Thursday, April 27, 2006

I have a vivid memory of Beej when he was a little younger. I have shared his propensity and joy in surprising me, and intentionally initiating "conflict." One of the things he enjoyed were Nerf toys. I remember him finding fulfillment in the simplest ways.

One day I was deeply involved in a book. It had been quiet for quite some time. The dog lay at my feet (as he often did), and I was completely wrapped up in the moment. Then it happened. The most unusual sound erupted and seemed to last forever. Before I could figure out what was happening, I was being pelted repeatedly... all over my body, and the dog who had been most rudely awakened out of a dead sleep, took off with a yelp.

When I finally collected my faculties, the moment was over, and Beej had disappeared around the corner. All I could hear was intense laughter from the other end of the house. All around me on the floor were Nerf darts. I had been obliterated by a rapid-fire Nerf gun. From that moment on, the dog tucked his tail between his legs and ran for dark corners, anytime he saw BJ with this weapon.

Of course I pursued him, and "gently" took his weapon, reloaded, and unleashed a fury back at him. Throughout, he was doubled over with insane laughter.

Soon, we had two similar weapons, and would hunt each other down. The poor dog. He could not keep up, and was so frightened.

Finding pleasure in these simplest of moments was clearly something I took for granted. I wish I had initiated more such times.

Too often, we are inundated in a rapid-fire manner by what the world would introduce as "pleasure_filled" gimmicks. Soon we find we are embracing them without a thought. We forget to test these things against scripture, to see if they stand. Before we know it, we are traveling a road which is wide, and filled with others who look just like us.

"Come out and be separate! Find your joy in the simple things of God." This is the resounding lesson which echoes through my mind. I find that while I am alone, separated from my family, I must repeatedly reflect on His grace and provision, or be submerged with things that seem right, but drag me down.

If we truly approach our God as a child, the simple things will be enough. Joy will come in those moments we too often take for granted.

Be Blessed!



At 11:02 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent,

I am very excited about the Higgins family's new adventure! God is always on the move. I've had a chance to hear "Die For You" and you're right, I was not disappointed. It is a beautiful song with such a powerful message. BJ's inspiration comes through. You are all in our prayers here in Gray, Ga. as you transition into you this new phase. What a mighty God we serve!

Love and prayers in Gray, Ga.

Lynne Hutto Albanese

At 11:24 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your precious memories of BJ. This story had me giggling and I could "see" it in my heart. Your family is amazing and I love all of you!

At 12:51 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God is constantly encouraging me through you.
Thank you.


At 12:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family,

I have been reading your site since getting the prayer request from the Mercy Me mailing list. I have read every post, prayed every prayer, laughed every laugh, and cried every tear along with your family. Your journey has impacted my life in a way I could never explain. I have 3 boys, my oldest will be 16 Monday, a 12 year old and an 8 year old. I look at them different now, I hug them more, I love them more than I thought I could. I savor every moment, I let things slide around the house and instead seek them out and spend time with them. I am sad to drop them off at school and I can't wait until they get home. (okay, 95% of the time! :-)

Deanna, I now cannot walk by the frozen pizza section without remembering you and BJ. Brent, my boys have shot me with the kitchen sink sprayer many a time! We are a family of practical jokers as well! Both your heartfelt posts and the funny stories have touched my heart in a huge way. I feel as if I have known your family forever.

My husband tells the boys all the time how much he loves them and what good boys they are. Just last night our local Sheriff came to the door, he is campaigning for the May primary. My husband and I asked him what words of advise he had for a soon to be 16 year old boy. He looked at our son and said, "Listen to these 2 people right here, they love you more than anything in the world and they only want what is best for you." That is more true now than ever after we have witnessed this journey with your family. We savor every moment together. In a world where it seems parents are paying less attention to their children, it was so refreshing to have a Godly man affirm that to our son and to our family. He has our vote!

I recently have felt a call on my life to take BJ's place. Not in a far away land, but the land right around me. There is a group of work release inmates that are caring for the grounds at our local community park. They have made some bad choices, paid the consequence, and they are putting their lives back together, and they need encouragement. I am helping some people provide them with a nice meal on the days they come and mow and trim at the park. They need a smile, they need a friendly face, they need to know that God is there for them! BJ can't tell them, but I can! The same Sheriff that was at our door last night has started many programs to help victims of crime and criminals trying to start anew. I didn't know that until he came to our door. I know Who sent him to our home! And I know why now, because my heart is ready. Ready because of BJ. I'm a little scared! But I feel the Lord calling me to this area and I will gladly go. Your family is my inspiration! So while I am not going far away, I will go, and I will remember BJ. I can go to Kroger, Wal Mart or the beauty parlor and take BJ's place and share the good news about our Loving Savior.

Thank you so much for being so transparent on this blog, and for continuing to minister to all of us. Your posts are like daily devotionals for me. If there is not a post that day, I ask God to send me back to one that I need to hear again. Thank you so much for your inspiration!

In His Love,

Sandra in Kentucky

At 2:48 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well said!

At 3:11 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

This site and the people who come here often, as well as the many missionaries who took BJ's place make it very obvious why God took the child he loved so much into his arms as early as he did.......he had an amazing impact on people while he was here....but now that he is gone he seems to have an even bigger impact....

At 3:39 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Amen and Amen!

At 3:46 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

another AMEN! We love you guys!

At 3:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sandra in Kentucky - Thank you for writing today. You have blessed my heart.

Higgins family thank you for posting everyday.


At 3:48 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey dad--

sorry its been a few days! i know i keep making this excuse..but it continues to be true..senior year is CRAZY busy! the mercyme album is on its way to my house! i haven't listened to the entire song.. but i've heard bits and pieces of "Die for You"..pretty sure i'm gonna bawl my eyes out!

anyway...i love you guys. i'm continuing to pray for this transition! i'm planning to be in Tulsa sometime this i should be able to see you guys!

Praying always

At 6:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

PLEASE pray for the families of the 4 Taylor University (Upland, IN) students, and 1 staff memeber that were killed in an accident last night. 3 other staff members are hospitalized but stable. 1 other student is in critical condition. The driver of the semi that hit them is also stable. My daughter had just driven through there on her way home from IWU, it could have been her. (IWU and Taylor are close to each other geographically, and a lot of the students know each other) There was another van from Taylor, behind the one that was hit, but they had stopped to get gas, so weren't in the accident. The college is mourning this great loss! Also pray for the families of the 5 IU grad students (from the IU school of music) that were killed in the plane crash just one week ago.
Thank you for praying!!

At 6:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Rev. Higgins,
Thank you for all the time you spend on this post. It is amazing! And thank you for the wonderful words you wrote in the jacket of the new Mercy Me CD. "Die for You" is one of their best releases yet! I know we will be hearing that song in churches a lot! How amazing that God continues to be glorified.
May God bless you richly as you are away from your girls right now, as you learn your new responsibilities and get used to your schedule. We will look forward to hearing from you anytime you have the time.
Blessings from the East!

At 6:30 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins Family,
My name is Hailey HAmilton. I am 12 years old.I very sorry about your son.My youth minister Rex Roberts let our youth group listen to the song "die for you". It really made me think... "what if I had to know at that second if I had to die for Him? Would I do it? I know I should? Is it normal to thinmk this way"? I finally made a dicision to do exactly what God calls me to do. I just found out about this web-site and I think it is inspiring! Your son's story is inspiring for not just christians but all people.My brother just got back from Nuevo Loredo, Mexico on a mission trip with awestar. He told me the story you shared with all the kids there. It was very interesting(and sad)!!! I told myself to do more things that christians do like... mission trips, telling other people about God, and spredding the Word around my town! I try very hard to do what God wants me to do.Hereing B.J's story makes me want to try ALOT harder... b-cause you never know when GOd says its your time to be with him. What encouraged me is that he was NOT afraid of dying!! Well thank you for stories that will be passed on (hopefully) for LIFE!!!!!

At 11:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent:
I did not have the opportunity until now to read a weeks worth of blogs and as usual, they are encouraging and uplifting. I pray that you will continue to use this gift that God has given you through the loss of BJ to pour out your heart and share with so many of us because it truly is a blessing. Some of our church members who have been visiting the site since BJ's illness share how they feel they know the Higgins family on a personal level because of your daily postings. Thank you.

Also, we picked up our Mercy Me CD on Tuesday and Ryan has the song memorized. For his 8th grade graduation (6/2) each student will share a talent and he has chosen to sing this song in memory of BJ. We will videotape it and send it to you along with Arin's report that she did about BJ. As a gift to each of the 28 students, we are purchasing Mercy Me CD's for Ryan to give to his classmates.

Our family continues to pray for all of you and we are excited about this new chapter in your life in Tulsa. God has great plans for the Higgins family and we can't wait for the outcome. By the way, could you ask Walker Moore if he knows Guy Grimes? He is our new senior pastor here in Fountain Valley, CA.

Have a great day.

Joel & Christal Mearig
Huntington Beach, CA

At 1:33 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

your stories always make me laugh or cry...or both! I love them and treasure them daily!

I just got Mercyme's new CD yesterday, FINALLY!!) I have listened to it several times already and I shared the BJ song with a freind in my car she reads your site daily as well. We both cried together. It is beautiful. So was BJ! I have taken his place here in Northern Kentucky and am being a witness for Christ! May he use me till my death...and then after as well.

Florence, KY


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