Friday, February 24, 2006

The time has arrived when I may share with you what the Lord is doing in our lives. In doing so, I am aware of conventional wisdom which says, "don't do anything for at least a year" (from the date of your tragedy). However, I am also aware that I do not live by the laws of convention, but by the promptings of my Savior.

So much has happened since BJ died. So much was given. The price, colossal. The cost is perpetually dear, but the Lords direction has become infinitely clear.

One of the things the Lord has done in our hearts is to stir within us the need to be as close to the front of the battle lines as possible. We have resided where He led us, but His presence is moving, and so must we.

The Lord has opened up an opportunity for me to serve Him, by raising up leadership, and and wedding them with students whom He has called to go to the mission field. My role is to oversee the "Global Passage" side of Awe Star. In effect, to send the next generation of missionaries to serve their King. To make it possible for that to happen. To select what countries we will enter. To offer my body as a living sacrifice. This is a God-sized task, one I have to completely trust Him to fulfill! My resume does not prepare me for this, only the Lord has, and will.

Many of you know that Dr. Walker Moore has been doing this for many years. He is stepping over into the "Rite of Passage," where he will focus on communicating to students and their parents about what it means to pass from childhood into adulthood through a Significant Task (please know that this is an oversimplification of role responsibilities). You can learn more about this by visiting BJ experienced this on his first trip with Awe Star, and the Lord used it to change his life and ours.

He has filled us with enormous peace through the process of contemplating this change. Deanna has been ready to go for some time. I drug my feet, waiting. Waiting and watching for the Lord to reveal Himself through this journey. I was fearful that I would make a decision based on the emotional attachment to this organization. It would be easy to do.

Two weeks ago, we went to Tulsa, (as you know) to visit with each staff member, to hear their hearts, and to consider the possibilities. I honestly was not sure this was right. In our conversations, the Lord ministered deeply to my heart through the staff, and through little nuances that noone else would have understood without great explanation. "Peace like a river" flowed over me. I was so humbled to know that the Lord my God was revealing to us His plan in such a fashion.

My last day at Highland Lakes Baptist Camp will be April 14th. I will move to Tulsa to act as "vp of international operations." Deanna and the girls will remain behind to finish their respective school years. Then, we will all head to North Africa to complete a calling God placed on our sons life, one He extended and included on ours. We will spend a month there working with a specific people group.

Upon return, Deanna and I will remain in Tulsa, and our girls will return to Indiana. Leaving family behind is most difficult. We have always been very close. That will not change... the distance will.

While we have the peace of Christ in our decision, somehow it seems appropriate to quote my favorite writer. "God, I hope you know what you're doing, cause I'm muchos scardios!" (BJ Higgins)

brent (dad)


At 8:19 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

dad and mom -

I'm amazed. Your obedience has, again, inspired me, and I thank you for being willing. Praying for you, so much.

All the love that isn't mine,

At 8:53 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Pray for Elise Lalama.. she's sick in the hospital.

At 11:14 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for God's continued guidance, peace and blessings. He is an AWESOME GOD!!

At 11:25 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so excited to be serving with all of you this summer. I know God is going to do some amazing things and I cannot wait to meet the girls.

Looking forward to serving The King with you

April Cowan

At 11:56 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

dad and mom, how totally Awe-some! As a native Hoosier, I miss my family and the familiar things of home but a steak burger and choc shake at SNS helps recapture the memories :-) We all are on a journey Home. Our thoughts and prayers are with you even as He is with you. Blessings,
Hudson, OH

At 12:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


At 12:29 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God bless you in this endeavor, Higgins family. We worship with many of the Awe Star family at FBC Tulsa. It is exciting to see how God is calling so many out to the "front lines", among them a minister from our own church family. We will be praying for you, and ask you to please pray for him.

While I know you will miss being close to your loved ones at home, I know you will quickly be embraced by the fellowship of believers in Tulsa! Welcome!

Janet at FBC

At 1:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey parents--

I'm so excited for you guys! so blessed by your obedience to our such a ginormous way!! Just think tho.. you'll be closer to all of us in Tulsa! lol.. i'm sure thats the FIRST thing that came to your mind, right? hahaha
I will keep this in my prayers.. that the Lord would smooth out the little details.. living arrangements, house sellings.. all of it.. just that it would be a seemless transition!

love you guys... praying always for you.. missing him a little more everyday


At 1:41 PM, Blogger Kim Mierau said...

When Lauren told us about this opportunity for you guys I was so excited. You are amazing and your consistent faith is so beautiful. I am praying for you and your family, that the transition be one that happens smoothly, that God continues to give you peace and direction, and for your continued strength. Any of you always have a place to stay, wherever I am, and Lauren can consider my apartment next year her second home. I love you so much and I hope I see you all again soon. *kim

At 2:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We are happy for you Brent and Deanna and excited to see how God will continue to use you. But you leave behind a group of people at FBC who will miss you greatly!!

But never fear Brent...I have done the research for you and there are plenty of scrapbooking stores for you to take Deanna to.
Scrapbooks Galore 'n More - 8.9 miles SE - 8009 S Sheridan Rd # C, Tulsa, 74133 - (918) 477-9337

Scraphappy's - 8.8 miles SE - 7142 S Memorial Dr, Tulsa, 74133 - (918) 250-0472

Stampers Anonymous - 0.1 miles SE - Tulsa, 74103 - (918) 270-1930

This should keep you busy!:)


At 2:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent & Deanna,

Don't you love Sheryl? She will keep Deanna scrapping wherever she ends up! I, too, voice the sentiments that you will be truly missed here, but what an amazing adventure lies ahead. You will always be in our prayers.


At 3:52 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am thrilled for you and your family. This is an amazing adventure that inspires others.

At 5:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Let me echo the sentiments of everyone at FBC who will miss you tremendously. You all have been, and continue to be, a great witness and example of what a Christian should be. We know that God will be with you as you take on this new endeavor and ministry. It might seem like a big challenge, but our God is a BIG God and He'll take care of you every step of the way.

Todd, Jes, Andrew and Baby Boy #2

At 8:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks for continuing to write. I haven't read the posts for a couple of weeks and I just had a chance to get caught up. There were several things that you wrote that impacted me greatly today. I teach and this has been a rough week in terms of some troubles that a couple of my students have. I bring their troubles home with me and pray for them, but I am affected. Some of your words were very encouraging. Thanks for reminding me that my disappointment is God's appointment.

I was very excited to read about God's plans for you. Awesome! I will continue to pray for all of you.


At 10:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praise God for His direction & ways that He keeps us on our knees and trusting Him versus our comfort zones!!

Have been unable to check in for a very long time.

I have a brief opportunity & so much has happened, I am certain. You surely know that even in my absence - all of you have been in my prayers...often!

A very heartfelt thank you for the prayers of many for my dad...everything went incredibly smooth and he is recovering well. All praise to our awesome God. Brent, I can not tell you what your kindness of including him (& us) on the blog meant. Tears as you often cause me :) flowed. Thank you. Thank you for your godly example and heart like His. "Mark from Hudson" was enabled through you & the spirt to catch us at a perfect time. God is the God of perfect timing...oh, how good it is to be in His hands!

We will continue to hold you up as you go through all the emotions of change, following God's command to leave your Ur (the land & the usual routine) and go to the lands that He will show you.

Love in Him,

At 11:06 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i dont read the blogs everyday anymore, but for some reason i did today. we're shocked about your news today. Mark and i will miss you more than words can say right now. this is a HUGE deal. I guess we knew you would be going to south africa and to the mission field and all, but we didnt realize it would mean a permanent home base relocation. its too bad. i mean, you gotta do what God tells you to do, but its still too bad that we have to lose you guys. mark and i haven't gotten too much time to REALLY get to know you, but what we have gotten to know has been amazing. you have touched our lives and we will never be the same. we wish you didnt have to go. we'll always love you guys and we'll never forget about you.
-with love always,
mark and amanda andrews.

At 7:35 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God bless you in your new ministry. I thank our Father for the impact you have had on all who have visited this site and for the impact you had on our youth and counselors at WYR.
Dave Bright

At 7:39 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

This is an excert from Tony Dungy on dealing with his son's death in December. I thought you could relate. The complete story can be read on

“People asked me, ‘How did you recover so quickly?”’’ Dungy said. “I’m not totally recovered. I don’t know that I ever will be. It’s still very, very painful, but I was able to come back because of something one of my good Christian friends said to me after the funeral.

“He said, ‘You know James accepted Christ into his heart, so you know he’s in heaven, right?’ I said, ‘Right, I know that.’ He said, ‘So, with all you know about heaven, if you had the power to bring him back now, would you?’ When I thought about it, I said, ‘No, I wouldn’t. I would not want him back with what I know about heaven.’

“That’s what helped me through the grieving process. Because of Christ’s spirit in me, I had that confidence that James is there, at peace with the Lord, and I have the peace of mind in the midst of something that’s very, very painful.

At 9:24 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent and Deanna, i am happy for you, but will be sad to see you leave FBC. You are such fun and amazing people to be around. Always remember FBC will be praying for you. I wish you well on your travels. God bless.

I am so glad that sheryl was able to keep you informed of the scrap stores. Deanna-- happy shopping and memory making. i will miss you.

At 10:02 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am praying for you on your new journey. I am praying that you will sense great peace and continued healing as you live your life through your sons dreams. God is going to use you in mighty ways!! It has been an amazing journey to read your blogs and to follow God's guidance in your lives and the many lives that your son has touched. As this phase comes to an end, know that I will continue to pray for His blessings for you. I will check Awe-Stars website from time to time to see what wonderful things God is up to - through you, through the rest of the wonderful team.
It has been a blessing!
a faithful follower

At 10:04 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a mighty God we serve. Go, Serve, Live and Love well!!! HE is going to use you in mighty ways! I can just see BJ smiling down from Heaven, saying "GO God!!" Thanks for being obedient. Thanks for carrying out BJ's life dream of serving God through missions. You are amazing parents, amazing servants of Christ!!

At 10:05 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Let me know Deanna, when you open your own scrapping store and I will be there!!
Your friend in Indy :)

At 10:08 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

As I read through these blogs today (been a long, long time since I was here) I am reminded that we never know what God has in store and that even though we sometimes wince at the scripture "All things work together for the good . . . " it is just incredible to actually watch that at work. Oh, how I pray that the visitor of darkness leaves your presence and only the shining knight of Heaven fills those spaces. I will continue to pray for you, even though I don't read the blogs much.

At 10:09 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


At 10:10 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow!! All the "pink prayers" have truly been being answered - prayers for peace, for strength, for healing, for guidance" - it is incredible to see prayers being answered. We will continue to pray and pray hard, that God will bless you as you move forward. Thank you for being obedient!!

At 10:13 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

B e all that you can be
R un the race He has set before you
E ternity waits for those that you
will reach
N ow is the time to serve!
T rust like you have never trusted

At 10:34 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Congratulations Brent and Deanna!

It is so easy for others to judge what is too soon or too long but only you both know your hearts and the direction God is calling you to. Based on the spiritual impact your sharing has had with so many through this site, I can only imagine what God's impact through you will be through your new position, your upcoming mission work and all the changes. I pray that God will give you all the strength you will need while you are apart, especially while you are still grieving, but trust that His strength will be enough to help you endure the down days.

Blessings and Peace be yours this day. Tina

At 11:23 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Higgins Family
Your obedience is amazing. I pray that your family strengthens while apart, that the love Christ is revealed to thousands more, and that all of the "seeds sown" will bring you as much love, peace and joy on earth as humanly possible.

At 2:23 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i don't believe in - "wait a year", "the first year is the hardest" - i think that first year is an awesome period of being filled with the holy spirit as you are comforted and led. little by little we then become complacent and "stronger", not leaning so heavily on what we should lean on totally. wishing you and your family the best- i actually heard the news at upward basketball today-then came to check the website. many were touched at upward today. god speed.

At 4:11 PM, Blogger Ashley Reagan said...

I love you guys. :) May God bless you in the work you will be doing.

At 9:19 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent and Deanna~

I am so excited for you and the work that the Lord is using you in. Awe Star will be even better now that you guys are partnering with them. Know that I miss you and may actually get to see you more now that you will be in Oklahoma!

Thanks for your obedience to His kingdom!!


At 4:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent and Deanna,
Thank you so much for your obedience! God is so amazing. It is so awesome that you guys are going this summer and being involved with Awestar. I have been reluctant to go with Awestar too for various reasons, but am going with them to Chile this summer! Well hang in there and God bless you.

At 7:02 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

How awesome for all of you! GO, GO GO!!! All for Him! Praise the Lord for giving you ears to hear and a heart of obedience. Will be praying for you always.

Praying in Pink--
Linda Anderson

At 10:28 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

WOW! It has been few days since I visited this site. I am excited for your decision and very nervous for you as well. I know how it is to be far from family and it can get lonely at times! In our bible study this week we focused on what jesus said: GO into all the world and preach the good news to all creation. (Mark 16:15) So GO..He will be with you and I know GOD will do great things through you in your new adventure. I'll continue to lift you up in my prayers!!!

Florence, KY

At 11:45 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My boys are no longer at PVE, but I know you will be greatly missed Deanna! You brought much to Zionsville with your teaching. My prayers are with you and your family as you travel to Tulsa and Africa.

Zionsville, IN

At 4:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

What exciting news!
Will be praying for all of you as you begin to start a new chapter in your lives.
Still praying for you in Arlington, TX. Carol


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