Monday, May 22, 2006

"How do you want your son to be remembered?"

A question I was asked that rendered me speechless.

A question so simple, yet not. A question I've thought about extensively. A question with obvious answers.

Oh my, do you really want to know? There are so many things. As my mind raced and I couldn't find the words, these things came to me: His smile warms my heart (present tense since I'm still able to see it in pictures), his laugh gave delight, his arm around me gave me comfort, his words of love and appreciation gave deep satisfaction, his teasing made me lighten up, his words of wisdom about sharing with others filled me with the purest kind of joy. I want to remember these things. I want to treasure them in my heart for always. I'm just aggravated that my memory is not complete.

What BJ stood for was made clear: All because of Christ.

What more can be said?
To live or die, Christ is why, to Him be the glory, not BJ, not us, nothing else added.

Father, what an amazing weekend You gave us. Thank you for Your continued grace to our family. Your graces have come every single day. We've looked for them, we've needed them and they've come.

Thank you for being with us in our speechless moments as well as in the moments when we can talk a blue streak. I pray we continue to encourage people to look beyond themselves, beyond this life even. I pray we continue to be faithful in pointing people to You, O Mighty God, my Savior and Redeemer. Thank you for the comfort we have in knowing BJ is with You in all Your glory. We can't possibly think he's missing anything here. Help our memory of him spurn us on, keep our perspective in check and give us hope for our future.

Your Words, Your love letter to us, let us take every one of them to heart. You didn't waste any, You didn't mince words, You gave it to us straight. You repeated words for emphasis 'cause You know we're kind of hard headed at times. You assured us of Your love and You assured us of certain damnation if we reject Christ. It's the truth! It's the ONLY TRUTH. My prayer is that anyone reading this take their Bible out right now and start reading and continue reading. It was written in the past for all ages, it is current as ever and appropriate anytime. You will be blessed if you read - it's a promise! Rev. 1:3



At 8:17 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It was soooo nice to see you Saturday, evening. To be able to spend a moment, no matter how small, with you again. It was a true joy and blessing to see you and hug you again. We really miss you but are proud of where God is leading you and your family. I continue to pray for you often, and I keep up with the blog, faithfully, as part of my daily "ritual." I wish you and your family all the best, and wait to see you again.

At 9:34 AM, Blogger Christ Renews 11 - Sisters in Christ said...

Deanna - what a beautiful blog today, truly spoken from the soul and with the direction exactly where it should be, to Christ. Thank you for inspiring us to be better Christians, to continue our growth and to read and absorb His Words of Truth in fulfillment of our destiny into eternity!! The peace, joy and love of Christ be with you as you continue your calling so obediently.

At 2:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey! it's katie waddles. I was just beginning the process of cleaning out my closet before I go off to college this summer. I was going through a stack of old camp pictures from my freshman year and I came across two pictures of B.J. when he re-dedicated his life to Christ at camp and was baptized in the lake. It really touched me and made me miss all of you. I want you to know that I love you and you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Love, Katie

At 7:28 PM, Blogger ~daddies_lil_girl~ said...

hey, i no u dont know me but i am 13 years old and i learned about your son in my youth group in alma arkansas and he inspired me so much! i am listining to the song by mercy me that they wrote for him right now, (i would die for you) he has inspired me so much, he is so great!

At 10:27 PM, Blogger Lattany said...

And we know that those promises never disappoint... thanks.

Fairfax, VA, USA

At 11:51 PM, Blogger Praying in Pink said...

I'm so thankful you had an incredible weekend.

We were praying for that!

And I'm thankful we have an incredible God.

Today I was studying what it means to be a disciple. In New Testament times, a disciple was a learner committed to following a particular teacher.

Deanna (and Brent)--I will remember BJ as . . . a disciple!

with tender love and still more prayers,


At 6:52 AM, Blogger Jean said...

It's as if you said it Sunday when
Angie asked. I'm blessed to have been there. You continue to touch so many lives. God bless you all as your healing continues.


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