Tuesday, September 26, 2006

I had gone down for one of the most restless nights I would have. I hadn't been there long when we were awakened. His condition was poor when we went to bed. We had asked the Father to take decision making out of our hands. We did not want to choose for him.

Lauren had gone back to school (an hour away) only a short time before. We had to call her back. Would she make it in time? Please Lord, let her make it back in time. Brad was called and returned. It was the wee hours of the morning.

His skin was mottled, his blood not circulating well. He did not look good. His blood pressure was low, his heart rate too fast, he was fighting, but not as hard as the hospital staff. They had become our friends. How do your friends tell you what is about to happen?

They sped around the room paying attention to every minute detail. The effort seemed to have become futile. Their faces had drawn long, and eye contact harder to give. They had seen this before. We had not, not like this.

Lauren and her suitemates arrived. Thank God, she made it! Her face and fury matched the need of the moment.

We gathered around his bed. Loud, invasive machines were turned off and removed from the room. Space which was always lacking, suddenly was our fortune. We could move about his bed freely, and we did. We clung to every part of him, and we prayed. We implored the Lord to spare him as life seemed to ebb from his body, but only if this was for God's greater glory! We felt selfish, but our hearts wanted to see our Savior receive what only He was due.

The numbers on the monitors were decreasing, the moment drew near. Nurses disconnected him from the significant amount of paraphanalia he was bound to. He was free, he was finally free. No more beeps or alarms to set off, the time was here. He had suffered for his Lord and Savior, and he had done it well. If he was going to make it, it was all up to the Lord. Only a miraculous recovery could restore him.

This was not to be. Shortly before 3:00AM, his heart ceased.

I stared at the ceiling, mouthing the words "I love you," over and over. I had heard enough stories of people hovering at the top of the room after their near death experience, I was hoping his departure included the vision of these words being spoken to him. I know he knew it, but I wanted him to leave us seeing it that last time...

Our room emptied of medical personnel for private moments. These were most difficult. Saying goodbye to your only son... your only brother, how were we supposed to act? What were we supposed to do? There is no etiquette to follow in such moments. We just loved on his body. The thing was, we knew beyond the shadow of doubt that he had been ushered into the Kingdom of God!

Revelations counted him among those who would be robed in white.

He was home. The slowest moving person in our family had arrived first!

The room refilled with medical staff. At 3:30am, staff on duty and staff off duty returned to room 2001 to offer their love and support. They embraced us in a way we neither expected or deserved. They were precious to us! We love them for their incredible efforts.

We love each of you for the hours you have spent on your knees on our behalf. Truly, we are a blessed family. Many have told us what an honor it is for us to be chosen "for such a time as this." We know this to be true. He was an ordinary young man who serves an extraordinary God. One who reigns! He reigns even today, and is sufficient to meet every need.

Before we went to bed last night, Lauren asked if I was going to stay up until 3:00 AM. "No," I replied. Secretly, I hoped to awaken around then, but I did not want it to be contrived.

At 3:20 AM an unnatural alarm went off. My fog-free, suction cup clad, shaving mirror decided to dive off of the wall and onto the floor of the shower...the only room that would echo properly.

I awakened, and I remember...

"Good morning BJ, it must be beautiful there where you are! I love you, son. I am proud of you!"

"Well done thou good and faithful servant...it is finished"



At 10:40 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart is with your family today as the tears have returned. How I miss BJ. Know that I am praying for you especially hard today -- that God would just comfort you.

Laura Allyn

At 10:47 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am praying for you guys, for Lauren and Whitneys safe travels when they return to Indy as well...
I miss BJ so much, but I rest in peace knowng that he is in our Father's House...
I awoke this morning shortly after 3am as well, when a stuffed animal on a shelf near my bed was knocked off and on to my head... some may call it coincidence but I call it God's way of letting us know that BJ is each and everyone of us.
I love you Guys!
Love Always,
Rachel Trask

At 10:58 AM, Blogger Kim Mierau said...

i stayed up til 3 but i imagine that if i had gone to bed i would have woken up, too. wish i could be there to hug each of you.

all my love *kim

At 11:08 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm still praying for all of you, especially today.

My teen daughter never met BJ in person, but followed his story intently. We attended the celebration service for BJ, but had to leave w/o meeting you.

Just wanted you to know how BJ's influence lives on at our house. I see in my daughter a real desire to be (and to marry!) a Christ-follower like BJ. Thanks for the difference your transparency has made for my daughter!

At 11:09 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have my pink t-shirt on in honor and memory of BJ. This young man who I didn't even know has touched my life incredibly over the last year. I woke up with your family on my heart and offered up a prayer for all of you. A bit later,after getting frustrated with my oldest son (9) who always tends to poke around especially when we need to get ready to leave, I thought once again of all of you and what you wouldn't give to have to remind BJ to hurry up and get ready for school. It stopped my in my tracks and my frustration was gone. When we got into the car to drive the short distance to school, I turned around and asked the boys to hold my hands and each others. We did and I offered up a prayer of thanksgiving for the beautiful day, for the love of the Higgins family and the courage BJ had to share God's love and word with others. They have heard me talk of BJ often throughout the last year and I told them how it was coming up on being a year. They prayed with me and after asked me about his last day in the hospital which I answered the best I could. I ended with asking God to help us to share His love and word with others too.

Moments like these offer such a connection with our loved ones, a time to hopefully instill the values you think are important.

YOU did this, not only with BJ but with Lauren and Whitney. You all continue to do this, through your willingness to share through your pain and grief in encouraging others through BJ's story and commitment to Christ.

"People will come together and pray as a result of this," Indeed they will and indeed thay have.
Peace, love and grace be yours today.With special love.


At 11:33 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love you.
Zach McMahan

At 11:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well done BJ. Well doing Higgins family. It is not yet finished for us; let us honor the Son by shining His light in our lives each day.

At 11:40 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney,

It's not unusual for me to awaken during the night, and last night was no exception. As my body jerked from slumber, I squinted through bleary eyes at the digital clock readout. It was hard to make out the numbers clearly, but it registered somewhere in my brain that it was between 2:30 and 3:00 a.m. My mind flew across the days and weeks to a year ago when I joined with you in prayer throughout that long night. I say, "joined with you" even though I was in Kentucky and you were gathered in Indianapolis. That's the amazing thing about the body of Christ. People from diverse cultures and languages, separated by thousands of miles and time zones, can be brought together through the Spirit of God. Truly that has been the case through traveling this journey with you. Just as they did a year ago, my thoughts and my prayers during the night and this morning have called upon our Father to minister His peace and His love into the bittersweetness that comes with memories. I know the memories that surround this week's dates on the calendar are many--ranging from the joys of birth to the sorrow of death, with a very full life lived in between, a life lived to honor and serve his Savior. The blessed thing to realize is that life continues even now. The curtain has been removed for BJ, and he bows before his Lord in worship and praise. In my finite imaginations of that scene, I picture other familiar faces gathered with BJ--other Higginses who made the crossing ahead of him and heard the words BJ heard a year ago, "Well done, good and faithful servant." Now BJ and other dear ones join the cloud of witnesses described by the writer of Hebrews who urge us forward to finish the race so that we too will one day hear those welcome words, "Well done."

I, like other family members and friends, have dug through old photos this year--photos that portray BJ at different stages. There are several images that quickly come to mind, but a couple that have taken on symbolic meaning to me were taken in Colorado at the time of Chris and Marla's wedding. While your children were probably too young to remember our infamous hike up the mountain, some of us who were older remember it well!! The first photo I snapped was at a rest point. Brent, you were seated on a rock at the side of the trail and you had just lifted a little BJ to your shoulders. BJ wore a green cap turned backwards. A characteristic "little boy BJ" grin was on his face. A moment later I snapped another photo as you started up the trail once again. Framed by aspens, this picture shows the image of a father with his son lifted high on his shoulders embarking on a trail stretching before them. Every time I look at that photo I think of how when BJ was little he relied on your strength to lift him on your shoulders and carry him up the mountain. Now, in a way the roles are reversed. The faith and testimony of that little-boy-become- a-man has become for us shoulders upon which we can climb in order to press higher--on up the mountain. And may we, too, someday reach the pinnacle and hear the words, "Well done!"

My thoughts, my love, my prayers are with you all today and throughout this week. I'm so glad Lauren and Whitney were able to spend these days with you.


At 11:45 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We are praying for you all during this difficult time. Thank you for the blessing you have been to us and for your awesome example of what it means to be a Christian. We love you.
Johnny and Laura

At 12:11 PM, Blogger Aunt Maralyn & Uncle Ray said...

There are no words to adequately convey my feelings today. I wish I could be there with you and just surround you with my love and arms. So many memories are running through my mind. Becky mentioned Chris and Marla's wedding and I have very vivid memories of BJ there. He lacked a couple of months of being 2. I am so thankful for all the memories I have of BJ and the little man who became a BIG man. You are all in my thoughts and prayers today. I know the God we serve will be with you every step of today and the future. I am so glad you can all be together but it also makes the rest of us wish we could be there too.
Love, Aunt Maralyn

At 12:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God bless all of you...
Greenfield, Indiana

At 12:20 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you all today! I can only imagine the mixed emotions going through your hearts and minds today. This site and your work through it have influenced my life and my Christian walk so much. I am so thankful to you all for this Blog and your eagerness to continue sharing. People all over the world are praying for you guys today. Please know that we love you all and are constanly thinking about you today.

At 12:20 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your post today. I wish I could extend a hug to each and every one of you. Embrace one another and know that the Lord embraces you, too.

At 12:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We love you and we are praying for you.
We are looking forward to the day when we will all be united again with BJ.
press on.

At 12:27 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you today that the scriptures might minister to you as if they were God's audible voice soothing you in your heartache. I love you.

At 1:08 PM, Blogger natenamy said...

Hey Brent, Deanna, Lauren, and Whit--
Just wanted to let you know that we have been praying for you today! I don't really know what to say, but I know that He knows and that He will minster to all of you in the ways that you need Him to the most!
We miss you all, and wish we could be there in person to pray with you and give you hugs!
We'll never forget Beej (or any of you), and we are eternally grateful to Him who saw it fit to make us all friends.
We love you, we're praying, and we won't stop!
Hugs and kisses,
Amy (and Nate-dog)

At 1:19 PM, Blogger Praying in Pink said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren, and Whitney,

God did awaken me in the night (morning) to pray.

He also awakened me a little later with more thoughts of Him and His work in my life during the past year. As I prayerwalked a little later, I realized that, although there was no way we could say BJ died for me, his death has had a profound impact on my life. THAT was the first moment today when my thoughts found expression in tears.

Thank you for your willingness to share your son so that many might live and walk in truth. Brent, our friend Eddie is right. One year from the day--and this is only the beginning. Eye has not seen and ear has not heard all that God intends to do. But we will! I believe that we will!

And in watching the Memorial Celebration today (more tears, especially during "Held"), I was reminded that I also believe right along with Walker Moore: BJ's life and death are a part of ushering in the last generation of missionaries and (even more importantly) the Kingdom of God. He did not die in vain. Not for a moment, not for a second. Not in the least.

My new prayer for today? Just as that service was a time of love and laughter and music and celebration, I pray that He allows you to CELEBRATE BJ's precious life this day. God loves it when His children look to the past to recognize and rejoice in His work. Celebration gives us hope and renewed vision (His vision) for the future.

Higgins and Blog Family, all: Look to the past, to BJ's life, and see what the Lord has done. Look to the future--to your own lives as they unfold--and see what He WILL DO as you continue to serve and follow in obedience. BJ wouldn't want us lifting HIM up for even a moment--Rusty reminded us of that at the service, too. BJ was all about Jesus.

BJ got it. He really got it. You know what else? When WE get it--we stand ready to take his place.

with especially tender love
and multiple manifold prayers in pink,


At 1:32 PM, Blogger Jessica & Todd Youmans said...

Brent, Deanna & Girls -
Rereading BJ's last moment filled my eyes to the brim - We are praying for you all today, and so often. Everytime I wear my pink BJ shirt, (which is at least once a week!) we pray for you. You are such an example to the rest of the world of what a Christ-follower should do with different situations. Be selfish today and enjoy the moments remembering what an amazing young man you raised - We love you so much. Thank you for sharing your lives with us. We miss you all!
Love - Todd, Jessica, Andrew & Matthew Youmans

At 1:33 PM, Blogger Melissa said...

Reading your post brought memories to my mind and tears to my eyes. When I walked into work that Sunday night, an unscheduled extra night, just because I felt like I had to be there. I saw you both and knew things were bad. I refused to accept it. Hanging onto the hope that maybe, just maybe there would still be a miracle. I remember checking in on him during the next few hours and knowing where things were heading. No one wanted to say it, but we knew. Without warning his monitors alarmed and we all began running, unaware that things had been turned off. By the time we arrived in his room, he was gone. That was the longest "run" of my life.

I'm still not quite sure how we emptied that room of so much equipment so fast, but I think we definately had help from above. We just knew we had to let you get as close as you could, since we had kept you so far from him for 6 weeks. My heart broke with you, a family we had considered part of our picu family. Please know that you are all still in my thoughts and prayers daily. God bless BJ for bringing so many people together and changing so many lives. I think he definately fulfilled his duty here on earth and is reaping his rewards in heaven!

At 1:44 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear special Higgins family,
Please know I am praying for you today so much. Words cannot express how grateful I am for the ministry of your blogs, your transparency as you have walked this road that all of us must walk in some fashion. You continue to bless and encourage me in my own painful experiences. It just reminds me that God is faithful to grow us and mold us through the trials of life, but with a great promise! We have the HOPE of eternal life and the JOY of knowing we will all be united in fellowship for eternity. The prospect of heaven is sweeter because I know I will get to meet B.J. in person, that precious soul who touched so many lives during his short earthly life and continues to touch many because you continue to share. I send my hugs to each of you as I lift you up in prayer.

At 2:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It has been a year and we are all still here. We love and embrace your family. We will continue to lift your family up in prayer and pray God's grace. BJ has brought us all together in Christ love. Thank you for allowing us to be apart of your lives. BJ is still an inspiration.

Pat Davila

At 2:14 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent, Deanna, Lauren & Whitney:

As so many others have stated, just wanted you to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers during this "bitter-sweet" day. May you be surrounded by the love of Jesus and have wonderful sweet memories of BJ throughout the day. We love you guys.

Joel & Christal Mearig & Family

At 2:32 PM, Blogger Mama Cross said...

I'm thinking of you today - all of you. (and yes, I'm wearing pink and black) We talked for a while about BJ in our small group last night. (We're in Len and Coleen's old group.) What an impact BJ's short life has made on so many. I'm so sorry this legacy has required such a sacrifice on your part. It will be worth it all when we see Jesus.

Praying for you.


At 2:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren and Whitney,

Bruce and I have been lifting you up in prayer, especially the past several days. The Lord lays you on my heart daily.

I know today must be a day of solemn remembrance for you, but also I pray, one of glorious celebration. The Lord is faithful, and even though His way isn't always the path we long for and we fail to understand why He answers us in the manner He does, His grace abounds.

The Lord told Paul, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." (2 Cor. 12:9)

It is a simple, but bold and complex statement. God refused to remove the thorn in Paul's flesh. He wanted Paul to rely on His grace.

I have contemplated for the past year why God does what He does. September 26, 2005 started a long year of questioning, seeking answers and coming to grips with why.

Why take BJ? Why plant my kids on opposite sides of the country? Why by now aren't I more wise in His ways? And even, why do we women have to go through menopause? (I think Bruce has been asking this one as well!)

His plan is so difficult to understand some days. I pray, but sometimes I still feel so helpless. I cry and He doesn't always answer the way I'd like.

Then one day, while reading my Bible study, I read 2 Cor. 9 with fresh eyes and suddenly I started to understand. God promises us that His grace is sufficient! In our weakness, in our tough times, in our tragedies, God's power is manifested.

Paul goes one to say in 2 Cor. 12:9-10, "Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, I am strong."

I came away with a new attitude. If God allows these things to happen, if it is His will, He will give me the grace to handle it and I need to find contentment and comfort in that truth. And in knowing that through it all, God's grace and power will be revealed, not just to me, but to a hurting and confused world.

So today I pray that through your tears, your pain, and your joy, that God's sufficient grace and His power continue to be manifested and poured out in your lives.

We miss you all.
Love, Bruce and Celesta

At 3:40 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


i miss him.

i love y'all.

i'm on my knees.

i have on my pink shirts today. Jill Casey (fellow Union/Awe Star friend) are having dinner tonight..thinking that we should spend some of this day w/the people that understand our pain.

i love you guys.

At 3:59 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart cries for you today Whitney, Lauren, and Mom and Dad Higgins. You have been in my thoughts and prayers soo much latley. I pray that God will comfort you today and fill you with his peace. I love and miss you all!!!! Kat

May the LORD bless you and keep you; may the LORD make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; and may the LORD turn his face toward you and give you peace. Numbers 6:24-26

At 4:09 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

As I read the blog and the comments of today, I am once again brought to tears. Tears that come because of the number of people that BJ was able to touch in the name of Christ. My life is SO different. I love Christ. He has changed my life. BJ's Celebration of Life was the turning point in my life when I truly understood where I needed to start my journey to a life Christ-centered. By reading this blog everyday, I continue to be inspired to delve into the Word and live a life for Christ and in Christ. Thank you for continuing to share in the name of Christ, even when it was difficult. May God continue to comfort you. May you feel the love that comes from your blog family. I know it might seem hard to understand, but I am truly grieving for you AND, most importantly, celebrating BJ's life!!

At 4:22 PM, Blogger ericdavid said...

Without a doubt this has been the best year of my life and it was God through your precious son who started it. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for the lives that you lead, the example that you set, and the unconditional love that you give all in the Glorious, Heavenly name of Jesus Christ.


P.S. i am coming to Igo!

At 5:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna, Whitney, & Lauren,

We have talked about all of you today, we have prayed for all of you, and we all sat around the computer as I read today's entry to all of the kids.

Again, as happened over & over this last year and a year ago...no one could talk & mommy had tears streaming down her face. Sometimes it takes me a very long time to read your entries out loud.

Only Zach spoke after about 2 or 3 minutes. "Can I write on the computer this time? I just want to tell them I love them."

Praise the Lord that He uses you and the family's willingness to serve Him even through your immensely, painful walk w/Him. Only He can give joy in this...isn't that amazing!!?

Then while we were having our devotions today, we somehow got on to "time". Hunter wanted to know how long our years were to God. We talked about how a thousand years was like a day to Him. Hunter immediately said, "BJ has hardly had any time in heaven!" Interesting...he is probably still at his party! I of course don't have any idea for sure...

Truly, we don't even know what to say as one of the other bloggers said. We do know that He knows everything you are feeling and how best to surround you. He prompts us through His spirit as we pray for you today. Know that we have lifted all of you up over and over and over again today.

You are loved.

You are such examples of partners in the race to glorify Him.

May He continue to bless, use & hold you beyond your wildest prayers!

In His precious, holy, sovereign, powerful and caring love,

The McMahans

PS Just because...we are also praying for one incredible sunset tonight - in every area around the country - just as a sweet reminder of BJ and his/our many "clouds of witnesses". All to His glory!!

At 5:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and your family on this day. I have followed your story since just after the blog began and I have cried and prayed along with you. May you find peace in the thought of BJ celebrating with his Savior tonight.


At 5:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mom, Dad, Whit, and Lauren,

What an honor it has been to know you and serve with each of you. The life that y'all are living is an amazing example to me and the body of Christ as a whole. And I envy the life that BJ is now living. I love you so much more than you will ever know and I cannot thank you enough for how each of you have impacted my life for the Kingdom.
See y'all in November.

April C.

At 5:26 PM, Blogger LisaTeegarden said...

I remember this day a year ago...I remember the eve of the 25th not at all wanting to leave the hospital to come back to Marion. My heart was heavy then. I never thought that the Lord was going to take BJ home. I don't know why. Sometimes I am better at intuition than I was that night. Perhaps not wanting to leave was the intuition. I love my family dearly. I guess it was selfish. But I wanted to know the BJ of 2005 better. I have regrets of not getting to see BJ, Lauren and Whitney like I should have in later years. Not as much as I wanted to. Maybe I should not have, but I questioned WHY. Even though I KNOW GOD KNOWS BEST. I LOVE YOU, Brent, Deanna, Lauren, and Whitney....MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. I DON'T SEEM TO FIND THE RIGHT WORDS TODAY. THANK YOU JESUS FOR A WONDERFUL FAMILY. THANK YOU BJ, you have taught me so much, even in your homegoing. TAKE CARE OF HIM, JESUS, and all the others who have gone ahead of us. Remembering, Loving, reflecting, caring, crying, and Rejoicing. GOD IS AWESOME. May BJ's Story continue to BRING OTHERS TO JESUS. Yes, BJ GOT IT. Love you's Lisa

At 5:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love you Higgins family and I am praying for you! God has changed my life by knowing you through this blog. May His arms hold you through your tears.

Noblesville, IN

At 5:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Higgins,

Im praying for you guys today. I thank God for BJ's life and the life that you guys live today.

I had an amazing time today explaining the prayforbj.com shirt to countless people.

Jonathan Haag and Family

At 6:14 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna & Girls-

Been thinking and praying for you all day. I have had plenty of time to reflect, drove a lot of miles between patient's houses today. It is an absolutely beautiful day here in Indiana today, bright blue sky, big puffy white cumulus clouds. A picture perfect day. As I look into the clouds, it is easy to imagine BJ up there, in a beautiful place, reaping his rewards for being such a faithful servant! Hope you all are doing ok, praying for Deanna and her job. You all are deeply missed. Take care.

Love, Nancy

At 6:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Now I say to you in conclusion,
life is hard, at times as hard as crucible steel. It has its bleak and difficult moments.
Like the ever-flowing waters of the river, life has its moments of drought and its moments of flood.
Like the ever-changing cycle of the seasons, life has the soothing warmth of its summers and the piercing chill of its winters.
But if one will hold on, he will discover that God walks with him,
and that God is ABLE to lift you from the fatigue of despair to the buoyancy of hope, and transform dark and desolate valleys into sunlit paths of inner peace.

These words were written before I was even born, by Martin Luther King Jr. in 1963 at a eulogy given for martyred children. A good pause for reflection on this day of reflection; and I lend them to you on your day. My thoughts are focused on your family throughout today, as they have been throughout the days leading up to today. May God bless and keep you. (And He will!)

At 6:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

brent, deanna & girls - our thoughts and prayers are with you today more than ever. I'm so thankful that you could be together today. I hope that along with the tears, there is laughter at the wonderful sense of humor BJ had and some of the things he did. My favorite picture from the mission trip (Corbin) is the one with him holding the little turtle - the look on his face! How we miss him, and how we miss you! We anxiously await your visit. Please know that you are in our hearts and prayers and that we send our love to you today along with hugs! To Him Be the Glory - elsie jay & sam

At 6:23 PM, Blogger Unknown said...

Dear precious family,

I have come here several times today, and each time not knowing what to say. So many ahead of me have said it so well, so much better than I am capable of doing. So all I can do is tell you what's in my heart.

I thank you for your precious son BJ, through this site I learnt, how to pray with fervor and passion, I learnt what it was to truely rely on the Lord, to trust Him in all that He did/does.

You taught a mother of a troubled teen, how to love that child unconditionally and release her into the care of our precious Savior.

You have shown the world what it is to walk in the grace of the Lord, no matter how uncomfortable it is/was.

Through BJ we have come together as one voice, united, regardless of background or denomination and stand beside you in faith.

Thank you for your openess with all of us and your obedience to the Lord.

You are constanly in my prayers and thoughts today.
I pray that the Lord will give each of you what you need, moment by moment.

In His Love

At 6:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

>praying for ya'll today, i wish i could just hug you all
>lauren, you are deeply missed in the world of 3E
>i love you guys so much
crazy megan

At 6:54 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dad, Mom and sisters,
I wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you today. I also
wanted to tell what an encouragement your family has been to me. It
amazes me at how you willing opened up your arms for the nations and
allowed God to have all the glory in BJ's death. Your continuing faith
through this year has been a source of comfort for me. What God has
done this past year is unbelievable, he has given you a ministy to the
nations. Thank you for doing all that you have done. I love you all and
know that you will not be forgotten, for this is your story along with
BJ's thanks for sharing it. Your in my prayers. Sierra Olmstead

At 7:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart and prayers are with your family today! What a blessing you have all been to my life! I pray that God gives you great comfort today.
Love you, Rick Bloss

At 8:48 PM, Blogger Cousin Beth said...

I've been thinking of you all day today. So glad the girls are there.
BJ has taught us all so much, and so have you.
May God's grace remain sufficient for each new day. I'm so thankful that our Heavenly Father knows our needs before we ask Him.
He loves you more than any of us ever could.
Always remembering, praying, and loving,

Beth and family

At 9:02 PM, Blogger Lattany said...

No words, just love.

Fairfax, VA, USA

At 9:07 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Higgins family,

I was made aware of this site within the past two weeks. I have started from the beginning, planning to read every entry you wrote. So far I have gotten into September. I want to thank you for your incredible faithfulness through all of this. It was your faith and conformity to God's will that amazed me so much. Praise God for your family's faith. Thank you for keeping this blog. Thank you for your example and your incredible impact on your family in Christ. You are in my prayers today especially. Thank you!

Another member of the body of Christ who was humbled and inspired by your love and kindness

At 9:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

WOW - the sunset WAS INCREDIBLE tonight!!! What an answer to your prayer!!

At 9:58 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Brent, Deanna and girls,
My heart goes out to you guys today. I haven't visited the sight for a while. I lost my mom July 26. She was 87 years old and I still wasn't ready to let her go until the Lord gave me a peace and released her to go to Heaven. I can't imagine a non-believer coping with losing a loved one and not understanding the need for them to know Jesus. What a relief to know that our loved ones are with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. May God richly bless you! Your friend in Santa Claus,
Jean Peters ( Jes' Youmans' mom)

At 10:01 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love you guys like family. And you better be coming up here for Christmas, or sometime between then.

And I'll have to send you a copy of the picture disk from the Mission trip

At 10:09 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i'm praying for you guys

At 10:32 PM, Blogger Amber said...

Higgins Family,

Wow i miss all of you so much!! you have been in my prayers daily!I was too awaken at 300 am this morning from my clock being set at the wrong time... hehe Hope all is doing well! I miss BJ so much. But I can not wait until that day where we will all stand before our Savior and be able to see him and BJ finally once and for all.

amber luedke

At 10:35 PM, Blogger Barbara Ann said...

Oh my precious family...
I cant believe that its been a year. This year has been full of so many things. So much newness in your lives. And watching you through it all has just encouraged and blessed me beyond what any words can ever protray. You have gone far out of your way to provide for me, and bless me with your time and for that Im so grateful. I do miss BJ. But Im so amazed at how and what our God has done through his death. The lives that have been touched. The people that now know the Lord because of his influence....and yours. I know that I say this alot, but I am so blessed to know you. I am so encouraged by you. And I do know that its totally the work of the Father in you. I so enjoy having you near... I am looking forward to learning from you even more and serving with you next summer.

amazed at such a great God,

Barbara Ann

At 11:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent, Deanna, Lauren, and Whitney,

Today I truly rejoice. I rejoice in the amazing work God is doing through your continued obedience to share the story of bj with the world. I had so many opportunities to share bj's story today! It was such a blessing to see the expressions of those hearing the story change. To see them desire to lift you up in prayer, and challenged to live a life of faithfulness as bj did. It was so incredible!

As I was reading this morning, I was led to Revelation 7. What a beautiful picture of what bj is experiencing! I must admit I'm pretty jealous! But it is so true that "praise and glory and wisdom and thanks and honor and power and strength be to our God for ever and ever...And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes."

I love you guys so much. Your example of obedience means so much to me. It is truly an honor to serve with you and fellowship with you.

Continuously amazed,


At 12:07 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Higgins family,

You guys have been such a blessing to my life. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Your great passion for sharing God's love and His word to the world is evident every time I get to talk with you, and it is contagious! Thank you for challenging me to live a better life full of passion for sharing God's word throughout the nations.

Today, because of BJ, I've been praying like I haven't in a while, and I really needed that.

Thank you so much! I love you guys!


At 12:16 AM, Blogger the leaf family said...

As my tears fall,and my heart aches I think of each member of your family and extended family.
As I pray for you and wish so much that I could hug each of you. I can't help but remember how incredible BJ was and now he is loving and worshipping our Savior, the one thing he lived so intensly for, the one thing he laid his life down for, the one thing that we all pray to achieve on a daily basis. BJ did (it seemed) without any effort, without a second thought of what others would say or think.
BJ did, in just a few years, more to share how much Christ loves people then most of us will even think of doing in our many years. BJ in just the last year without even being here on earth has reached more hearts, changed more lives then most people will ever even know.
I wore my pink in honor of BJ today and had a chance to share his story with a group of several people today. So now BJ continues to share the love of christ and change lives while a lot of us are still sitting for that perfect time to start or some still just thinking about...
Thank You so much for allowing us such a wonderful blessing of the following of BJ's life and your families story.

With my heart full of love and prayers from KC- Tracy

At 12:27 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Friends,
You all are in our thoughts and prayers today and always. We can't wait to see you all again( especially can't wait for Deanna to meet our little one).We wish we could give you all big hugs today!
Take care!
With our Love,
John, Leslie& Olyvia

At 12:43 AM, Blogger Praying in Pink said...


Untold numbers of you became a part of this this family last summer at the urging of MercyMe's lead singer Bart Millard, whose e-mail blast urged his fans to join him in prayer for BJ.

Right now, God calls us to join in prayer for Bart. He has been hospitalized in Louisiana with what doctors believe is diverticultis along with the potential for a colon rupture that could produce a very serious infection.

I knew God would want any late-night/early morning and/or left coast bloggers to join in lifting up our friend and brother before Him. Bart is not only MercyMe's lead but the husband of Shannon and father of three precious little ones.

Father, Bart carries Your message to so many. The words and music you give him have reached around the world and surely into the gates of heaven--a place he has helped us to "Only Imagine." Use our prayers even now to touch him, to reassure him and his loved ones that he can "Hold Fast": that you have all of this well within Your strong hand.

We ask these things knowing that You, whose name is Healer, are more than able to preserve his health and spare his life. Give his doctors wisdom. Give Bart, Shannon, their children and other loved ones your grace and peace through these hours. Sustain MercyMe as they also wait and watch and fall before You. Give many people eyes to see and hearts to pray. We wait before you, Lord. . . on our knees,

still praying in pink,


At 1:38 AM, Blogger Praying in Pink said...

God has just reminded me that even emails from radio stations can contain errors. In my urgency to pray and post, I did not confirm the truth of my request. Whether or not it is confirmed, failing to check WAS wrong. Please forgive. Praying that Bart is well, looking for more updates when available.

STILL praying in pink!


At 2:37 AM, Blogger Unknown said...

Marti, we heard the same report, I just took a look at the MercyMe site and on their message board is the same report that you gave. We all know that prayers are heard and it certainly won't hurt Bart to be covered in prayer.

In Him

At 8:04 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I continue to be amazed by the depth of those who visit this place. What can God do if He remains the fire in the hearts of these readers?

Frank in Quito

At 8:35 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is now the morning of September 27 and I wanted to tell you that I made a point of sitting on my front porch in Noblesville, IN last night while the sun was setting. I sat there and prayed and studied God's word. I sat there and witnessed one of the most beautiful PINK sunsets I have ever seen! I pray your day yesterday was blessed and I pray your day today is blessed. I am blessed by being a part of this blog family. God is so good! Thank you for using BJ's life to touch so many people.

In Christ,
Noblesville, Indiana

At 8:45 AM, Blogger Unknown said...

What an incredible story! I grieve with you for the loss of your precious son, but know that you will see him again one day.


At 10:43 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I saw my first falling star last night.(I am old) The first thing I thought of was BJ and your family and I have never even met you all. Just another sign that our Awsome God is in control.

At 7:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

God is Good! Praying for you guys!

Ont, Canada

At 10:35 PM, Blogger Scott Harris said...

Hey guys. I just wanted y'all to know that I still tihnk about y'all and still pray for y'all. I wore my pink prayforbj.com shirt in honor of BJ.

At 4:30 PM, Blogger KaeliDakota said...

i can only be amazed. This story changed my life and my life song became more gloious!! i can't express how much i miss you guys!! im praying everyday for you, and can't wait till we meet again!!

on my knees,
Kaeli Cockrell

p.s. im trying to come to laredo


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