Thursday, November 03, 2005

In a couple of hours, Deanna and I will leave for the airport to catch our flight to Tulsa. We look forward to this with great anticipation. We look forward to seeing our Awe Star family, to meeting more of them, and to meeting many of those of you who have supported us in prayer.

We are uncertain of our ability to "post" while we are there. It is our intent to keep updating, so please check in when you can (the schedule may be different).


When I was little boy I began measuring myself against my father. I would ask to see his hand, and put my palm to his, to see if my hand was nearing his in size. I remember how I wondered if my hand would ever get that big...I just seemed to grow too slow.

I remember how thick and dark the hair on his hands were...and how mine were "bald"
(the interesting contrast is that he was bald, and I had a ton of hair...but that was then). I noted every crease and wrinkle and thought of them as uniquely "my dad." No other dad could have hands this huge, this handsome... there was a fondness to just looking at them.

I don't why, but I was so surprised the first time Beej came up to me, and asked for my hand...and did exactly what I had done. He continued comparing his hand and mine for size, the rest of his life. Not daily, weekly, or even monthly...but every so often, he'd check in to see how much growing he had left to do. And he'd take my hand in that same caring fashion and inspect it.

On the morning that Beej passed, nurse Nadley asked if we'd like to have his hand print cast into plaster. We did. (Nadley was not working that night, but came in only to support us, as Beej was dying)

The other day, I got out that plaster memory. I compared our hands... at least one more time. His hand should have been able to reach the size of mine, I thought. Then my breathe left me, as I realized that the footprints he'd made in life were much bigger than mine, and I still had some growing to do.

Father God, please let Beej measure his hand with Yours. It's a familiar tradition...I think we learned it from You, for I am always measuring my life with Your Sons. I love you.

brent (dad)


Lori, we certainly are praying for you! Jesus loves you so much. Have you surrendered your life to him?

27 Comments:

At 7:44 AM, Anonymous Marissa Balog said...

Praying for your day and for a safe trip to and from Tulsa!
Marissa

 
At 8:15 AM, Anonymous Kelsey Barnett said...

Something about this post really touched me. I invisioned Heaven and BJ aproaching Gods throne and asking for His hand. Isaiah 40:12 came to mind; Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens? God is so big and yet He still welcomes His children. I pray that as all of us "Bloggers" read and as you post, our hands would get bigger as we grow in Christ.

Thank you guys so much for continuing to post. Like many, I continue to check the website daily (sometimes several times a day). I pray for your family as well as the Bloggers so much. I'll be praying that yall will travel safely to and from Tulsa.

I love you guys so much!
-Kelsey

 
At 8:52 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good Morning Family,
I am praying your trip goes well.
Brent you are so thoughtful to think of us on the Blogg and the possible schedule change. Thank you for you and your family sharing with us.
I look forward to hearing of your journey. I will be praying you are finding more strength and peace
growing in your hearts daily.
Huggs to you all with love and comforting thoughts to lift you up and hold you strong!!!

Lisa
Indpls., IN

 
At 8:59 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Lori
Keep Praying.
Pray for strength, pray for help,
pray for signs of encouragement.
Keep talking to Jesus.
Don't give in to Satans temptations.
Scream aloud if you have to.
Don't give up on Jesus,
I promise Jesus will not give up on you!!! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers all day today.
Your sister in Christ
Lisa

 
At 9:46 AM, Blogger *kim said...

Can't wait to hear about how your trip went! Take care! Praying for you! Love *Kim

 
At 10:11 AM, Blogger NatenAmy said...

Brent and Deanna--
We will be praying for you today as you travel and the rest of this week as you share your story! We would have loved to join you for "physical support" but just think of us sitting in the front row cheering you on and praying for you!
Dear, sweet, BJ. What a special story you shared with us today, Brent. I am praying for all of us, that we would each reach out and take the hand that God has lovingly extended to us. Then, that we would carefully watch His hand, memorizing all of the details, and strive to be like Him.
We love you, and we're praying.
Sonshine... in pink,
Amy (and Nate-dog too)

 
At 10:13 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent,

As a parent, your words really hit home today. I think we can all relate to the hand measuring. The way you talk to us is so inspiring. Please have a safe trip to OK. We will be praying for you as always.

 
At 10:30 AM, Anonymous On Our Knees... said...

Brent & Deanna,

What a wonderful analogy!

Continuing to lift you up in prayer as you travel. My prayer is that you will be strengthened and encouraged by the work God has given you.

Also, that while it must be really, really hard (the "I don't even know how hard") to continue on with this "race", you feel blessed by God to be able to share and see BJ's work continue.

Keep up the race ~ and know that we are still here praying as you continue to faithfully work for our King! We are blessed to join you in your work, to pray continually, and to hear from God ourselves through your postings.

Yes, all to His glory!!

We love you!
Tammy

"Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to those with fearful hearts, 'Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, He will come with vengeance; with divine retribution He will come to save you.'

Then will the eyes of the blind be opened and the ears of the deaf untopped. Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. Water will gush forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert. The burning sand will become a pool, the thirsty ground bubbling springs." Isaiah 35:3-7

 
At 10:42 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I just want to thank you for keeping everyone updated. We all enjoy it. I actually havent been able to come out and check the site in a while but coming back out and being able to enjoy hearing you talk about a fellow brother in Christ is so encouraging. It really motivates me to be closer to God. I am praying for you, havent stopped. I pray you all have a safe trip to Tulsa. I hope you enjoy my home town!
Serving Him,
Tiffany Jessie

 
At 10:51 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent and Deanna,

I will be praying for you two as you travel to Tulsa for this adventurous weekend. I know it will be a precious time for you and the AweStar family.

Once again, I want to thank you for your selfless sharing. God is using it to keep me close to Him and to inspire me to keep sharing His Good News. It is beautiful to get to know BJ's heart and the unique way he had of pointing people to Jesus.

Praying you through the pain,
Lynne in Gray, Ga.

 
At 11:28 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you on your trip. As I try to understand my fondness of BJ, a young man whom I had never met, I think one of the attractions is his spiritual maturity. The fact that he has touched so many for Jesus in a short time. At 47, I'm still measuring my growth spiritually against another and realizing I have much growing yet to do. And yes, it seems I grow too slow. Thanks for the insight, dad.
Mark, Hudson, Oh

 
At 1:23 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

have a safe amd wonderful trip.you are such a beautiful family. will miss your comments but will look forward to your return.

 
At 4:02 PM, Anonymous Linda Anderson said...

Sweet Heavenly Father...Please keep the Higgins safe and wrapped in Your loving arms throughout their journeys this weekend, and always. Please fill them with Your Strength and Your Peace and fill them with Your words!! Use them mightly Father...as You already have. And bring them home safely and fully refreshed in You. In Jesus' Precious Name and in Pink--Amen.

Have a great trip. I wish I could be there. I would love to hear you speak and give you the hug my arms ache to give you!!

Lori---you are in our prayers. Keep looking up to Jesus...and read the Word constantly!! Memorize Scripture to say to yourself in those yucky times. And it will help you fight off Satan too. Jesus is always there for you with open arms...just keep reaching towards Him and He will be faithful!! God bless you! If you need to talk to someone...my email is lovingtheLord3@hotmail.com or yahoo messenger is lynnander_2000.

God bless you guys and take care. Don't worry if you can't blog for a couple of days. We will be checking often....but we understand. And will be waiting for your blessed report when you return. Know that you are loved and lifted up to Jesus in prayer.

Linda Anderson
Willows, California

 
At 7:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hope you have a great, safe trip. Thank you for your words today. They really touched and challenged me! Thank you for your faithfulness to the Father.

 
At 7:56 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I really needed to hear that today. I need to measure my hand with Christ's, so that I can grow to be more like him. Thank you!
You will be in my prayers as you travel to Tulsa!
Sarah
Norman,OK

 
At 8:40 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Mom and Dad,
I'm glad you're going down to Tulsa. Maybe I'll get to tell you "hi" through someone's cell phone. I really wish I could be there but the SAT got in the way. I'm still prayin' for ya'll lots!
Love you,
Kayla (Peru 2005)

 
At 8:43 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I think you have the most beautiful family. I pray daily for strength for all of you. Thank you for the peace your posts bring to me. Have a safe trip to Tulsa!

Melinda
Fountain Valley, Ca.

 
At 8:57 PM, Anonymous Pat Davila said...

Again, thank you for your beautiful and uplifting words. I have not blogged in a few days but every day I get up, grab a yoo hoo and read the post. BJ's letter to his friend was a treasure. I printed it for my daughter who is 12. I pray you have an encouraging trip and we look forward to hearing from you when you get a chance. Blessings to you and your family. I pray Deanna is feeling better as well.

PatDavila

 
At 10:43 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow!! Thank You!!

 
At 10:46 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Father,
I pray for every person that reads these blog comments. Speak to their hearts and bring peace where it is lacking. Bring joy where there is no laughter. Bring hope where there is none.
We praise you father!

 
At 12:32 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so VERY VERY excited about this weekend. I will be in Tulsa and I am looking forward to meeting y'all. Thank you so much for the post today.Once again, as I have come to expect every day, I was blessed.

April Cowan
Odessa, Tx

 
At 2:12 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent and Deanna,
My prayers will be with you as you travel this weekend. My son, Phil, will be in Tulsa for the AweStar reunion. He was with another group in Peru and first told me about BJ. I will be praying that this will be an incredible time of worship, fellowship, and healing for you and the AweStar family, and that God will use you to inspire a deeper passion for Him among those students. Thanks for continuing the blog. I am blessed and challenged every time I read it!

Sheryl Christensen
KCMO

 
At 9:43 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God Bless you all on your trip! As I continue to thank the Lord for many blessings, I want to thank you all again as well! Yet again, another touching post that relates to so many, challenges us and lifts us all up in so many ways!

Brent, a short update on me: I have been blessed with a new job at Oaklandon Christian Church! Talk about a calling.
My first day is today and I can't wait! I wanted to share with you also, that as I continue to wear my t-shirts 'prayforbj.com' - sometimes I notice 'readers' of the shirt, but usually no one asks. Yesterday while in Wal-mart, the cashier asked me about BJ! She asked who he was, etc. I found myself a bit challenged at first with a accurate description, she proceeded with another question "Did you know him?" That statement touched my heart still! After smiling and thinking to myself for a moment, I answered "Well, Yes, I'd say so!"

I feel like though not knowing BJ in his physical body,I've come to know his family and BJ's spirit, therefore knowing his heart, I felt compelled to say Yes, I knew BJ - I knew the most important things! So thank you again for allowing me (us) here to know BJ!

God Bless and Thank you! Love -
Christy K.
Indpls, IN

 
At 10:02 AM, Anonymous Toodie Schaper said...

I thought about this entry all day yesterday and I shared it with a friend. It really touched my heart as a parent but also made me think about my relationship with my Heavenly Father. Your words continue to bless me. It is now Fri. morning and I woke up praying for all of you. Heather is looking forward to this weekend with you and the Awe Star family. I am praying that it will be amazing and that you will be greatly blessed as you speak, sing, share, and worship. You all remain constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

With love and prayers,
Toodie

 
At 10:35 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for a safe trip!!!!

 
At 10:38 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent and Deanna~

I hope you have a great time at the reunion and I wish I could have made it! Enjoy our brothers and sisters!

Blessings~

Erin
Peru 2005

 
At 10:42 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Touched to tears by your words about the hand measuring. We put our preemie baby's hands in plaster early on and were amazed at the progress in his physical growth in just one years' time. But, the growth came without our noticing it so much, as we saw him every day. We knew he was bigger, but the exponential growth he'd made wasn't realized until we actually measured. I think lots of us in our Christian lives don't notice the subtle changes that make a big difference over time - the commitment to praying for others daily, reading our Bible faithfully, worshipping always, loving and supporting each other on good days and bad. When I look back over my difficult journey this morning I realize more fully now what God has done to change MY life along the way...without my really noticing it. Isn't God good? He IS faithful, and though he never promises the journey to be easy, He promises to always be WITH us on our journey. We love you, Higgins family. Still praying in Arlington, TX

 

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