’re with me

And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me;
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me

I know I’m broken
But You alone can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me
And even though I feel so lonely,
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through the storm

And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me;
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me.

We love you guys!


At 8:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We will keep on praying for you . I know that this has to be a very hard time. We love you all.

At 8:54 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've never met BJ or your family but like everybody here his life and your complete surrender to God has been an inspiration. I will be attending the Memorial Service on Friday in honor of BJ, his faith and his devotion to witness boldly!
Your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

In Christ love,
Ilona Maine
Muncie, IN

At 8:55 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I went to school with BJ, and I didnt know him well, but what I did know, is he was an awesome person. He was all about helping others, and I am truly sorry about this very tragic loss

At 9:04 PM, Blogger Lynn Andrews said...

Dear Precious Family,

I was so pleased to see words from you again today on this site. Thank you for thinking of us during this difficult time and for answering the questions we were all wondering about concerning BJ's situation. I am just amazed as more and more of the Lord's plan is revealed to us. Please know that sharing your journey with BJ these past weeks has touched my life in ways I will never be able to fully explain.

I do so hope that a webcast will be possible. I, like many others here, feel very connected to your family and only wish I could be there in person to celebrate BJ's life with you.

Thank you for sharing so courageously and faithfully with us.

Keeping you all close in thought and prayers!

In His Love,
Lynn Andrews
Macon, GA

At 9:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family:

Words can not express the heartache that we are feeling for you during this time. Thank you so much for sharing with all of us these past few weeks the roller coaster journey that you have been on. Your testimony of faith and love for our Lord Jesus has been evident throughout and has touched many lives.

BJ touched so many lives while he was living and I'm sure even more while he was lying in a hospital bed. I know you are so proud of the lives that were changed for Jesus as a result of BJ.

We will be praying for you in the days to come as you celebrate BJ's life and remember his birthday. We wish so badly that we could be there in person.

Joel & Christal Mearig

At 9:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family,

We prayed for you tonight in our community group and for Walker and BJ's services, that many would come forth with their "yes" to grab the baton that your precious BJ has handed off.

May the Lord of peace bring you rest in the night and strength in your days. You are so very loved by the body of Christ, oh how I hope you feel that!
Love in Christ,
Robyn George, Tulsa, OK

At 9:20 PM, Blogger ericdavid said...

i see jesus in you. thank you for your encouragement in my walk. knowing that someone elses problems make mine look like foolishness.

God bless
eric david

At 9:24 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins family,
As I read your comments I was struck by the enormity of your faith and trust in our mighty God.
It is easy to see where BJ learned to follow Christ and to be willing to serve Him in any way possible.
You and your son and entire family have been and are a tremendous witness for our Lord and Savior. I will not be able to attend the service for BJ but I will be remembering you and praising God with you. Thank you for your willingness to allow us to travel with you through this very long and intense journey and to be taught by you how to trust in God even when we don't understand all that is taking place. I pray that those who have witnessed all of the events surrrounding BJ will give themselves totally to God and will follow Him in complete obedience. I am praying that you will feel the loving arms of Jesus around you as you go through these next few days and that He will grant you peace. My heart aches for you all and yet I know that God is working His will in all of this. Thanks for sharing with us and may we all never forget the lessons BJ wanted to teach us.
In Christ's love,
Milton and Deanie Baumgardner
Monroe City, MO
our daughter Michelle was with BJ in Peru in 2004

At 9:27 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey, i don't know you or BJ but i saw this through a friend of mine.I just wanted to say that i'm so sorry. But i am so glad that he is with Jesus now. but that has to be hard to lose a son. so i wanted you guys to know that i'm praying for you.

Melissa Knop
Moore, Ok

At 9:30 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent, Deanna, Whitney and Lauren,

I cried as I read Brent's last entry. Thank you for letting us know about the details of BJ's death, although I still don't quite understand what he had and why. Your faith is absolutely amazing and such a testimony. No wonder BJ was such an amazing young man--he obviously had an amazing father. (and I'm sure mom and sisters too)

I understand well the sleeplessness of grief and being overwhelmed as you see BJ's room and things,etc. Know that you are being lifted up by many, many who have come to love you even though we don't know you. Deanna, I can only imagine the ache of your mother's heart. I have a 15 year old too.

I will continue to pray for you for at least the next year! You have been an inspiration to us all. I mailed a card to your church for you too.

How I wish I could hug you and cry with you! May you feel our Savior picking you up and carrying you through this dark time.

Thank you for sharing yourselves, BJ and your trial with us.

Linda Storm
Ontario, CA

At 9:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

This song incredibly illustrates the joy that comes when someone close to you goes to be with the Father

Memories surround me
But sadness has found me
I'd do anything for more time
Never before has someone meant more
And I can't get you out of my mind
There is so much that I don't understand
But I know

You're dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
You're dancing with the angels
Heaven fills your eyes
Now that you're dancing with the angels

You had love for your family
Love for all people
Love for the Father, and Son
Your heart will be heard
In your unspoken words
Through generations to come
There is so much that I don't understand
But I know


We're only here for such a short time
So I'm gonna stand up
Shout out
And sing Hallelujah
One day I'll see you again

At 9:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart is full, but my words so inadequate. I feel your pain and loss. My son was in surgery the morning after BJ went to be with Jesus. I thought of you all during the day but couldn't check on him until Monday evening. I'm so sorry. I feel as if I know all of you and that for a brief time I was part of your family. And of course, we are are family...as believers in Christ Jesus. I have shared your son's testimony with many. I just want to tell you that BJ's testimony will live on. I'll never forget your brave, young man who had such a heart for God at such a young age. I believe many have and will be called to the foot of the cross because BJ was bold enough to share the gospel without considering the cost.
Praise God.
Love from GA

At 9:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We have fallen in love with BJ and look forward to one day being with him for eternity! You are not forgotten. May all the prayers of those who care continue to help sustain you. We are privileged to be part of your lives.

At 9:39 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I shared my story of BJ tonight at Bible study...told them how BJ has influenced my walk with Christ more than any other event in my life (next to the day I handed my life over to Him). His story, the passages from his journal, the other blog messages, and the way you have leaned on the Lord throughout, have all ministered to me. My heart felt thanks goes to the Higgins family and to my fellow Christian Bloggers. Thank you to God for allowing us a look into the life of a wonderful Christian...BJ...who is now by His side...smiling
Greenfield, Indiana

At 9:40 PM, Blogger Deanna said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney -

I just want you to know that we are still lifting you up in prayer! Stay strong in the faith of our Lord, Jesus Christ. He will sustain you.
I would love to come and celebrate BJ's life with you, but it's just not possible right now. But, I will be wearing pink on Thursday and Friday in honor of BJ.

Thanks for sharing BJ with us, even if it were only a short time, even though it was through a very difficult time. It has been an incredible journey and a wake up call for me. I can't tell you enough, how precious this time has been.

May God bless your time together in celebration this week. Through your tears, I pray that you will remember to laugh. Through your pain, I pray that you are reminded that BJ is now forever painless. Through your grief, I pray that you will find joy.

Much love -

At 9:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

At 9:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

A Tribute to BJ

BJ, a brother, a son and a friend,
Who all of us can't wait to see you again!
His heart, His passion so evident to see...
Who now resides in eternity!
The gift he gave was more than he knew. It was because of God's love he went to Peru.
To tell and share and to the lead the lost. It didn't matter whatever the cost.
What an example this young man set for me...
Of portraying who Christ is and how others should see...

How often I've missed opportunites to share... or tell someone that I really care
Do not let them despise you because of your youth...
Because in your heart resides "The Truth"

Thank you for sharing your son with us and allowing us the Blessing of seeing a true servant's heart!

At 9:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Change is all he (BJ) asked of me and I would always blow him off and say I will, I will. But the thing is that I never did. He had so so much faith in me and that I would change for the best. So now it is my duty to change for not just BJ but for the God, our God, that is within him. I thank you for everything that you have said and done for me. All the times you guys accepted me no matter what.
I love you guys and pray for you.
May God be with us!
Thank You,

At 9:50 PM, Blogger Anna Vaughn said...

I will not be with you in person during your celabration time for BJ but know that you are in my daily prayers and I will be wearing my pink prayforbj.com tshirt! I love you all, my dear sisters and brothers! Praise be to God, for He is worthy!
Anna Vaughn<>< HLG, Hannibal, MO

At 9:54 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I remember so clearly the last time I was able to talk...well listen to BJ talk :) and it was all about his recent trip to Peru. He was so excited to tell all his amazing stories that were all about how God had used him to lead so many to Christ! His excitement was overwhelming. I have never seen a person be more real and excited about sharing Jesus. I will always remember that day sitting around the dining room table with BJ, Deanna,BJ (Big John), Big Johns MFO, and more. What a perfect way to remember BJ... Excited about the work God had done.

I am so greatful to have have known your wonderful son and brother.

Love, Misti

At 10:02 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna,

The WHOLE Littell Family will be joining you in PINK!
We love you all, and continue to lift each of you up to our Lord.
Your Friend!
Matt and Rebecca, Katelyn and Holly Littell

At 10:05 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

To The Higgins Family:
My heart goes out to you during this hard time. When asked why God would have waited so long to take BJ home, my only reply was that he still had work to do. From reading the comments above, I see that BJ worked hard during the last 45 days of his life. God now has brought him home with Him and is showing him a home of homes (Our Lord's glorious home). As a mother, my heart is saddened to think we can loose a child to death, but I know your faith and that of BJ's faith will show that he has not left you. His body is a vessel for the soul, and his soul has returned to our Lord. BJ will be in your hearts and the heart of many others that he touched throughout his lifetime, whether in person or through his final days on this earth (through your website.)

In my teachings throughout my life, I was told that we should grieve at a birth and rejoice at a death. Our human nature doesn't agree with this, but in with ths strong Faith as BJ and your family has you have shown me that this is true. Thank you. You showed joy in the life of BJ even when it was time to let him go to the Lord.

God keep you and your family in the palm of His hand. I will think of all of you daily and keep you in my prayers.
Mary Cae Thomas

At 10:08 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm 46 years old, and I don't know of any story that has touched me more than BJ's vibrant life and love for Jesus. Without ever meeting him, he has managed to challenge my heart and my faith. Only Christians know this bittersweet mixture of tears and joy, pain and peace. My arms are around you tonight, and I'm smiling through my tears.

At 10:13 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God Blessed us with BJ!!!!

At 10:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brothers and Sisters

At 10:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello, Its Tammy (Jaydens grandma) I read Bjs site everyday but i never know what to say for sure. I told my mom that BJ went up there to settle Jayden down. He has so much energy. I am so sorry for your loss i know how bad your hearts are hurting right now! I will see you on Thursday.
Love, Tammy

At 10:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Higgins family,
You are still constantly in my thoughts and prayers. We have been blessed to be able to minister to the Leaf family through this as well. I am so glad Tracy shared this site with us and we were able to "meet" more of our family in Christ!
I will continue to lift your family to the Lord through this difficult time.
Love in Christ,
Stacy in Kansas City

At 10:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I cant express to you how sad I feel for your family. Though I know B.j. is much better off than all of us right now, my heart sadens to see the sorrow that your family is going through. B.J was loved by many people as you can tell by the amount of people that posted, but there are even more that havent posted that feel just as bad for the leaving of our brother. It brings tears to my eyes just to read the sadness in your post, but it makes me even more happy to see that your family will grow so close together through this tragedy that Satan himself couldnt even begin to budge the bond that God has made through B.J's Death. I will continue to keep your family in my prayers, and keep on my mind what God has continued to do after we thought B.J's mission was over....our missions are never over as long as we have the breath in our lungs to share the truth and freedom that was once shared with us. Peace be with your family -Andy Allison-

At 10:27 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear higgins family,
Im so sorry to hear about Bj, I did not know him personally, but A friend of mine did, I have kept up with all updates, he sounds like an amazing son of god and I wish i would have known him, however through his online journals I learned alot, and I know he is in abetter person and is waiting for the day that he will have the joy of seeing you and all his friends again. Im praying for you. May God bless you, and be with you through this difficult time.

At 10:28 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins family~ For the past half hour i've been trying to come up with the right words to say to help ease your pain for the loss of BJ. I can not imagine how you are feeling or what strength you must have to share BJs life with all of us. I was an amazing person and he accomplished so much in his short lifetime. I will always remember how Deborah would walk home from school with BJ and then tell me all of the fun they had on the bus. He has left great mark on everyone he knew. It is amazing to see how far his story has gone and I hope it continues to touch other people. I only wish that I could come to the service. with all my love for the family~Stephanie Toof

At 10:34 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God Bless You Kara Palmer for sharing how you came to a relationship with Christ through BJ! What a witness to us all of a short life that accomplished more for the Kingdom of God than many do in 75 years!! Keep the faith!!

At 10:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney,
Thank you so much for opening yourselves up and sharing your final journey with BJ. I went to bed Sunday night praying for a miraculous recovery. And I was so heartbroken to read Monday's update. But I realize that BJ did get his miraculous recovery, it was just a different healing than I was hoping for. Getting to know BJ and all of you through this website has been an honor. I will be praying for you to continue feeling God's loving embrace. You are a remarkable family and you raised an extraordinary son. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to know you and BJ. I am so sorry for your pain but I smile knowing BJ is seated at the feet of Jesus.

In His love and mine,

Heather from Zionsville, IN

At 10:56 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family>>

your family is on my mind all the time. i am amazed by your strength. i am praying for your family and putting all the pieces back together. God is with you!!

with love

At 10:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, my dear Higgins!

Thank you, Brent for today's post. It was wonderful!

We have been praising God for sustaining BJs life beyond which we thought was possible, knowing the details we knew, (but didn't definitively know), so that God's work could continue to be victorious! What a wonderous legacy to cling to!

A couple of God things: In the day and a half before BJ's victorious journey to heaven, we were plagued with the haunting refrains of "I can only imagine". Reading the blogs from that day or so, it is amazing to me how many people mentioned having that song emblazoned on their minds! What a neat connection!

Also, during that time, my thoughts were constantly on you, as a family, returning home after spending so much time at St. V's Children's, and feeling concern for what your feelings would be at that time. I thank the Lord for impressing upon me (and probably countless others) to pray specifically for you in that regard. We will continue to do so.

I'm not sure if you know, but almost 2 years ago, I had a myocardial infarction and immediately went to St. V's. It was wierd because I had no family history or risk factors, but there were innumerous God-factors involved in that episode.

We count ourselves so blessed to be able to attend the upcoming services . . . some of us in pink, one of us in black (unfortunately we didn't know the significance of the pink shirt until we already ordered our shirts!), but all with heavy yet joyous hearts. We ache for you, we will miss BJ unbelievably, but are immeasurably blessed by the way he and you all have impacted those around you for the Lord's sake.

May I join those who have already voiced their hope that the blog-site may continue to be used of God for His Glory . . . not sure how, but that may come to you at some point. Whoever is deserving of the BJ missions scholarship will surely need our prayer support and encouragement!

As someone who always attempts to put everything "in perspective", I have learned (among other lessons) not to try so hard to do so, but to let God assign the meaning. It is for me to learn to let go and simply trust in what I have learned is God's nature. . . hard to do when my 14-year-old is rebelling during home schooling. . . but necessary while I want to keep the proper perspective of living in God's grace.

Thank you, again, for your unselfishness in keeping all of us "outsiders" informed. It really helps us to focus our intercessions, and reminds us to be constantly looking upward, and outward!

We remain,

Proud to be your brother and sisters in Christ!

At 10:58 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

While a student at Friends University in Wichita, Rich Mullins wrote a paper entitled "Social Aspects Of The Beattitudes". This is an excerpt from that paper.

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." Matthew 5:4

It is the living who mourn at a funeral - not the dead. We mourn because the lives of the dead had made our own more lively, and since we are (or had been) so knit together the loss of another's strand will eventually cause our own unravelling. Fellowship is the mingling of threads that make up a fabric and only in a fabric do we have some kind of meaningfulness.

Tho we are alive we live in the midst of death, and those of us who have been born of the Spirit into life have been born among the dead. How can we escape Sorrow unless we numb ourselves and kill the life we have been called to.

Mourning is a reflex to loss, and if we have regained what was lost - our own lives, our fellowship with God - we have no reason to mourn except for others - the dead around us. So, this reflex becomes a call, and when we set ourselves to the work of "seeking the lost" we find comfort.

Comfort comes in the fruit of our labor. Comfort comes in the fellowship with the "Man of sorrows". Comfort comes in the joy of birth, and birth will not come without travail.

The blessedness of Christian mourning comes because our mourning will bring to us, and to God, and to this world, meaningful productivity, while the mourning (if mourning is really possible without life) of the world brings them to despair. What is more blessed than to bring someone from despair into hope, or from death into life?
---- end of excerpt

BJ was devoted to bringing life to the lifeless around him. I remember reading on this site a quote from BJ's diary, where he realized that his life was insignificant when compared to spreading the life Christ gives. Don't grieve for the loss of BJ, but celebrate the life he helped spread.

In Him and Praying for you,

Keith and Melissa Cooley
Northside Main Campus

At 11:08 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

What an example your family has been for me. Your courage and unceasing praise amazes me. BJ's life is a challenge for us all as Christians. Thank you for sharing his life with us. I know this time is very difficult for your family. I am praying that God will sustain you, give you strength, and hold you close to Him. BJ's passion for missions reminded me of some other missionarie, Jim Elliot specifically, whose lives also ended tragically. I read two books about him, "Shadow of the Almighty" and "Through Gates of Splendor," in highschool and found his life so inspiring that I wrote my favorite quotes from the book in a journal. I thought I would share a few of them that I believe are fitting.
"Remember the last few verses of 1 Corinthians 3 'For all things are yours... and ye are Christ's; and Christ is God's.' Throughout all our personality we are God's, and since God has made our whole selves, there is great joy in realizing who is our Creator. This realization is to permeate every area and level of life. In appreciation of beauty, mountins, music, poetry, knowledge, people, science - even in the tang of an apple - God is there, to reflect the joy of His presence in the believer who will realize God's purposes in all things." Pete Fleming

"The will of God is always a bigger thing than we bargain for, but we must believe that whatever it involves, it is good, acceptable, and perfect."
-Jim Elliot

"Be assured, if you walk with Him and look to Him and expect help from Him, He will never fail you."
-George Mueller

"Life is not here, but hid above with Christ in God and therein, I rejoice and sing as I think on such exaltation."
-Jim Elliot

"'In His hands is the life of every living thing,' I recognized that all I am and have is the Almighty's. He could in one instant change the whole course of my live - with accident, tragedy, or any event unforseen. Job is a lesson in acceptance, not of blind resignation, but of believing acceptance, that what God does is well done. So, Father, with happy committal I give you my life again this morning - not for anything special, simply to let You know that I regard it as yours. Do with it as it pleases you, only give me great grace to do for the golry of Christ Jesus whatever comes to me, 'in sickness and in health'."
-Jim Elliot
May this be the prayer of all of us!!!
Remember that you are in our constant prayers and thougts. We love you
Laura Floyd
Indiana State University
Terre Haute, IN

At 11:13 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mr. Higgins,
You are the rock holding this effort together. I don't know how to express how full of sorrow my heart is. I have never had to go through the pain of losing a relative, but I have lost one I loved. Through out this whole process my main plea to our Father has been that you (and all those who care for BJ) wouldn't have to go through the pain that I did when I lost Jen (she was my roommate freshmen year @ college). But now that He has taken Beej, all I can ask is why...why BJ? Why does He make those who were close to BJ, and those who didn't even know him, suffer? Why did God not listen to my request?
Then He sais to my heart: Hush, Be Still. I AM GOD.
I still don't understand why He has taken BJ. Or why we are made to suffer as we are. But I do know this:
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven--A time to give birth and a time to die; A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted. A time to kill and a time to heal; A time to tear down and a time to build up. A time to weep and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn and a time to dance."
I'm not sure if this will even be read. But I just needed to say it. Hush, be still...He Is GOD!
In Christ Jesus, The Perfector of our Faith,
Your Sister,
Sarah Carruthers

At 11:15 PM, Blogger Audrey said...

Higgins family, I grieve for your loss. I pray for your comfort in this sorrowful, painful time. May God draw you all very, very near to his breast during this time, caressing your hearts and healing your hurts. Our God is a good God. Praise Him.
Audrey in Phoenix, AZ

At 11:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I wish i could be there, but on friday i will wear pink, just so i can be part of it some how. Continue to have faith, God's an awesome Lord, Hold tight to his name.
Yreka, Ca

At 11:20 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Though I cannot be there to introduce myself and meet the family of such a godly man, you all will most defintely be in my prayers those days, and I will most defintely be wearing my pink prayforbj shirt. I thank you for sharing your son and want you to know that, even though I didn't know him, he has greatly impacted my life.

Andrew Macejak,

At 11:23 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

BJ was my best friend. He was the kind of kid that you just wanted to be around. He would always find a way to put a smile on your face. He was a man full with the Spirit of Jesus in his heart and soul. He lived his life for the king. No matter how many tears we cry, not matter how much it hurts, we will always have the memories that BJ left with us. I know BJ is in a better place now and I praise God that he is no longer suffering. Praise be to the Lord All Mighty!

At 11:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello........How my heart hurts for you. I had only known about you and your son, BJ, a few days. I have been listening to a new CD I recieved from Life Outreach Int. Which came Monday in the mail. The words to so many of the pieces kept reminding me how BJ probably was. Most especially the last song which had the words There will always be one more heart, one more life, one more soul that needs the love of Christ.
This is Bj I feel. His life as we readers were allowed to see would not have been if this had not happened. I live about 2,000 miles away, but I sure would want to be at his Memorial home going, just because of all that this family has shared about BJ. His walk will speak to many even in the years to come. Do not stop sharing him with others.
I will tell people I know about him in days to come....with just the short time I knew about him there is much to tell.
Thank you for keeping us informed and included.
God bless,
Cyndi from Lakewood, CO

At 11:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

your faith is staggering...thank you for your example...

isaiah 40:25-26

At 11:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i love you guys soooo much you cant imagine.

ur son was amazing.
GOd is SOO amaZing.
ya'll are amaZing.

gosh i love ya'll. i wish i could say something better or more impressive. but love is what i have so love is what ill give.

later days,

At 11:50 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent and Deanna, Lauren and Whitney,

I'm back to being speechless--or wordless--a true rarity for a "word" person. BJ's life and ministry amazes me! Even more--the God that he served so passionately amazes me. Saving a sixth grader through a book report? Bringing countless others to God/back to God through postings on a web site that some found "by chance"? Changing BJ's dad's favorite color to PINK?!

We're experiencing some major sleeplessness around here, too, but we know that can't compare to your empty arms and damp carpet. A little over fifteen years ago (wow! He would've been BJ's age--didn't think of that until this moment!), our oldest son Samuel was born at just 22 weeks' gestation. He lived for an hour and 15 minutes (doctors had said he'd only live a few minutes if at all). I held him for just a little while, then needed emergency surgery. Samuel's Daddy held and rocked and sang to our tiny, perfect boy all alone (we lived 150 miles from the hospital) as his heart beat more and more slowly. Samuel Thomas gradually left this world to be with Jesus forever.

For the next few days and weeks, I could barely think, much less pray. Throughout the pregnancy, sudden delivery, surgery, memorial service, and beyond, we knew unquestioningly that a blanket of prayer surrounded us. Nonetheless, as we put away the maternity clothes and looked at our empty crib, we experienced profound sorrow. You know. I KNOW you know!

During this time, what comforted me most was a picture that God gave me--I guess you might say, "I could only imagine." He showed me my tiny son being rocked and held in Jesus' loving arms. I clung to that simple picture with my "faith as a mustard seed" until He allowed me to move forward. Today, when I remember my little boy, I still think of Jesus taking care of him--and yes, I thought of BJ meeting him as soon as I knew of his promotion into heaven!

I trust that our tender Father-God is giving you plenty of pictures of your precious, precious boy playing his guitar, leaping as in the drama (no more black mask!) and singing with Jesus. . .pictures that will help you know even more that you are "held."

I want to come on Friday.
Right now, that doesn't seem possible.

REGARDLESS, we are still

Praying in pink and sending oceans of tender love,

Pieper Family
Charleston, SC

At 12:04 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so saddened by your loss, well, of course now we all feel as if it's our loss too. Please allow us to share in your time of grieving, allow us to continue to stand in the gap for you. Although we're saddened at BJ's death, we're also comforted and so thrilled that he is with our Lord right now. How awesome would that be?!? As a mother, I cannot say I know what you're going through but I do know that through many trials, God has held me and often times carried me. He will do the same for you. I wish I could attend the service but please know that thousands are there in spirit. God bless you and keep you, Lee Ann Patrick Alabama

At 12:08 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dearest Family of BJ,
I pray for all of you to have a restful night. May your heart find peace and your body be tranquil.
God Bless all of you and strengthen you and lift you.

Sister in Christ
Lisa GreshMeils
Indianapolis, IN

At 12:13 AM, Blogger Linda Ronne said...

Dear Higgins family, Thank you so very much for taking the time to let us, the body of Christ know some of the details. Like so many others have said checking this site has become a part of my daily routine.
I remember in one of my first posts I said that I could see BJ as a walking testamony to the Lord's faithfulness and love. I firmly believe that this is still true, BJ is now walking the streets of gold with our precious Savior, and there in heaven he (BJ) is still touching and changing lives for the King and His Kingdom.
BJ challenged so many of us to stand back and look at our own personal walk with the Lord and for that we are all "eternally" grateful.
Someone mentioned a "Ripple" effect coming from the pray for BJ.com site. I believe that ripple will turn into a wave, through BJ, revival has already started in our hearts and our homes and through this site remaining and hopefully the publishing of BJ's journals and his walk with the Lord, he will continue to turn hearts to Christ.
Through BJ the body of Christ saw no boundries in denomination, but were drawn through their love of Christ and their deep concern for a brother who needed our prayers, we became united and one voice, just as our Lord desires.
Although I did not have the pleasure of meeting BJ be assured he will be sadly missed in this home, but always remembered.
Thank you for being so strong and hanging onto God through all of this, I'm sure it would be just as BJ would desire.
Please know that you and your family are continually in my prayers and your precious BJ holds a very special place in my heart. I will proudly wear my pink T-shirt on Thursday and Friday and my prayer would be that you and your family are not only surrounded with a cloud of witnesses in prayer but also that you are surrounded with those who love and care for you.
I would love to be with you on Friday, but I do pray that once the quilt is finished you would allow my husband and I to personally deliver it to you and your family.

Abba Father I lift this precious family up to Your throne room of grace and place them in Your mighty hands, Lord give them strength and endurance for the days, weeks, months and years ahead of them. Mend their broken hearts Lord as only You can. Fill their hearts with joy and their arms with loved ones. May they find rest in You Lord.

In the precious name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ...... Amen and Amen

In His Love
Linda Ronne
Shawnee. OK

At 12:13 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Right on Tadee! -See blog at 8:35 on 9/27/05.
I know Jesus is singing lots of songs of Joy and we join Him with our broken hearts.
Love and prayers,
Lela, Concord, CA

At 12:15 AM, Blogger Jackie said...

I've known about BJ for just one week, as many others have said on these posts. I'm posting only so you'll know of yet another devoted follower of Christ who is praying for your family right now. It aches my heart to think of your loss, and I've searched for the right words.. Some have left song lyrics, and I think a new song by Casting Crowns at least explains how some of us are feeling for your family right now..

"Love Them Like Jesus"

The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus

We will all continue to love you like Jesus. We will hold your tears in our hands, we will stay by your side through prayer... May God bless you forever.


At 12:19 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My dear, faithful, blessing of a family,

You are contantly in my prayers. My heart cries for all the pain that you are going through with, continually praising God and giving thanks to our Holy Father. You continue to bless me in ways I never thought possible.

O faithful god, my faithful God.
You life my up and you uphold my cause.
You give me life, You dry my eyes
You’re always near, You’re my faithful God.

On a different strain, would you mind if I used this site in a homework assignment? I'm making a web site about people who have changed my life, and you have certainly done that.
May God bless you and keep you through this trial.
In His love,
Kris W

At 12:39 AM, Blogger Emily Jo said...

I have checked this sight repeatedly and am so glad to hear from you again. You are a precious family in the sight of the Lord....I am so blessed to have shared this time with your family, and to have been able to "meet" BJ.You all will be in my heart always. I would love to be able to see BJ's services via webcast if it becomes possible.
I will be steadfast in my prayers for you.........may the ache subside in time and may God's peace and joy fill your hearts once again. What a remerkable family you are.....you have blessed me more than you could ever know.

"When we all get to Heaven, what a day of rejoicing it will be! When we all see Jesus, we'll sing and shout with victory!"

BJ has begun for us already...most precious son of yours.

With all of my love,
Emily Jo
Monrovia, CA

At 12:42 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

can t-shirts still be ordered???
wanna wear it proudly and continue the work of beej.

At 12:53 AM, Blogger laura said...

I too check the blog every day and sometimes 5-10 times a day. We have all been through alot like BJ was our own. We thank you and pray for comfort in this time of need. May God continue to bless your faimly and keep your faith alive. This is going to be very hard for the four of you for awhile, probably forever. Know that we are all here and would like to keep in touch. I would definately like to know about the webcam and the site. Please keep me in mind for the webcam.


At 1:49 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can't even begin to tell you how you and your family have impacted my life. I am still amazed at the grace and peace the Lord has blessed you with. It just goes to show how God can sustain us through anything...I have been so blessed by your words and how they have ministered to my heart...It has brought me to a new level of trust in God. I hope that you will continue to use this sight in Beej's name to continue his work for the Lord.
Blessings to you and your family during this most difficult time. I will be honored to be at the service on Friday.
Praise be to God,
Susie Alexander
Muncie, IN

At 2:06 AM, Blogger Christina said...

It does my heart good to hear that God was in control all along. Sure, I knew it, but as a weak Christian, I sometimes need to see it. And I have seen it. God will continue to use BJ in my life and I know, others'. Praise Him for His perfect plan and wisdom. I can't wait to meet BJ someday!

I will wear pink on Friday--in BJ's honor. I will be praying for you as you meet to grieve and celebrate.

I have come to truly love you all and thank you for your willingness to allow us the privlege of going on this journey with you.

Forever in His love,


At 5:16 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss, but thank you for your son BJ and your witness in this time of sorrow for your family. Praying for you in Georgia.

At 6:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Let God be with you. Stay stong. And you WILL see hime one day

At 7:15 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for sharing your special gift with all of us. I am sure there are many people across the world as you can see from the responses that have been touched by BJ. I for one have talked to him online quite a few times and I never thought that I would be blessed by one so young but I was blessed beyond measure. My daughter Beckie has grown so close to him in the past few years and I have seen remarkable changes in her since she and BJ started talking online. God gave you BJ to take care of and I must admit you have done a wonderful job encouraging him and bringing him into a life with Christ. I know I will miss him and many others will also. BJ's work is not finished, he touched lives that will continue to remember him and carry his name on for eternity, I believe that with all my heart. I also know he is with God now and we will all see him again some day and you will be reunited with your son.

I have enjoyed this site and would encourage you to keep in going in his memory. The support you have had during this time has been amazing and we are all here for you whenever you need a shoulder to cry on, someone to talk to and definitely lots of us to pray for your family. I know this time will be hard for you but God is there to comfort you and sent many of us to help Him comfort you as well.

We love you all so very much. Thank you for all you have done to impact our lives as well as allowing us the opportunity to get to know your precious son. With all our love.

Kim Hutchison and family

At 7:20 AM, Blogger Walker Moore said...

T-shirt can still be bought. His legacy will continue.

At 7:21 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent and family,
Your words are such a great encouragement. You are in my thoughts and prayers throughout the day and when I awaken at night.I praise God for his faithfulness-how he has sustained, encouraged, and used you. May the Lord continue his extra provision of peace, comfort, and hope, with no regrets. We will be out of town Friday for a family wedding. Our prayerful hearts will be at Northside praising the Lord with you.
Love you all,
Carla S.

At 7:27 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

GOD IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love what he is doing through your family and that I have been able to be a part of it. I will continue to do what I can to help GOD further his kindom. I am so ready for Christ's return and anything I can do to help it along, I am willing!

At 7:32 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so overwhelmed with inspiration and God's grace, all I can say is I love you guys and BJ is so awesome. Look how God has used him! :)

I'll be decked out in pink ~*

At 7:35 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing BJ's journey. It has deeply touched my heart and I wish I could have known your amazing brother and son. Your family will contiune to be in my heart and prayers.
In Him,

At 7:40 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dearest Friends in Christ,

Isn't it funny that I consider you friends even though we have never met. It is amazing how sharing the love of Christ with others work.

I want to thank you, Brent, for sharing your news of what happened to BJ with all of us, for your honesty in sharing how difficult your days and nights are right now and for sharing this journey with all of us. Most often people aren't willing to share the true suffering that goes on inside, even though we all know it must be there. I believe that only in being truthful with others, can we be truthful to ourselves and allow healing to slowly take place.

Know that you all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, not only through these next difficult days but in the many weeks ahead.

God bless you all with love, comfort and peace. I love hugs and I wish I could be there to give you one. I dreamt last night that I was at the service and gave Deanna such a huge hug and we acted as if we knew each other. It was very comforting and I hope you find that comfort from others in these next few days. The lives BJ has touched are many and are forever. His love for Christ will live on even though his physical body is no longer here.

God bless you.

At 8:21 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will definetly be there at the calling and i am praying for your entire family, I know it is hard to lose someone so close and dear but i know that i will see him again someday and that he is happier now in heaven than on his healthiest day here on earth.
God Bless,

At 8:30 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was sad to read your notice of BJ's death. I felt a connection as a fellow Christian. I pray for your family as you adjust and I thank you for your openness in detailing this experience. I gained

Billye, Okla.

At 8:33 AM, Blogger Jessica & Todd Youmans said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren & Whitney -

We love you all so much - While we can't understand the raw emotion you are feeling right now, we can imagine & we can pray. What a blessing it is to know that you will get to see BJ again someday. We will see you Thursday and Friday. We can't wait to wrap our arms around you.

In His Love
Jessica, Todd & Andrew

At 8:35 AM, Blogger phil4yahshua said...

Dearest Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney,

As I sit here and try to think what can I add to all the tributes that have been written I am speechless. Through my many illnesses I have been reminded over and over again about how fragile and short this life really is. Most of us go through life saying tomorrow I will serve the Lord, or when my kids are grown and on their own then I will go into full time ministry. Those who know me know my passion is I sense the urgency of the hour in which we live. After sharing these past 45 days with you I don't believe anyone can just return to their lives as before BJ's illness without being forever changed. The greatest tribute any of us can bring to BJ is to bring the same freshness, the same excitement and wonder and the same urgency he had to share the gospel to those who are lost. We can't play church any longer. Worship is so much more than simply going to a building singing a few praise hymns, stand and sit numerous times listen to a message then rush home to watch a football game (Sorry guys).

We need to get serious about our faith. I am sure BJ thought he had years to share his passion with the world but that was cut short. Even though he continues to be example and inspiration to us from the other side. If I may be so bold I would like to share a scripture that perhaps BJ would share with us and it is this.....

"Greater things shall you do than I do because I go to be with the Father" What BJ would have done as one member of the body of Christ has now been multiplied 100 or 1000 fold for those of us who have shared this journey this last 45 days. What say you who have been sharing this journey with the Higgins? Are we all ready to get serious and carry on with "The Great Commission"? Let's make BJ proud of us. By the Grace of God "for me to live is Christ and to die is gain" This is my humble tribute and my heart Higgins family.

BJ is my spark...he has rekindled my fire.........

It only takes a spark to get a fire going,
And soon all those around can warm up in its glowing;
That's how it is with God's Love,
Once you've experienced it,
Your spread the love to everyone
You want to pass it on.

What a wonderous time is spring,
When all the trees are budding
The birds begin to sing, the flowers start their blooming;
That's how it is with God's love,
Once you've experienced it.
You want to sing, it's fresh like spring,
You want to pass it on.

I wish for you my friend
This happiness that I've found;
You can depend on God
It matters not where you're bound,
I'll shout it from the mountain top - PRAISE GOD!
I want the world to know
The Lord of love has come to me
I want to pass it on.

I'll shout it from the mountain top - PRAISE GOD!
I want the world to know
The Lord of love has come to me
I want to pass it on.

Like our fear brother BJ......let's pass it on !! Make it so Lord Jesus........

Deanna, Brent, Lauren and Whitney...I love you guys !!!!

Phil Ackerman

At 8:52 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Know that my prayers will be for YOUR healing, now. I can't thank you enough for sharing this journey with us!
I'll be there in pink on Friday.

At 8:57 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know that these times are rough. I pray that you are comforted through these trials. It's amazing to think that BJ is now, as I speak, walking with Jesus! I will continue praying for your family, for strength and support. God is in control.....
Because of Him,

At 8:57 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will be joining you in PINK-God bless all those who have prayed for Beej and the rest of the Higgins family!

Ellie Fillio

At 8:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We, too, are looking forward to being reunited with a son who went to glory almost 11 years ago. We can testify and verify that God's grace is sufficient. Our prayers continue for each of your family.

Darla in Jefferson City, MO

At 9:34 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We continue to pray for you.
I'll be at the service to support in concrete way as well as in prayer. Many are lifting you up.

Love in Christ,
Kayla(Peru 2005)

At 9:57 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for the update. Will they continue to try to indentify the intitial infection? I will not forget to pray for you in the days and weeks and months ahead. I read back to an earlier message about BJ wanting you to get the word out and unite believers. This is what Jesus was talking about! Thank you!


At 9:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent and family,

It has been many, many years since we have seen each other and through various connections I was just made aware of the struggle you have been through with your son BJ and now the news this week of his passing.

As a father, my heart aches with you this week as any parent would understand the pain and sorrow you are experiencing. I am also so grateful and personally encouraged by your personal testimony of faith and the strength your family has found in the Lord as you have crossed through this valley.

I am with you in spirit and in prayer these coming days.

Dave Keith
Manassas, Virginia

At 10:01 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have sat here reading all the blogs, and it is very clear, like Christ, Bj still lives. He lives in our memories and our hearts. When we read Gods living word, we see Christ and Bj .BJ loved his Lord as all of us should. Jesus told us to go out and be His disciples and spread the GOOD NEWS.!BJ did just that and so shall I. Bj did so unafraid and boldly.
Thank you Higgins family for your boldness of sharing BJ with us and your Loving LORD.
My prayer are always there for you, and I care alot for your family.

At 10:11 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying you keep holding on to one another and the Lord will carry all of you during this very hard time. You all continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. We have missed your family so much, it will be nice to see you again. BJ continues to be in the forefront of our thinking and has us reexamining what we are doing for Christ. Thank you for sharing his thoughts with everyone. We love you all and are praying for your strength and peace.

Love, Nancy

At 10:21 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgin's family
Prayers for your comfort and peace. BJ served Jesus in a mighty way and left a beautiful legacy in a very few years. That legacy is a challenge and inspiration to those of us still here. Most of us are not called to Peru or Uganda but we all have a co-worker, a neighbor, a friend or the person in the McDonalds drive thru we can share the love of Christ with every day. How many bloggers being hosted right here need a fresh word from the Living God? When I find myself wanting be "tolerant" or bashful about the Gospel, I will think of BJ and your family and ask Him for courage to proclaim the Good News. I am certain those who have been touched by BJ and the transparency of your journey will be forever changed. Eternity will be forever changed and BJ's legacy extended even further. "Thank you" is inadequate for the way you have shared your lives with us these many weeks. I will be wearing by t-shirt Friday in memory and tribute to you and BJ, and to the glory of Jesus our Savior. Many continued blessings,
Mark Johnson
Hudson, OH

At 10:22 AM, Blogger toddyoumans said...

While times are hard right now, trust in the fact that love of Christ will endure. It's amazing to hear of how His love allowed BJ to be sustained despite all of the complications.

Know that you are loved as we continue to lift all of you up in our prayers daily. We will most definitely be there to be a part of celebrating BJ's life Thursday and Friday.

Todd, Jes & Andrew Y.

At 10:35 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

He is good and His love endures forever...May the Lord bless you and keep you...and make His face shine upon you and give you peace forever! Our prayers and hearts are with you in this hard time. BJ is in the presence of Christ. May God bless you for your continued faithfulness to serving Him! The Lord is with you.
Praying, (in Liberty, MO)

At 10:45 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

You and your family will always be in my prayers. Even though we will probably never meet, I feel like I have known you for years. I want you to know that your son, BJ, has made an inpact in this 18 year old's life. May the grace of our LORD and Saviour, Jesus Christ, be with you forever.

In Christ,
Kailey Collins

At 11:14 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

This is just the beginning! Thank you for your continued faithfulness and humbleness-God is going to honor that and use you (and us)as long as we will let him. I have been amazed at how far-reaching BJ's situation has been. People that I work with and haven't shared much about my spirituality with have brought up the subject of BJ that they had heard either through their children or someone else who knew about this situation. Several of my friends that I have told have also responded that they are amazed about how many people were touched by BJ and what was happening with him. God is soooo Awesome!

At 11:24 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God is amazing. I spent the day on Sunday thinking about BJ - a boy I'd never known. I prayed for your family several times that day. I even mentioned it at our Bible Study on Monday night. Now I know why you were on my heart. Please know that the prayers continue - this time not for BJ for he's far better off than us - but for you who are left behind. God Bless!

Kristen - Greenwood, IN

At 11:31 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dearest Higgins family.

You continue to stay on my mind and prays every hour. Your Stregth baffles me.

Though I relise at this time now. That our wonderful Chirst has givin you stregth that men of high power envy for.

I shall be checking in daily still. A webcast would be wonderful. As I cannot make it.

Love in christ.

At 11:43 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear BJ's Family;
I cried with sorrow and with JOY. I know BJ will be missed, but I am joyful that he is at Home. I never got to meet him, but I will when I also go Home. Your family has been an inspiration and BJ will live on in all of our hearts. He is still serving the Lord. Blessed be the Lord. May you have peace.
The Clevenger Family
New Caney, TX

At 11:56 AM, Blogger Cheryl Fletcher from Deer Park said...

So many times things happen that we don't understand. I know that God has used BJ in a mighty way. I'm sure there are many lives that have been touched by him and you don't even know it. We will continue to pray for your family for strength and rest during this difficult time. God will carry you through this and He will be glorified. God Bless you all!! In Christ,

At 11:57 AM, Blogger Cheryl Fletcher from Deer Park said...

So many times things happen that we don't understand. I know that God has used BJ in a mighty way. I'm sure there are many lives that have been touched by him and you don't even know it. We will continue to pray for your family for strength and rest during this difficult time. God will carry you through this and He will be glorified. God Bless you all!! In Christ,

At 12:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Reading about BJ has touched me deeply, Everything happens for a reason and now BJ is with Christ...My prayers are with your family as you overcome this. Just remember that your son is in a better place, he is very blessed :)

At 12:28 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


At 12:29 PM, Blogger Beth said...

Dear Brent,
I have never used Blog so I don't know if my message will get to you or not. But rather than reiteriate my message - just know that you and your family are in my prayers.
with warm Christian love,

At 12:33 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

As i am in tears at the same time i smile because i know that Bj is able to spend time with our Father. He is watching overall of us now and that comforts me. i will continue to pray for you, the Higgins family.
In his name,
Tim Hunter

At 12:45 PM, Blogger Unknown said...

But we would not have you ignorant, brethren, concerning them that fall asleep; that ye sorrow not, even as the rest, who have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also that are fallen asleep in Jesus will God bring with him. For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we that are alive, that are left unto the coming of the Lord, shall in no wise precede them that are fallen asleep. For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven, with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first; then we that are alive, that are left, shall together with them be caught up in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord. Wherefore comfort one another with these words. -I Thessalonians 4:13-18

At 12:51 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm very sorry to hear about BJ's death. I just lost a friend from my high school. I know that was tough, I can't imagine what you are going through. My prayers are with you.

At 12:52 PM, Blogger Beth said...

Higgins Family,

I am amazed and inspired by your continued praise of our Lord throughout this time. Your family has been in my prayers throughout each day. Your last blog thanked us for standing in the gap. I think as believers that is our job to do for each other everyday. When I was graduating High School my friends dad (who is a preacher) did our baccalaureate address. He challenged us to be a SIG. Being a SIG is being one who will Stand In the Gap. It has been and will be my honor to be a SIG for your family.

I would encourage others that read this to "Be a SIG"!!! It matters to those that you stand in the gap for, especially when they don't know you are.

Fullerton, Ca.

At 12:53 PM, Blogger Sheila said...

Thank you so much for continuing to minister to us with your updates. God is good and His timing is perfect. God knew the day and the hour to bring BJ home. Your praise of our Father is very uplifting and I know God will honor your efforts. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. If there is ever anything we can do for you, please don't hesitate to ask. You are right we are here to serve.
Praying in Troy, Illinois

At 12:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers go to your family. Though BJ's life was short, his work for the kingdom was not. God has called him home, he has done his work on this earth. My prayers are now for those of us who are left behind. I know that God is going to continue to do a great work in the lives of those who came in contact with BJ. I did not know BJ personally, but I have been forever changed by his love for God.

God bless you and your family

At 12:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

PSalm54 Verses 6-7 says I will freely sacrifice unto thee: I will praise thy name, O lord: for it is good. For he hath delivered me out of all trouble: and mine eye hath seen his desire upon mine enemies.

" There' s nothing your family can't handle we are all made in the image of GOD or Creator and you all will make it through this, get your strentgh from our Lord and Savior it's free. I love you and Our Creator does too.

At 1:05 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Still praying for you in Arlington, Texas. Carol

At 1:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

For BJ

God's Garden Must Be Beautiful

God looked around the garden, and found an empty space. He looked down upon the earth, and saw your tired face. He put His arms around you and lifted you to rest. God's garden must be beautiful for He only takes the best.

He knew that you were weary, and He knew that you were in pain. He knew that you would never, be well on earth again.
He saw the road were getting rough, and the hills were hard to climb. So he closed your weary eyelids, and whispered peace be thine.

May God Bless BJ and his Family.
I pray that your family will find comfort, through this difficult time.

Indianapolis, Indiana

At 1:51 PM, Blogger LisaTeegarden said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren, Whitney, I was so interested in learning BJ's
story. I work with Lisa as a volunteer in Mail Services. Your mother was our son David's teacher, who is a brother in law to David Keith. We have been praying at our church for you and your family as well as at home. We'll continue to remember you all in our prayers and will keep checking your web page. Lois & Ron

At 1:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney;
Our hearts hurt for you. You all are being so strong and faithful. God is the God of comfort and peace and He will heal you in time. We love you and continue to pray for you and we are here for you.
Steve & Jeannine

At 2:10 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My name is also BJ and my family also calls me Beej (however, i am a girl.) I have heard of your family through a friend of mine here in Houston. I am amazed at what strength you all have. It is one thing to read "God gives and God takes away but may the name of the Lord be praised" but it is quite another to be tested in it. I have been going through much in life recently and have somewhat gone astray from Christ in the past three years by my own choices and circumstances. I was broken to tears today about your son and had to leave work. My heart goes completely out to you guys. I pray now that God would pour out his blessings into your lives for the hope your testimony has given me to continue loving our Lord, Jesus Christ. God's grace has been sufficient for you and His power has been made perfect in your weaknesses. You have boasted gladly about your weaknesses so that Christ's power would be known. For Christ's sake you delighted in your hardships and difficulties. You were weak but now you have been made strong... I know your son was faithful to our Lord even unto death and I encourage you that he has recieved a crown of life.

At 2:30 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can't express my thoughts with sufficient clarity, but will say that everyone has expressed in such an eloquent and sincere fashion what I too would want to say.

God is with all of you. You will continue to be in my prayers.

Psalm 150:6 Let everyone who has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord.

Amen and Amen

Ed, Carmel

At 3:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

BJ is happy with his LORD today. That thought will comfort you as you miss him and greve. My prayers are now for you.

May Jesus continue to show you His love,

At 3:10 PM, Blogger joenjeanne said...

Dear Higgins Family,

I've continued to check BJ's site all week but was truly in shock and I couldn't find the words to respond. I still struggle to find the right words.

I will always lift your family up in prayer during this most difficult time in your life. I lost my father 17 years ago when I was young and I remember feeling quite numb throughout the week that followed. It will get a little easier with time.

I had hoped to find a way to make it either Thursday or Friday but it just wasn't possible. I have been blessed, however, to be able to take care of Miss Shelby (and her siblings) in order for her parents to be able to attend. I thank you so much for your incredible witness and testimony.

Fort Wayne, IN

At 9:30 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

To the Higgins Family,

You have written "the world" encouraging us to keep the letters coming--that it helps all of you cope, find peace, in the midst of all the sadness...

I just wanted to share with you the impact BJ has had on my family. I have checked the website daily, sometimes a few times a day, to read the updates. My children had yet to see all of the responses from all over the country, until we all logged on together Monday after school. They were truly amazed by the outpouring of people praying for BJ, how many lives he touched by helping them to know Jesus.

We received the 2 t-shirts that I had ordered in Monday's mail (1 for myself & 1 for my 8 yr old daughter Lauren). I wanted her to save it until Friday to wear it, but she couldn't wait--she wore it to school on Tues. Everyone loved it!! So many people read the verse on the back...BJ reaching a few more.

BJ even reached my 5 yr old son Davis. After we got off the computer Monday afternoon, he said to me, "Mom, I want to write 'Pray for BJ' in my Bible." He ran to get his Bible & I helped him spell out the words, then I helped him with the date (9-26-05). I'm confident that BJ is smiling down on us from Heaven, as his "unfinished work" is still getting done. Who knows, maybe my 5yr old little boy will become a missionary just like BJ. In God's perfect timing...

May He comfort you all as you CELEBRATE the gracious life of your son, brother, and friend to all of us, as he unites the world during the next couple of days,

Julie Judd
Zionsville, IN

At 12:24 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart felt an ache when I found out BJ was gone. I think I need to share with you that I just started a mission for God. I have been searching for the right scripture or prayer to speak at the beginng of each day...with your permission I would love to use BJ's. The Cloud of Witness in Jenks,OK will continue to hold you and your family in prayer...Nikki

At 12:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God Bless and I hope you all are doing ok

At 2:32 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I finished reading I would die for you, and can't seem to get BJ's faithful testimony, and love for God's will out of my head. BJ will always be in my heart always, and when I see him in heaven, I will run up and hug him and say, "You showed me how to love, to really love. Not the emotion, but the verb. I never thought of love in that perspective. Patient, Kind, not envying, not boasting (1 Cor. 13:4-7). You also showed me that God is love, and that there is no greater love than to lay down his life for his friends (John 15:13). BJ not only laid down his life for God, but for all of the future generations that will hear of this compelling story!

Psalm 9:9
The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed,
a stronghold in times of trouble.

Joshua 1:9 (Our school verse)
9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Matthew 19:14
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."

Matthew 28:19
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, (BJ really did this. He went wherever he could go. He even preached around his hometown. He is such a testimony)

You know what cheers me up. I can picture BJ in heaven, still giving God the "short version" on his trip to Peru, and God smiling with such love and compassion, it just would melt away your heart.

Anyway, I love you all and BJ and I only wish you the best of happiness from here on out. And remember, whatever happens, and it seems totally crazy, GOD IS IN CONTROL! Let him drive, while you sit back and enjoy the beautiful display that God is weaving into your reality!

At 7:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God knows when it's time to go to paradise. It'd be funny if God thought: Hey, you had your chance to influence others, now it's time for them to influence even more xD but seriously, BJ left a huge impact on the ENTIRE world, whether you know it or not. Remember, it's never over, even at the world's end, never stop praying, even when you ARE with Him, never stop praying, especially for those who lost their way. I know how it feels to have someone so close, just go away. Wait a minute, go away??? That just doesn't make any sense, ok i know you guys are already over it, or not, it's your choice, but Death is nothing but an illusion, a milestone in the road to eternal life and happiness, and when you reach that milestone, and you believe that God, as well as Christ, will always be there for you, well, then they will be :D

Life here on this Earth is nothing but a PREVIEW of life to come, and if you read Revelations, you know what I mean. The TRUE EARTH hasn't arrived yet, it's as if God's still creating that wonderful, perfect world for you, and he has already. The only thing he is waiting for, is the right time to show it to you, and that will only come when all life in the universe has loved Him, the way He loves us.
(Kinda like a movie in the cinema xD) I bid you a good life and soul, forever.



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