Tuesday, November 08, 2005

I have not had the opportunity to fly much in my life, but I just LOVE it! Small planes, big planes, it matters not to me. What I can't get over and what I keep telling my friends is, the perspective from up there. It's awesome. I wonder "Is this how BJ sees us now?" First the cars look like match-box toys, (BJ loved 'em, he has quite a collection from his Uncle Brad mostly) then as you continue ascending they get even smaller. Even the boats in the lakes look like dots. The landscape is so interesting, everything kind of in squares, you can see roads for miles and neighborhoods in their entirety. The fall colors, the clouds, the sunset, I take it all in and have a new sense of appreciation and admiration. How creative is our Creator! So much variety in His intricate designs. On our way home, the lights of the city were incredibly beautiful as well. I never have been able to concentrate on reading material as I fly, I'd rather watch the majestic scenery. It reminds me of a Psalm, of course...

Psalm 104 is long so I'll just retype portions: "O Lord my God, You are very great; You are clothed with splendor and majesty. He wraps Himself in light as with a garment; He stretches out the heavens like a tent and lays the beams of His upper chambers on their waters. He makes clouds His chariot and rides on the wings of the wind... He makes springs pour water into the ravines; it flows between the mountains. He waters the mountains from His upper chambers; the earth is satisfied by the fruit of His work... The moon marks off the seasons, and the sun knows when to go down. How many are Your works, O Lord! In wisdom You made them all; the earth is full of Your creatures. There is the sea, vast and spacious... the ships go to and fro... May the glory of the Lord endure forever; may the Lord rejoice in His works - He who looks at the earth, and it trembles, who touches the mountains, and they smoke. I will sing to the Lord all my life... May my meditation be pleasing to Him, as I rejoice in the Lord."

I know we will forever have a new perspective on life and death and about everything in between. A new perspective, but with new mercies, new grace, and new blessings. Thank you Father for your faithfulness in every step of the journey.

We received a letter today from BJ's "Uncle Jeremy" that touched me very deeply. He says "BJ had an innocence about him that enabled him to look past sins and find the value of each person. This (among many other factors) probably made him a good evangelist - there is no one who is not worth saving! ... There are lots of things that we are going to do on earth (good and bad) that men will not see, but God does. You have raised your son to serve our Father. BJ is with Him now, but his legacy continues..." Thank you Jeremy for those healing words.

So often we misjudge people on first meeting; either by their appearance or a perceived attitude problem. Only until we look deeper and perhaps listen (?) do we see them for who they really are. I pray for God's perspective to see the value of each person.

Love to you all who are still reading and blogging!


At 7:28 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God Bless you and your family...
Greenfield, Indiana

At 7:40 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have never flown on a plane but I'm almost positive I will love it in the same way and love to look at all that God has created below. It is amazing to be even standing on the ground an look around at everything around us. Praying for your day and your struggles!

At 7:41 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Deanna, your blog today is so peaceful. It reminds me of the days in the mountains with my husband and children, seeing the vast land for hundreds of miles and just standing in awe at the Creator's splendor. Now as I reflect, I wish I would have taken more time to pray while there with my children. It's never too late. Today is filled with opportunity for all of us to share his splendor and pray together for a world so much in need.

Thank you so much for your wisdom through our Lord. I will reach today to those I am not comfortable reaching out to. Today I will pray with my children and my husband. Today, I will glorify my God!

Last Wednesday, I ran into one of the nurses that works at St V's in the same area (ecmo) where BJ fought for his life. As I was expressing my faith journey, BJ, of course, came up. She immediately said, "BJ Higgins"? She was not his nurse, but the nurse for the other young boy. BJ has left quite the legacy at St V's and has made a difference with the people that work there still! They still read the blog also!

Higgins Family--this is working for so many of us! Thank you for continuing to share in your journey of faith through such a difficult and emotional time. Our Lord and BJ must be elated! His plan is so fruitful!
Vicky Ward

At 8:35 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank You Deanna, for sharing your heart today. God's mercies truly are new and amazing every day!!
Praying for continued healing, strength, and opportunities to keep sharing the awesome love of Christ!
Cheryl (Hilliard, Ohio)

At 8:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

that was encouraging, thatnk you.

At 9:15 AM, Blogger . said...

Dear Deanna,

I know what you mean about flying--I love it! I never flew commercially until I was in my thirties, when I started off with a transatlantic flight. My favorite part was flying over the North Atlantic iceberg fields. Those massive icebergs looked like little bits of ice floating in a soft drink! It just made me think again--what an awesome God we serve! Those icebergs are smaller still to Him, and yet He's personally acquainted with every hair on my head!

All this talk about flying makes me think of a song:

"I'll fly away, O glory, I'll fly away..."

Still praying for you and your family....

At 9:17 AM, Blogger Unknown said...

Deanna,the view is amazing isn't it. On my last flight from Australia to the US we flew over a lightening storm and it was spectacular to watch. It was on my first trip to the US, in 2003 that I first saw the magnificent colours of Autum here and at the time I remember thinking that the Lord was a wonderful artist. It was like looking at a painting splashed with glorious colours. I'm sure most of us take the colour change for granted at times, but for someone like me who had never seen such variety in the changing of the colours in Autum it was breath taking. Then on my return home to Australia I was once again reminded of His creation as where I lived I was surrounded my mountains. We are surrounded by so much beauty, so much that the Lord has created for us to enjoy and soak in, but many times we are too busy with life to stop and just look and thank Him for all that He has created.
Your words this morning on how we look at others struck a nerve with me. I immediately thought of my Hollie and how she wears so many different masks so that others can not see who she really is. Thank you for reminding me to look past all her masks and see who she is, a 15 year old girl who just wants to be loved and accepted.

In His Love

At 10:07 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I started off in a bad mood today, and am so encouraged by your post, Deanna. :) Thank you so much. What a legacy BJ has left behind. I see him as a great example of how to live like Christ.

At 10:52 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Higgins family,
I've been praying for you and reading your blog for awhile now, but this is the first time I've responded. I just wanted to let you know how much yours (and BJ's) story has touched me. God has called me into ministry, but my walk with Him has been inconsistent. Through BJ's story, God has shown me that it needs to get consistent so that I can fully surrender my life to him and He can work effectively through me. I was reading Luke 5 the other night, where so many people are pressing in to hear Jesus teach that he has to get into a boat in order to speak to them all. The story culminates with Peter realizing who Jesus is and Jesus' calling Peter to follow. He does so without question, without hesitation. He just goes, following his Lord anywhere. This is what BJ did, and what God is calling me to do. Thank you for having the courage to share your story, and I pray that God will continue to encourage and strengthen you.
God bless,
Wilmore, KY

At 11:20 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent & Deanna,

Thank you for your writing this morning. It blessed me so much to get to talk to you this weekend, and I love that although you are not here and I am not there, I don't feel out of touch with you. Both of you ministered to the students tremendously this weekend. First, in you presence, and the spirit of grace and worship that you carried with you. Then in the words of your speech (and singing) you encouraged and challenged every heart present. The enormity of your loss and pain wakes others up to the enormity of our task which requires such a sacrifice.

Last night, and this morning in my quiet time, a passage in John 12 has been stuck in my brain (praise God) that helps me to live dying daily, and remind me that in your sons death this is much life.

John 12:24 "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit."

Your son may seem very small in the scheme of the world, as small as a grain of wheat. But his death was the seed that the Father chose to bring forth much life. Believers everywhere touched by his story are waking up and bearing much fruit. In his death he does not remain alone. He is joined by us every day when we die to ourselves. And very soon, in just a blink of an eye, we will be with Him for good.

With faith, hope, and love,
Rachel Long
Awe Star Family

At 11:34 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow! I don't even know how to follow up what Rachel said previously to mine, Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Mom, I pray you have an amazing week with teaching and I long to continue to learn from you,dad, lauren and whit!
Thank you

Hannah Phillips
Soon to be Awestar Family!

At 11:47 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your words today are truly a blessing and such a great reminder for us all!! I love the part of the letter that said we must look beyond and deeper within a person, because it is so easy to judge or form misconceptions and miss such a blessing in the people around us. I pray that as we all grow in our christian walk, that we will not forget what a great example Christ was. He spent a lot of time listening and getting to know the person deep inside. It sounds like BJ "got it" regarding being a good listener. (It becomes more evident every day why God chose HIM!!!) Brooke has shared many times with me about his humbleness and how he was genuinely interested in the people around him, but never was a conversation hog by talking all of the time, he took time to listen. I pray you are blessed by your blog family because you truly have blessed us more than words can express!!
Have a great day! (By the way, Brooke said your song was incredible!!)
Have a blessed week!

At 11:54 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for such a wonderful perspective...

You are such an inspiration to me as a mother and a woman...

May God continue to give you strength and comforting blessings as you continue your walk with him daily...

Your Sister in Christ,
Mary (Noblesville)

At 11:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I haven't written in awhile, but I want ya'll to know that I have been thinking of ya'll and that you are continually in my prayers. I too love to fly. Someday I would love to get my pilot's license. It always amazes me how awesome God's creation is; but when you see from so high up it looks even more amazing.

In Christ,

At 12:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Many times I hear the people respond by saying BJ "got it"... while this is exceptionally true, we need to remember... God did not choose this person. BJ chose God. God wants to and will work through us all in this same way, if we are submitting the way our brother did. Obedience. Submission. Love. We all have it, just make the decision to use it!

I love you all!

At 12:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm afraid I agree AND disagree with the previous post. No long theological debates here (sorry, Beej!), but God DID choose this person! I would reference especially John 15:16--"You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain." (John 15:16)

Yes, BJ chose Him--but he wouldn't have done so had not God already been working in his life. BJ only "got it" (which I believe the blog family uses to mean "understood, lived out, and practiced") because of the work God did in his life.
BJ's life and this legacy-via-blog challenge each one of us to have the relationship that he did so that we can also "get it" in so many areas of our lives by continually choosing to lay them down--even as a grain of wheat (go, Rachel!).

That's true discipleship.
That's what BJ got.
That's what God wants.
That's what we all have available to us as He chooses us by working in our lives and as we choose to follow Him.

praying in pink,

seeking to stay faithful,

Marti for the Pieper Family
Charleston, SC

At 12:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I John 4:10 - Love consists in this: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins.

At 12:23 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

1 Thessalonians 1:4-5 - 4 For we know, brothers loved by God, that he has chosen you, 5 because our gospel came to you not simply with words, but also with power, with the Holy Spirit and with deep conviction.

At 1:05 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


I have been thinking of you alot the past few days and praying. I hear you singing in my head, and it makes me smile.


At 2:34 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

What an amazing weekend for you all!! How awesome and uplifting it must have been. God has been so gracious and loving through all of this...and beyond to all of us!! It is "funny" about that song "Praise you in the Storm" from Casting Crowns. The first time I heard that was the weekend before BJ went home. My husband had bought it for me for my birthday. I thought of BJ throughout that CD, but especially that song! And still do everytime I listen to it. And all of you too.

It is awesome how God uses such things to show Himself and His love for us. The Pink sunset was such a gift to you...I am sure. I cannot look at anything Pink without thinking of BJ.

May God continue to bless you and strengthen you in this storm, and I pray that it will continue to lessen every day. God bless all of you.

Always praying in Pink~~

Linda Anderson
Willows, California

At 2:35 PM, Blogger phil4yahshua said...

Quite some time has passed since I've blogged but wanted you all to know that you remain in my prayers and not a day goes by that I don't think of you and lift you all up to the Throne of Grace. I have been having more physical issues but as before am trusting them to my Father.

The other day I was watching the news. The stories were going back and forth from Tornados in Evansville, to rioting in France, bombs in Iraq and all the craziness in D.C. I am not the only one who sees the times we live in as "The Generation of the Fig Tree" spoken of in Matthew. He said when you see "These things" happening, know that this is the generation that will see all come to completion. People I believe you have to have a calling "NOT" to be in full time ministry. Brothers and sisters we need to put aside the things of the world that enslave us and get serious about sharing with the Lost that the time is short. It is our place and calling to spred the Word from our rising up to our lying down. That whosever we come in contact with will be given the opportunity to accept or reject the Kings of Kings. Now is the appointed time!!! With all my illnesses I am still here, so with every breath that is within me I will proclaim Jesus Christ is Lord to the Glory of God the Father...........Even so come Lord Jesus!

Wow......think BJ's spirit just gave me a nudge :-) Yeah, I hear ya brother..........We're feeling your presence !!!

Word of God Speak,
would you pour down like rain
washing my eyes to see, your majesty, to be still and know,
You're in this place,
Please let me stay and rest in your holiness.
Word of God Speak.


At 3:07 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Amen, Brother Phil! I sometimes think that many times in the past the "end" must have seemed so near. I think of the WWII generation and the evil they experienced in life or those who experienced the Black Death of plague. I know Jesus said only the Father knew when the last day was scheduled. I also get the feeling that time is short and the need urgent, even if it is short for the current generations on earth.

As far as choosing, I understand Jesus to say that he chose freely to sacrifice himself for us. We choose to avail ourselves of His sacrifice. Maybe my Wesleyan theology is showing! Either way, I am undeserving by merit but covered by Grace. I heard Franklin Graham (11-7 was Billy's birthday) say that his father came to visit him in Switzerland and told him that he needed to either choose to follow Christ or not. Franklin felt like he too understood that he needed to choose one way or the other. Someday I pray the Master will help me to understand.
Thanks for the post, Mom.
Praying in Pink.
Mark J, Oh

At 4:14 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

GOD is great

At 4:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Deanna, mom, thank you so much for posting what you did this morning. I am praying that I will be able to see others in the way Jesus would see them and lead worship as you did with complete transparency and submission and love for our Lord.
I love you and I'll see you in June
-Brittany Allen

At 4:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

MOM! thanks for posting! thanks so much for your hugs on saturday night.. and appreciating my tears. its good to know they're helping you! cuz sometimes i get frustrated w/them!
I love to fly too! its one of my most favoritist things ever. its just incredible.

i love you loads, Mom. I'm praying for you this week as you adjust back into things!


At 4:56 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

LOVE YOUR WEBSITE! KEEP IT UP!! ... its so encouraging!

At 5:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred numb our sorrow.
The wise hand opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

At 5:58 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am still praying 4 all of you!
I havent been bloging as much!I ALWAYS WILL BE PRAYING!!!My thoughts and prayers are always with you!
love always your sister in
Julie Meils

At 6:15 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Deanna- Thank you for sharing today. I am touched by your words and have found encouragement in reading the blogs daily. Praying for your family this week and always!

At 7:34 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

With my usual anticipation and thoughts, I read today's post to the end, to read it was posted by MOM. What a pleasant surprise Deanna! Thank you so much for sharing with us today. I hope to know you all better as time passes. Your words are contiually uplifting and inspirational - all to the glory of god! Your son has truly changed my life forever, as god has 'rebooted' my life.I've given my life to the lord! With much excitement and love.
Wishing you all the best -
God Bless you all! I look forward to hearing more from you all! What a testimony and sermon I get from you daily. I love it and you all, in christ,
Christy K.

At 9:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing this morning. Your words inspire me, and I am thankful for them.

At 9:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for your inspirational words. Please keep up the blog. It helps us all. People who leave crude comments should stay off of this site.

God bless you today and always, Deanna and family.

At 9:36 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I praise God that he gives you these times of reflection and peace. He is the Comforter of our souls!! Thank you for your continued postings. I love checking in periodically and reading. I'm always inspired and awed. You give me fresh perspectives on God's Word and reaching out to others.

Angela, Merom IN

At 9:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have a prayer request to all bloggers. Some missionaries I know in Ethiopia have malaria. Please pray for their healing and recovery. Thanks!

At 11:30 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent and Deanna,

Oh how I wish I had been able to be in OK with you this past weekend. I picked Heather up at the airport and she talked non-stop all the way back to our house. For once I was disappointed that we only live 20 minutes from the airport. I am sure she only scratched the surface of what all went on and she had to leave almost right away to go back to school. She was truly blessed being with you both.

Deanna, I loved your description of what it looks like to fly. I could just picture it and I have had so many of the same thoughts when I have flown. I have also learned a life lesson from flying. There have been times I have been emotionally so down I didn't know if I would ever come up again but this is what God showed me. When I am on earth and the clouds are hanging thick and low and so gray I can remember the times I have taken off in an airplane and once the plane breaks through the clouds the sun is shining brightly and I am in His brilliant light. No matter how bleak and sad things look I can know that God is up above those clouds and it gives me hope.

Please know that even thought it has been a while since I have written I am still checking in every day and praying for all of you.

Much love,

At 12:03 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you Deanna for your beautiful words. It was wonderful to see your perspective on things. I would like to put in a prayer request if I may. I have a friend named Janet. She is married to Joe. She is a school teacher and she has 3 children. A girl Chantal and two boys. Chantal is 13. When she was 8 she was diagnosed with a brain tumor. She went through chemo and radiation and has been doing well, cancer free until this month. They just found out Monday that the tumor is back by her eye. You know better than anyone what Janet & Joe are going through. Knowing what this girl is going to have to go through again is more than they can bear. Janet is one of the worship singers for our Spanish ministry and has been such a blessing to so many people. Please remember them in your prayers. I myself don't know what direction to pray for. Sometimes I can't figure out the "WHY". So I just pray for His grace and mercy.

Because of Grace,

At 12:41 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks for those wonderful words! I just want to say again how much this site encourages me,God really teaches me a lot of things through it!! I am praying for you and I love you and the family very much!!

At 6:17 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

You all continue to touch people's hearts - thank you for continuing to share with us - praying always, DeAnn

At 10:39 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


I so relate to your awe at the amazing view being in a plane provides one. I LOVE looking out the window, especially over mountains, when the sun is setting, when the leaves are changing. I remember noticing the "lines" that appeared that you don't see at all from the ground but look so obvious from aboce and thought, so that's how they decided state boundaries. Every day our wonderful Lord provides us with awesome views of one thing or another, it's all a matter of if we take the time to notice...the hawk or eagle perched high on a tree, the butterfly moving from one flower to another, the ant carrying something 5x its size, the flowing water with shimmers of sunlight bouncing of its edges...all of these things are places where I see God.

I wish I could have heard you sing that song, which I'm sure had such depth of emotion to you. Thank you for sharing a bit of yourself with us yet again.


At 9:51 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Deanna,
Although I seldom blog, I am still reading and praying for you. Thank you and Brent for this ministry.
Carla S.


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