Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Hello family! I cannot tell you how much it means to me that you all are still faithfully reading and praying for my family, especially my parents. This has been such an amazing tool for them to talk about Beej and receive support and encouragement. I could not thank each of you enough for your faithfulness in lifting my parents up both through your prayers and written words.

This past month or so, I have been feeling a bit overwhelmed by the amount of changes and decisions our family is facing. I began to get frustrated a couple weeks ago because I was reading and praying yet not receiving direction. As I was reading one night in Hosea, God said very clearly to me that as I was reading, I was looking for something to speak to my specific situation rather than to simply learn more about Him and I needed to be doing the opposite. For a couple days, I was able to read differently and just seek God's heart rather than focus on the answers I was looking for. About a week later, I was having a conversation with Aunt Lynae about all the different decisions I am facing and how I felt so lost in it all. After listening for close to an hour, she shared with me that she felt she needed to tell me that I just needed to look to God. I needed to not focus on each question I had, but rather focus on the Lord, and the answers I was looking for would become apparent in His timing. I realized that though God had made that very same thing clear to me several days prior, I had already re-focused on finding my answers and in turn had once again become overwhelmed. I again walked away with such a peace for a couple days and purely sought God. After another week, I received an e-mail from the person I am considering interning for this summer. At the end of his e-mail to me explaining what I would be doing he gave me the simple reminder that it's easy to get caught up in seeking direction from God and get focused on "what to do" but instead I just need to focused on who He wants me to be. I was floored. 3 times God brought the exact same thing to my attention. Biblically, God only repeated things 3 times when they were incredibly important and major emphasis was needed. I think I finally get it... I still don't know my plans for the summer or next fall, but I know where I need to be, and that is staring in the face of my Savior Jesus Christ. There is no other place I would rather be.

Love you all



At 7:14 AM, Blogger Praying in Pink said...

Face to face with Him--that is the SAFEST and BEST place to be, Whitney.

Your parents are not the only ones for whom we pray.
We love you and are so blessed to see the evidence of His strong hand in your life. Thank you, Father, for the "Aunt Lynaes" and others You have put into my own life to encourage me always, always,to go back to You and do the last thing You told me.

with tender love and prayers in pink--for Higgins in Mexico AND Indiana AND (one day soon) Oklahoma and (one day not far away at all)North Africa!


At 7:47 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Whit - I'm so blessed to know you. You are so unique and I praise God for where you are now, and what you are teaching me. I love you a lot, and I'll see you tomorrow night. :)

Psalm 37:4 - My soul says of You, "Seek His face!" So Your face, Lord, I will seek.

Praying for you

At 8:15 AM, Blogger Lattany said...

"There is no place I'd rather be than at the center of His will."

Thanks for writing this morning, Whitney. It's a privilege to intercede on YOUR behalf as well as the rest of your family.

Fairfax, VA, USA

At 9:23 AM, Blogger the leaf family said...

It is so wonderful to hear your words Whitney. I am continuing to pray for your parents and also for you and Lauren and the rest of your family.
I pray that you will continue you to just listen and stay focused on the Lord.
With love and prayers from KC today -Tracy

At 10:38 AM, Blogger LisaTeegarden said...

Great to "hear" you write again Whitney. I am sorry things have been difficult for you lately. Great advice from those three people. God will carry you and show you how to be you in His plans for you. We pray for you and Lauren too during these days of decisions. LOVE YOU, Aunt Lisa (I have 2 prayer requests too, Joshua (Aunt Lynae's oldest) has a staff infection same one Ari had earlier and my friend Cindy has a type of Lymphoma. I know God is able.)

At 11:01 AM, Blogger Aunt Maralyn & Uncle Ray said...

You girls have been in my prayers as well as your parents. I know change is never easy and you have had so many to think about and deal with. I'm thankful for your 3 reminders. Your Aunt Lynae is a good one to share with and listen too.Your California family love and care for all of you very much. I'm confident you will make the right decisions with the Lord's help and timing.
Aunt Maralyn

At 11:36 AM, Blogger Tara Case said...

Whitney and Family,
I find myself not being on here as much. I find myself searching for things to do and then it hits me to come and check. Something that was my entire life and consumed my prayer life has become something a never thought it would be. Now i am on the team you are leading--As i stop for a second and look at the past 9 months from when i first went on the foreign field- I am able to see more of the big picture. How God so faithfully prepared my heart before peru and gave me a love and passion and desire to know my team. Then as we served together we were bound so closely and we sought God's glory... and that alone. Coming home looking at the other teams and feeling as though we were strangly close to one another. We kept in tough very well and continued to pray for eachother. We were all so excitied about all of our ministries. Then as beej got sick we all began to see why we were all so close. Bring back up how its all about Gods glory. So what God had put in us, (not knowing at the time) was to be used for later. So many times I think we can all get consumed in the take everything in and use it all at one time. Sometimes i think we have to take it in. Think on it. Let it set and then God truly puts something before us. I only see so far right now. I can only see his hand so much yet i know it goes far beyond that and I...I wait until then. Trusting Him. Seems that trust is my lesson he is trying to set within me. I am trying to take it all in. Anyways, i love you all. Miss your faces and hugs! :-)
Free to Run after my King,

At 1:11 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for your thoughts today. I can truly relate. Praying for you and your family.

At 2:13 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing, Whitney. So many times we have problems sharing our struggles and imperfections with others and wear the "painted grin" the Casting Crowns talk about. We want everybody to think that we are "perfect", in a sense. I so greatly appreciate the humbleness of you and your family to openly discuss about your times when happiness, frustration, depression and struggle. It re-assures that I am not the only one and eliminates the question "What's wrong with me?" Even though we know that others are going through the same emotions, it's so important that we are able to admit it to one another.
Thank you so much Higgins' family for continuing to bless my life - all of our lives.

At 4:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for seeking God as you do and sharing His heart for you. Through your hard time God has used you to bless others,and myself. I was on facebook and Elizabeth had a link to this website. I thought I would take a look, and I read your blog. What a blessing it was to read. What freedom we have to truly live through Jesus Christ. Thank you for trusting in the Lord. It is such an encouragement.

At 4:29 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Sis! I can relate to your experience as well. I've often said it would be great if He just wrote what He wanted me to do on a yellow sticky note and post it on my monitor, I'd know what to do!! LOL I've learned while He could do that, I'd lose the joy, frustration, education, understanding and closeness with Him as I wrestled with the issue. Life is a journey not an destination and I need to keep remembering that even at 47. I praise God for what He has taught me through your family sharing this part of their journey with me and the rest of us. I have been honored to intercede in prayer for your family. I have had intimate times with the Lord I would have missed, I've had opportunities to share the Gospel that I wouldn't have had, and I've reached out to strangers in Christ's love that I wouldn't have done without the example, encouragement, heartbreak, pain and learning I've experienced here. So it is I who thank YOU for allowing me to share this small part of your journey Home. Jesus Christ be praised!
Hudson, OH

At 10:14 PM, Blogger Derek Tucker said...

Hey y'all,
It was good to hear from you Whitney. I know that whatever you do will be awesome and the right decision! I don't post very often anymore but I wanted to let you all know that I read what you write everyday. I still feel like I don't have the right words to say but I pray for y'all often and look forward to when we can see each other again. I truly do hope that God blesses you beyond what you can imagine. I love you guys

Derek Tucker
Deer Park, Texas

At 9:31 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Whitney -- watching you sing to the Lord at Service on Sunday is a true inspiration to "believe" what we sing, say and pray. He truly leads you and your family in ways that keeps me in awe. Thank you for inspiring us once again to rely on His will for us each day. Your a faithful servant, be led . . .

At 11:29 AM, Blogger jml said...

Don't worry, Look to Him and know He has a great adventure waiting for you and He is going to do great things through you.

Remember you are His and you are Special


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